Bab 167: Down to King Enma (2)

******someone noticed what was happening to me. But I', still reluctant to say anything. I might cry. I might take out my anger anf blew up everything. Just thinking about it, makes me believe that it will be all my fault. That everything that I am feeling was wrong.  was not right. And I know that with my kind of attitude, everything will go down the drain.

No one have my back. I know and they dont need to say it. I know from the way that they show. Last choice. Last person to be remembered about everything. And be blamed for not being remembered by anyone. And it must probably be true. 

And after what they have done, in the end I'd be all alone. And just like any other day. It wasnt new, its just I want to get out of that. But looks like it was a far away dream. keeping everything inside is the best way to save myself somehow. It is enough that I am hurting myself. I thinki I dont need any hurts from them.

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