Bab 30: Paranoia

Why do I have to

Feel this much?

Why do I have to

Burn from the touch?

Why do I have to

Lose it all again?

Why do I have to

Yearn for the meeting day?

Why do I have to

Remember the 17th of September

Why do I have to

Accept her drinking? Wait ...

Why do I have to

See what is *Not*?

Why do I have to

Be @ burden like that?

Why do I have to

Ask for forgiveness?

Why do I have to

Wait until morning ends?

Why do I have to

Have mortal flesh?

Why do I have to

Avoid death until very end?

Why can't I embrace you

with my bare hands?

And why it just doesn't work

Like it used to?

Why am I afraid this much of losing you?

And if I'd have a royal touch

Among the Spartans

Would you betray me

To save my life?

And what will happen if you do so?

Will my soul rise like a Phoenix bird?

Rather than cutting my ear off for you?

Fiend

Should I listen conversation with him?

Maybe leave it at all and never going in?