Phoenix's P.O.V.:
Once Phoenix was able to calm down and regain control of his out-of-control emotions and heart rate, he thought about it clinically.
The treatments for "the insane" in that would were barbaric, cruel and unethical by modern day standards. Those "treatments for the patients on well-being" were just excuses to violate, abuse and neglect the "patients". For fuck's sake it was too easy to admit or rather commit someone to an asylum in those worlds, basically all it took was for TWO, just two people to say that a person was insane and boom into the asylum never to return said insane person goes! Hell, if one was sane going in, they most definitely would go insane before long.
He considers himself from the modern world as it were when compared to the worlds and times he lived in with zero technology. Technically speaking, in those types of worlds is where he seemed the most suited for, but he also loved the futuristic worlds and times, but he could live without the creative torture techniques that were shared from other alien races. Well, if that makes sense at all.
Phoenix could not help but close his eyes and let out a long deep sigh.
After all these years of not just living but being abused by everyone and everything on top of never once having a real family or even a single friend who cared for him or did not use him for their own gain or amusement has left him a bit twisted. He is not ashamed of it though, in fact, he is proud he is not worse than he is considering everything. He is not exactly immoral as he does care about right or wrong, it's just that he has become numb to it all.
He had to in order to survive. The Jailor System could read and analyze his every thought and seemed to love and almost take pleasure in forcing him to do very immoral things against his wishes.
Though he was twisted, detached and numb to everything and everyone except for Solaris, Phoenix still harbored a deep wish to find someone or something that will finally be a genuine good person or thing so that he can repay that kindness. How pathetic is it that he just wants something that he can give back to? Everything and everyone have always taken everything from him but what Phoenix wants is to find something or someone that he can freely give anything from or of himself to.
No soul could go through everything he did and turn out unscathed and unchanged for the worse. It took him about 30 lives or worlds before he started to harden his heart. After the 635th world, where he was a vampire lycan hybrid, and used as a test subject for 3 thousand years, and still died young, he finally started to loosen his rein on moral standards. It was after that life that Solaris found him. He can still remember the feeling of being dissected alive simply because his psychotic white lotus green tea bitch sister felt bored and curious. Sadly, that, particular psycho sister of his was not even the worse by a lightyear.
Every single family member he has had over the last 32 thousand years that loved or cared about him in any way, all ended up dead shortly after he entered the world, or they were already gone before he was forced to take over the shell in that world. The rest will let us just say actual demons from the deepest parts of Hell would be better for him and care more for him than any of those so-called family members.
He sighed deeply, deciding now was not the time to dwell upon the past he could not change and decided that he would focus on the present and go from here. Once they gain enough power, he will see what he can find out from Solaris. He cannot wait to crack open the vault of information that is strictly restricted from him. Phoenix has so many questions, but he knows that Solaris is unable to tell him much, yet. So, Phoenix did his best to hold on to his patience because as much as he needed and wanted answers, he did not want to push Solaris away. He knows that without him he truly will lose his mind.
Phoenix rose up and stood from the platform he was laying upon, while taking in his surroundings. With a slack jaw and his mouth slightly agape, eyes as wide as moon cakes, he stood like a sentinel taking in the view before him. How could he not be at a loss for words when it looked like they were floating in space. As far as the eye could see it was a vast expanse of galaxies, stars and planets. It all seemed to go on infinitely and it all made Phoenix feel oddly comfortable.
He had a sense of "home" as the barest whisper of familiarity passed through him. He wanted to explore this feeling deeper but at that moment Solaris interrupted his thoughts.
-Solaris - 'So what do you think master? Did I do a good job? It may not look like much but it's a blank canvas to work with, so to speak.'
-Phoenix - "… umm, Solaris? Where are we and why are we not dead yet from the vacuum of space?"
-Solaris - 'No Master you are not dead or dreaming and this is The Nursery.'
-Phoenix - "Yeah, you did well Solaris, can you tell me what exactly this place is and what do we do next?"
-Solaris – 'Master this is a special pocket of space that I was able to create just for you. It took up most of our remaining power, but it had to be done. We need a stable and safe space for you to recuperate and for us to be able to use as our base. From here you will be able to pick which world you would like to go to. As you gain more power you will be able to change The Nursery as you see fit. There is so much you will be able to do once you have the power. When the time comes, I will be able to tell you more about them and what all you can do with the power you gain from the worlds you visit.'
-Phoenix - "Why name it the nursery? It's so bare how can this be considered a nursery?"
Solaris – 'Yes Master but that's only because the soul power is so low. We can make it better and just the way Master would like when we have more soul power. It is called the nursery because it is here to not only nurse you back to your full potential but also because it holds all the baby worlds that have yet to finish forming. These "baby worlds" are these small marble-like spheres. Master can select one to find out more about it by picking it up and it will grow and hover in front of you like a hologram except that it is a real physical thing.'
-Phoenix - "Ok, how can we get more soul force? I know that in the past we were able to gain some just by me living longer than I was supposed to but now that we are out of that endless loop, what now?"
-Solaris – 'Master, it's an honor to get to tell you more, now that I have broken you out of that imprisonment and got you back to your rightful dimension, I can now tell you a little bit more about what is going on.'
-Phoenix - "Finally I have so many questions but since you already know most of them… (Thinks back to all the countless times he asked Solaris questions and Solaris replying that it couldn't tell Phoenix, yet) Ok Solaris just start by telling me what you can and then I will ask some follow up questions that you can answer if you are able to. How is that easy and fair right?"
-Solaris – 'Master really is intelligent and the best to Solaris! Master, Solaris is honored to tell you that what all I know that I can currently divulge to you Master.'
-Phoenix - "Ok enough with the sweet talk and just proceed… please."
-Solaris – 'Oh right away Master. We do not know yet why, but you were taken out of this dimension and imprisoned in another. Solaris was created with the sole task of finding and helping Master. My creator told me that I can only divulge the information that Solaris holds at the right times. I am sorry to say that I still cannot tell you much about my creator.'
-Phoenix sighed deeply he understands but is also disappointed because he feels like a pawn but if this whole ordeal has taught him anything he is a survivor. If this proves anything it is that Solaris's creator is someone with enough power and intelligence to go against whoever or whatever imprisoned him.
-Phoenix - "Ok Solaris, I understand please continue starting with where we are exactly."
-Solaris – 'Yes Master, we are in a pocket of space that I created to be your space. Here only you have the power to enter unless you give the permission for others to enter. You may also change this space as you see fit when you gain more power. As I stated before you were imprisoned in another dimension, and I was able to bring you back to your dimension, but I did not have enough power to get you to the center of this dimension, so we are on the edge of this one and the one you were in. It may not be much but hopefully Master is not too displeased by the current accommodations, Solaris did its best.'
-Phoenix - "I am not displeased at all Solaris. I know you did your best and I am extremely grateful for that and everything you do for me. Now how can we gain more soul power?"
-Solaris – 'Master you do not have to thank me. Solaris lives to serve Master. You can earn more soul power by going to worlds and changing the fate of the host or body you will take over. They are all lives that are set to be as tragic as the ones you lived before when you were imprisoned. This time you will have me and all my power. I will be with you and able to help you now that we are back to our rightful dimension most of my power has been unlocked. Mater does not have to worry about ever being weak again with Solaris you will be able to concur these worlds and syphon the power from them making Master stronger.'
Phoenix - "Ok, so all I must do, is go live as the host, live a great life in their stead and die naturally? Am I understanding this all correctly?"
-Solaris – 'Yes, Master is understanding correctly but there are things I cannot tell Master yet. Solaris is very sorry; it is just, I feel like I am letting Master down.'
-Phoenix - "You are not letting me down Solaris so please stop being so hard on yourself. You are the only one I have ever been able to count on. You are my best friend and I do not want you to be unhappy. Please just tell me what you can when you are able to."
Solaris knew he should tell Phoenix, but he was worried about how he would react since he was so happy to finally be free.
-Solaris - 'Umm, you see the thing is master...'
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Phoenix's P.O.V.:
-Solaris – 'Oh, umm, well you see Dear Master, I... I, I was only able to get you half-way out."
Phoenix waited for him to continue keeping his thoughts and emotions hidden.
-Solaris - 'I did not have enough power to get you to your home plane. You will have to earn the energy here so that we can finally free you. Until then who ever imprisoned you can still reach you but as soon as we get back to your home plane then you will be free from their grasp.'
Phoenix stood there and pondered on all this, he could tell there was more, but Solaris was not forthcoming about it. Well at least he has full control of the shell and act the way I want… wait is that the catch? He suddenly looked up and asked Solaris.
-Phoenix - "What's the catch?"
Solaris who was now very shaken was kicking himself for forgetting how smart his master is.
-Phoenix - "What is the catch, is it that I will still not have control over my own actions? I understand that my imprisoners can still look in on me and can even get to me still but there is, definitely, something you are not telling me."
Solaris suddenly got very quiet, and Phoenix knew something was definitely fishy about whatever Solaris does not want to tell him. He knows there is something Solaris does not want to tell him; he can feel it. 'What the hell is Solaris keeping from me?' he thought as he continued to stare at the same spot waiting for Solaris to continue.
-Solaris – '…'
Solaris suddenly became very quiet, and Phoenix knew something was definitely fishy about whatever Solaris does not want to tell him. He knows there is something Solaris does not want to tell him; he can feel it. 'What the hell is Solaris keeping from me?' he thought as he continued to stare at the same spot waiting for Solaris to continue.
Solaris began to metaphorically pace back and forth while also metaphorically sweating buckets. He is nervous because he knows his master won't like what he has to tell him, but he cannot, not tell him. Maybe he should coax him and try to butter him up first. Yeah, that's what he will do!
-Solaris – "*clears throat* Dear master, no need to worry Solaris will tell you everything he can as soon as he can, master has no need to worry. Solaris has never lied to master so please try to be tolerant and not be mad at Solaris… please.'
That last bit was said in the low tone of a child who had be scolded by his parents and was on the brink of tears would have. 'Damn it! This is not fair! Why must he insist on using that tone? Does he know that I cannot resist him when he talks like that? Damn it, why does he have to be so cute?' Thought Phoenix helplessly, well he will keep a straight face and see what Solaris will do or say.
Phoenix nodded his head as he made his decision while he continued to stare off in the distance. All the while he kept his face cold and unreadable. He will give him some more time and the benefit of the doubt for a little longer but if he does not start being more open and honest about what is really going on than they will have a different conversation! He will endure it even though he wants the answers now, so that he can finally gain his freedom.
He is so tired of constantly living and dying and not being able to forget anything has taken a major toll on him. He is exhausted and ready to be done with it all, with Solaris being his only true friend he will help him complete his mission and then… well Phoenix plans for his soul to rest forever. He took a deep breath and sigh before continuing.
Phoenix nodded his head as he made his decision while he continued to stare off in the distance. All the while he kept his face cold and unreadable. He took a deep breath and sigh before continuing.
-Phoenix – "I have been more than patient with you, I think I deserve a little bit more information, don't you think Solaris?"
His tone was even and the look on his face was passive, but Solaris could tell his master was a bit more than irritated. Solaris began to panic, trying to think of how he could explain it to his master without revealing too much at this time. He truly did want to tell Phoenix everything, but he could not because there was too much at stake. Then it came to him.
-Solaris – 'Master, you will be able to make your own decisions but there is handicap placed on you still. You will have to act according to settings of the world and shell's personality and abilities. But you will be in full control of the shell, so… it is an improvement…'
-Phoenix – "Haha Okay now that makes sense, why would you not just say that from the get-go? You know you could tell me about things like this, I would not get angry at you." He sighed deeply and took a few steps before turning around, with a shy smile.
-Solaris – 'Yes, Master Phoenix is right wise and understanding as always. I will do my best to be better in the future.'
-Phoenix – "So after we gain enough power from these worlds you will be able to break me free?"
-Solaris – 'Yes, master will be completely free from his imprisonment and those who imprisoned him. However, there are tasks that you will need to complete after you are free from their imprisonment and once you have completed those master will be completely free and can even choose to break the bond between Solaris and master.'
Phoenix picked up on the trace of reluctance and sadness as Solaris said that last bit, but he chose to act as if he didn't and nodded to indicate for Solaris to continue.
-Solaris – 'You can even choose to have extirpate your soul.'
His voice cracked at the last part of his sentence, because he does not want that. Just the thought of the eternal loss of this precious soul of his master made him feel like dying as well. Without his master Solaris is nothing. His whole existence is tied with his master's by fate.
Phoenix caught that slip of emotions from Solaris and his heart ached. He was not sure what he would choose to do with his soul yet, but he would be lying if he said he was not exhausted and just plain tired of it all. He will think about it again once he is free from this imprisonment completely. It was important to focus on the task at hand.
Solaris was very grateful to have such an understanding and sweet hearted mater. This little master of his was truly a good and pure soul. Well, that maybe him being biased but there can never be a completely pure soul just as there cannot be a completely blackened soul. He knows his master is a bit twisted in some ways but what soul wouldn't be after what he has been through? It is amazing that Phoenix's soul doesn't resemble ground beef or any other ground or shredded item.
His creator has excellent taste and chose the perfect soul. Oh, how he could not wait to fulfill all the tasks his creator set for him. Solaris hates not being able to tell his master everything, but he also understands that it might negatively affect the next main mission.
His creator has excellent taste and chose the perfect soul. Oh, how he could not wait to fulfill all the tasks his creator set for him. Solaris hates not being able to tell his master everything, but he also understands that it might negatively affect the next main mission. If everything goes well his master will definitely be happy and will praise Solaris, right? He may be A.I. but he is sentient, and he truly feels nervous. Sometimes he wishes he did not have these pesky human emotions but then he knows that he would not be Solaris without them, so he is grateful to be exactly as his creator made him.
Solaris could not help the tinge of guilt that arose when he thought about what he would receive from competing in his mission that his creator set out for him. 'What if Phoenix thinks that he was just used and ends up hating him and wanting nothing to do with him once he is completely free? What if he breaks the bond between them? No! That absolutely cannot happen! Without Phoenix, Solaris is nothing and would cease to exist, I mean what is even the point of existing without his master?'
Solaris took a deep breath in order to stop spiraling and all the negative thoughts that were currently rushing through his mind. 'No, that won't happen! Master cares for me I know it! Surely, he won't break the bond between us even if he is not happy. Honestly, speaking this will only benefit his master as well as his creator and himself but his master does not need to know all that just yet. He will tell him when the time is right, Solaris must choose just the right moment to tell his master lease he be upset with him again.
If one could see Solaris right now, he would look like a puppy who had been kicked by his master but was still hoping to gain his master's love and affection. His metaphoric ears were drooping, and his sad little tail was between his legs as he spiraled down more and more before finally perking up towards the end of his thoughts. Now he resembled a beagle waiting at its master's feet while he ate hoping that his master would drop some food so that he could clean it up for his master tight away.
If only Phoenix could see Solaris at this moment, his only thought would be "Oh My Gawd, how stinking cute! I just want to eat him up!" as he absolutely loves cute things though he has never admitted it to any one not even Solaris.
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