Bab 1: CHAPTER ONE: MY FIRST KISS

<p>For the third time, her advocate demanded for corporation but she was too stubborn .Why did do you do it? Her attorney asked. She gave her an evil, sarcastic grin and took a few seconds before she uttered the words 'Infidelity, adultery, unfaithfulness, two timing', taking poses after each word. The attorney who was already by the door, looked at her as if she was asking her to repeat herself. When she began to narrate her actual story the officer walked back. 'It goes back to when I was like ten, my dad was violent drunkard. He used to beat up my mother. I could shut the door, and try not to listen to every little fight coz neither of them was right.<br/>As I grew I realized they were having fewer arguments. Whenever they had one I couldn't help but wonder why they wouldn't be happy. I could close my eyes and pray for a whole new family, where everything was right. One that felt like mine. I swore I wouldn't be like them, but I was just a kid back then. Regardless of the little fights life went on, I joined high school and graduated to College. I was admitted into the Fairmont's College to pursue my law degree.<br/>One even day during the long holidays a random number messaged me. Since I was idle I replied however that was never my habit. As hours went by we became conversant with the stranger .He went by the name Sidon and I, I was Naya Lavelle. We spent most of the time chit chatting. He was such an interesting character. Several days went by we were still in touch Checking up on each other , telling our likes and dislikes and the messages turned into long hours of calls Some which lasted up to midnight others meant waking up to answer calls at three in the morning.. Little did I know I had already caught feelings! I knew a lot about him but specifically that he was single and I was in a long distance relationship with a guy I had not set my eyes on but I never mentioned that.<br/>So one sunny afternoon he asked me to meet him. I had been so eager to meet him. I didn't hesitate I went to the place we were supposed to meet. He was sited outside this white building, a bank. I approached him and said 'I guess I'm looking for you'. He smiled back at me and replied 'I also guess I've been waiting for you', as he hugged me and we walked away. He was dark and not that tall, slender with not well kept hair and with one of his features that I loved the most his teeth. Not because they were brilliant white but they were disorganized, his canines on the incisors.<br/>'You so thiic he said as he spank and grabbed my A**. My heart skipped a little and I smiled back pretending to be comfortable with what he did though I wasn't. You're right I replied and awkwardly I asked him if he liked thick girls. He took some time before answering the same. It was evident he didn't like thick ladies and that kind of messed up my confidence and self-esteem. In my mind I kept talking to myself 'Yes I'm plump but I'm also a vibe and I don't have a problem with my body."<br/>I looked at him as if trying to tell him I had heard nothing that came out of his confidence killer mouth. But I wasn't that confident at the moment to say anything, instead I smiled and we kept on walking. He took me to some place that looked like a forest but it wasn't. Just that there were trees only and a few houses that were scattered. It was so silent, pin drop type of silence; all that you could hear were the melodious birds from a distance, the whistling trees. The air so fresh, cool breeze. Is this a picnic or some sort of a hike, I thought to myself<br/>The place was a perfect fit, for a person who wished to meditate or have some alone time.<br/>For a first time date, he had a high score. Time went by really fast I didn't even realize I had spent three hours with a stranger just yapping and laughing out loudly.<br/>Oh my God it's already five o'clock I really need to get back before my parents, I said but he held my hand and replied 'worry less when I'm with you I'll escort you I know a short route. Being young, stupid and naïve I listened to him and we kept walking into the deep end of the forest.<br/>We sat on some stones looking at our small home town and began to say how we wanted to go away. He then pulled out a king sized joint. He had a lighter; he lit the joint and began to smoke. He had two puffs and passed me the joint as he blew the smoke into the air laughing out loudly. It seemed to be so much fun. It wasn't my first time being high so I wasn't afraid of choking or being high and stupid. I took two puffs as well and blew the smoke into the air. As I took my third puff he excused himself and went to pee<br/>A few centimeters from where we sat he pulled down his pants and all I could hear was how his pee hit the ground. I was uncomfortable but never wanted him to think of me as a coward. I covered my ears with my hands , I tried so hard not to look but still it was impossible coz I had a glimpse of his A**. Ooh! Gracious heavenly master pardon me for this unthinkable sin, I murmured with my face into the sky. Seeing someone naked was kind of a big deal and a taboo to me since I had been brought up knowing it was inappropriate for a girl to see a boy naked. When he was done he sat next to me 'Here' I said as I passed him the joint. He took a puff and leaned in to blow the smoke unto my face. My heart was pounding I was afraid he could hear. After several puffs we were high, our minds dazed into the clouds, laughing at the most inappropriate and not so funny things. In a flash, his lips were on mine. I held unto my fists tightly as I opened my eyes wide in shock. He tasted like Tequila Sunrise and a sweetness that made my lips to dive right into the kiss. I wanted it to be special; I never wanted to fumble my first kiss. Every part of me wanted to wrap around him, his hands in my hair, pushing me to the ground gently, exploring my mouth with his tongue. <br/>Before I realized what was going on I was on the ground with my skirt up to the level of my tummy and the guy almost penetrating me. Just then I heard my friend's voices in my head explaining their experience on how they lost their virginity. It was a painful experience, some said. You can become sick if you're broken badly others said.<br/>Those words made me to pull back and we broke apart. Panting with my pulse pounding in my veins, I looked into his eyes as I pulled down my skirt. He looked back into mine; shell-shocked like I'd just dropped a bomb in the center of the dance floor. He asked what was wrong 'I think I should go,' I replied<br/> "You can't leave me high and dry,' as he stood and his wood dangling. <br/>What do you mean, (chuckling) or what do I ought to have done, I asked trying not to look at his nudity but I guess something's are quite impossible so I decided to ask him politely. Can you pull your pants up?' as I glanced away. He seemed unbothered and unmoved with what I said so he kept on yapping how he wanted to have sex with me and I rejected him. He insisted and said something like "I will be in pain if I wear my pants while I'm still hard.' I looked at him in disbelief. He was really taking me for the fool I was .I had zero canal knowledge so I kinder sympathized with him. I was left without a choice; I went down on him and sucked him. If you asked me whether I did it right, I'll tell you based on stories and other people's experiences I had done it perfectly. I didn't bite his wood, so I was on the right track, supposedly. Once I was done he pulled up his trousers and walked me home. I felt like one of the filthiest sinners to be in the presence of our almighty Lord. I wished he could punish me right at the moment at least I would be worthy in his presence <br/>I have to go for my penance, I unknowingly thought out loudly. Say what now, he said. 'Nothing'<br/>Wronging God wasn't the only thing that stressed me at that moment. My father's violent behavior stressed me as well .I kept having my childhood flashbacks. The chaos once father was angry. I was certain he would quarrel my mother for my new behavior of coming home late .By the time I got home it was already dark and my phone had gone off. As I opened the gate my father shouted 'You can as well go back to wherever you're coming from'. I trembled because I knew he might be serious and I would have nowhere to go. If I knew Sidon's place then I wouldn't be shaking and trembling in fear the way I was but rather walk to his place and return like the prodigal son, once his anger had subsided<br/>I walked into the kitchen where my mother was cooking dinner with the lights out. Where are you coming from? She questioned angrily. I was dumb-founded. I lacked a better explanation and there's no way on earth I was going to say something like, "I'm sorry mother, I was sucking on a stranger." I used my only option lying of course. 'I was at my friends place. She asked me which friend , I told her Nelsy confidently because I had called her earlier on before my phone went off and I asked her to cover up for me. 'She had a birthday party and I lost track of time,' I concluded with a lot of fear .Not long before the lie the lights were back and my dad began to quarrel me. I said not even a single word .After throwing his tantrums, we had dinner which I clearly lacked the appetite for and to we went to bed. I put my phone to charge, once I boosted it, I rang Sidon and explained to him what had happened.<br/>Out of nowhere I poured myself to him, how much I loved him, and badly I wanted him and how I was full of regrets since I didn't let him between me. How I wanted to be his girlfriend and all that shit. He asked me if he could sneak to my place and finish what he begun earlier.<br/>There was a heated argument between my head which meant doing the right thing that is for him not to come over and the pleasures my body craved desperately. Luckily or rather unluckily before I could answer him his phone went off. Early morning my parents woke up and left for work without talking to me which was quite unusual. For two consecutive days we never had breakfast together, we had weird meals of not talking to each other just the television. As if the silent treatment from them wasn't enough, Sidon decided to switch off his phone.<br/>I had a million thoughts running in my head because of the silence treatment I was getting. Was he pissed because I refused to fuck with him? That would be lame coz how was I losing my virginity in the middle of nowhere. Or is it that I had put my feelings out there on after setting eyes on him. Clearly I lacked answers to my ending questions but I was sure that two days of silence and calls going straight to email was kind of an unbearable torture.<br/> <br/><br/> <br/><br/> <br/> <br/><br/> <br/><br/> </p>