you call me a coward
something I cannot deny.
I look in the mirror, I see it all the time.
my cowardice bleeds through
my confident smile.
I lie, repress, and deny to relieve myself.
I hide my imperfections to protect from the pain.
I know it shines through, despite all the efforts I've made.
I'm tired of trying so hard for not.
my insecurities, inability, incompetence, all of it
so accurate to me.
everything you say is so real.
they ring so true in my head.
my terrible flaws perpendicular to how I portray.
I'm grasping for more like a breathe of fresh air.
desperate to catch something better than the me right here.
I live with myself,
it's a burden.
I'm looking in the mirror, saying how I truly feel.