Bab 5: 5. When You Say Nothing At All.
Damon was restless. Mariella had settled in well with the pack. She had gone shopping with Adam and Charles, and it had turned out that Charles was Mariella's protector, whereas Damon was Mimi's. Damon didn't know how to react. He understood now why he had always been so protective of Mimi, always wanting to help, to heal.
He had not gotten his radar open and what Mariella had told him, it would become active once Mimi would need him. But then again, Mimi had taken him not to be her doctor. She had changed her last name, given him some houses, and taken some houses for herself. She was preparing for a divorce and Damon would not divorce her.
This uneasy feeling was somehow familiar. But he just couldn't get a grip. Mariella looked at Damon. Now, for the last three days, Damon was restless. He couldn't stand still, pacing around like he was looking for something, looking out the window, furrowing his brow.
" What's wrong with you, honey?" Mariella asked.
Mariella had her suspicions, but she needed to take this easy. Mimi was still a sore subject for him and she tried to make him realize his feelings for Mimi, too.
Damon turned around and came over to kiss Mariella. The kiss was passionate and held the promise of something more intense, but Mariella knew the session would be shorter than normal and Damon would find some excuse to get out of bed.
This was because Mimi needed him, and Protector instinct and Radar were coming to the surface. Again, diplomacy was needed. This would be a big deal to Damon, too. Extra responsibility to him to care for Mimi and time would only tell how this would go. But this was something that was decided by higher powers. That Damon is Mimi's protector.
Damon smiled and said, " Nothing, kind of uneasy, familiar, but now I can't remember when I've experienced this. You see, while mine and Damien's memories are still separating." Damon smiled. " Don't you worry, it'll be fine? My mind is sometimes a little messed up because everything is organized a whole new way and getting in shape. I am a work in progress."
Mariella said, "I think it's Mimi that's bothering you. Your protector instinct and possibly your radar is about to activate dear, meaning, she is in trouble."
Damon raised his eyebrows. No way. He hadn't thought about Mimi in ages now, Damon reckoned, a couple of months. Not since Mimi had turned around and walked away and changed her last name. And everything else, too. He knew he felt something for Mimi, but then again, the memory of Damien's obsession with her came back too, or the ghost feeling of that and it all made him even more confused about what his feelings were and what was Damiens.
Damon said, " Well, it's not Mimi. I haven't thought about her for months. Maybe I'm just confused, too."
Mariella said, "Fine, you have problems with your feelings and those that Damien. I am going to go and make a potion that will clear up all of Damien's influence and mark his memories so you will have certainty about what is yours and what was his."
Before Damon could react, she had dressed herself and gone to make a potion. Damon sighed. He had put on jeans; he was topless, looking out of the window, like trying to sense something. Soon Mariella returned with a little bottle. Damon asked nothing, but swallowed it. His mind was a whirlwind of activity and he distracted himself by throwing his wife into bed and fucking her brains out.
After 18 hours, Damon got up, they went to shower, and Damon started to show her what else could be done other than just have sex. He showed her cooking and, a few basic techniques and got Adam and Charles to participate too.
Damon was getting more and more agitated and restless. Now, they hadn't had sex in almost 24 hours. Damon had made Mariella watch while Adam and Charles made pancakes and crepes. Mariella was eager to taste everything and even Mimi had picked most berries from the garden, fridge was quite full of them.
So Adam and Charles fed her, Especially Charles, who gave her an insane amount of food, but everything went in. She also talked long and hard with Mimosa. They got along very well, and Shadow and Mimosa were almost like sisters already.
"Could it be Mimi after all?" Damon wondered.
He thought, and then he realized he wasn't feeling guilty like he would have been after the sessions. That's why this feeling is so hard to pinpoint, because it is new, but it is familiar at the same time.
Mariella came and wrapped herself around Damon. "Let's make a deal, honey. I'll do a tracking spell on Mimi, and we'll go see if everything's okay, okay?"
Damon nodded, at least then. He could be sure the feeling wasn't about Mimi. He said," I had an implant in her, but it is offline. I tried to look for her, but it was offline. She should not have removed it by herself, so I guess she has gotten into some sort of trouble. We can check on her. Even I am not her doctor anymore."
Damon's voice was bitter after that last sentence.
Mariella wrapped herself around Damon, kissed him, and said, "Maybe one day you will be. You are her protector, her husband, her pack mate. It is ok to check up on her,"
Mariella focused. She pulled up a map of America and asked Damon for a drop of her blood. Damon was questioning.
"You're Mimi's physiological other half. You're her protector, the best link I can come up with. Don't you dare question me about this?"
Damon was silent, bit his wrist, and reached out to Mariella. Mariella took the bowl and let the blood drain. Then the wound closed, and the blood would be more than needed. Mariella took a pipette and dropped a drop of blood in the middle of the map.
Then she began the spell. Her voice murmured the words, and the chanting got stronger as the blood droplet began to move.
Damon watched for a moment and said. "I think I know where Mimi is in Chicago."
Damon said. "Now I'm teleporting us to the courtyard of the Chicago house. I know you've never been there, and you know its history. This is the first place Mimi ever felt safe. The best person for the job would probably be Adam or Charles, but you know their temperaments. They'd go straight for Damien. If anything's been done to Mimi, it's probably been Damien. We have there plenty of supplies and maybe Mimi will be fine enough to get herself back into shape. We are just checking up on her. Nothing more. "
Mariella nodded. Then Damon teleported them out into the yard. Mariella immediately felt the energy in the house. She could see that the house was not going to be. Will it be somewhere in between burn down? Mariella couldn't quite see clearly, but the sense of unease and dread that swept over her as she looked into the future was strong. Whatever happened, it would not be good. She could see the future. It was iffy from time to time, but it was there. She was very sensitive to energy, too.
They went inside. The energies of the house were mixed. There had been pain, hurt, and fear but also a very great and bottomless love and trust, which Mariella soon realized belonged between Mimi and Damon. The house was lovely and Mariella would love to live in there, but this had been so clearly Damon's and Mimi's love nest she did not want to ruin it.
What had crushed this, in time, was Damien. Damon didn't want to acknowledge or even accept this. Mariella knew that and was silent. Damon was now on a quest, finding himself, and as a sort of protection mechanism, he had put all his feelings for Mimi away. That part who had been with Mimi, that part was resting and so were his feelings for Mimi too, but Mariella knew they would wake up at some point and she would help Damon to deal with them too.
Damon was convinced that Damien was complicit in the feelings, and he didn't want to dredge them until he was sure they were just his feelings. Mariella's potion had helped, and it worked inside him still, separating, tagging all of Damien's memories, dispelling Damien's feelings and everything that was not his. It would take time for him to get things straight in his mind.
However, something inside him was working. A desire to care and nurture. To see that Mimi didn't get hurt. Something was wrong with Mimi. He knew it, and he, just for a moment, was afraid to find out because he wasn't sure how he would react. He didn't want to see her in pain or sick. He felt extra sets of instincts come to life, and he realized that those were protector instincts. He also had some sort of radar, but it did not say much of anything. Damon knew that he would have to see Mimi to be sure that she was fine.
Damon picked up a bag from the hallway, which clanged. it was a sports bag or something. He flipped it open and took the medicine jar in his hand. A pharmaceutical panic drug. He suspected the worst and knew what he would find. He could see traces of blood in the bag. He brought it near his nose and smelled it. His radar came to life and showed him that Mimi was in a medical panic. And it was dangerous. She was also sick. Infections, drugs, a real mess, and he could also smell her rage too. For a moment, Damon considered the safest option. Mimi needed to put down and fast. But how?
Mariella asked, " What are they?"
When she saw Damon open one sports bag and pull out a glass jar.
Damon replied grimly, "Pharmaceutical panic drugs. Mimi has gotten into the medical establishment and escaped. This is not good. Smell this, here is little her blood, my radar just woke up, and it is not good news, not at all. She is in a very dangerous state and I have little trouble coming up way to get her under control."
Damon walked down the hall. He sensed Mimi down below. He thought of the best way to deal with her. Now, would she trust him enough so he could stun her? He didn't have the ring with him and was unsure about the best approach to this situation. He was thinking maybe calling Adam or Charles to help him. If they could get her, but then again, this was a challenge, and he never backed down from challenges. At least he needed to see her.
He went to Mimi's downstairs bedroom. He opened the door to one room, and the sight made Mariella gasp. It was a bedroom. More mattresses had been brought into the bed, bent into a cave-like nest. The bed was filled with blankets and pillows. There were bloodstains everywhere.
The energies of the entire room told Mariella of anguish, pain, and despair. Mariella shivered. Damon came and wrapped his arms around Mariella's shoulders. Damon felt energy too, and this was new to him as well. To feel so well Mimi's feelings. He realized how little he had been with Mimi, how little he knew her. He remembered one time when they had fucked in this room and how he had cleaned it afterward; he had no idea why he had done it; he had done it, not Damien.
"Here's a pharma panic for you. Mimi is now seeking refuge and hiding. I think she's in the medbay downstairs now. But first, come on, I'll show you around the house. I am not sure if I should call Adam and Charles to care for her, but I am her protector. At least I need to see her. Try to see if she is sane or not. She has evolved too and I have no idea into what."
Then Damon went and opened the window and moved some stuff around so that the evil energies slowly flowed out the window. Mariella sighed in relief.
They went upstairs. Damon opened the door to Mimi and his bedroom. The room had been trashed and destroyed. The wallpaper was torn down. There were only fingernail marks on the wall. Damon could smell Mimi all over the room. The pillows were destroyed, the blankets torn, and the bed was split down the middle.
Damon's side of the room, in particular, was empty, and the window had been left open. Damon walked to the window and looked down. All his clothes and bedding had been thrown down the window. There were bloodstains on the window glass.
Damon smelled the drugs in the blood and concluded that Mimi had been shot in the escape. Destroying the room caused something inside Damon to shatter, and Damon knew it was his fault. He got more and more info on his radar when he smelled her blood and the need to care for her grew, too. He didn't want to involve anyone else, not at first.
He shouldn't be sad, but he could almost palpably feel the deep sadness that seemed to stem from the fact that something had permanently broken between him and Mimi. He realized he would like to get to know Mimi, maybe start over, but then again, Mimi being Mimi. Damon hoped she would not allergize herself to him again because then he couldn't take care of her.
Mariella became wrapped up in Damon. "You'll get Mimi back if you want to."
Damon said, " How can you be so sure? Mimi is a hard girl to win over, and I've done some bad things myself, and as you can see, she doesn't want me. I broke her heart once again. This is my original sin. I am too quick and cruel to do things. I don't think. If I had been thinking for a moment when Mimi came to see you, I might have been able to say it a little more mildly. But now. Mimi believes me and has already moved on. She has a kind of protective shell, an armor, and I can't get through it. I haven't been able to for a long time. I have to hope that she does not make her allergize to me, then I can't treat her. "
Damon sighed. Now would not be the time to be sentimental.
Mariella said, "Damon, love is such a force that it will get you through. You just have to believe and wait."
Damon thought about it for a moment, and he had a small glimmer of hope.
He put this feeling where he had put all his other feelings about Mimi and pulled himself together.
"Once we get there, beware. Now you're seeing something you probably don't believe is true. I can warn you. This is not the same ice queen you met before."
They left the room. Damon had closed the window and was now putting the door shut. It closed with a final thud and Damon felt as if he was permanently closing a chapter of his life. A chapter that had given so much and then he had destroyed it, too.
He knew he loved Mariella more than anything, but he also remembered the peaks he had experienced with Mimi, how they had been one, connected. That connection was as unique as Mimi and Damon feared that connection existed only in his memories. Why couldn't he love two? Mimi loved it too, didn't she? Right now, Adam and Charles. Why couldn't he love her?
Mariella said, "Come on. Let's go medbay upstairs. Check a few things first. I just spoke to Mimosa and Mimi had tested herself, so she has a lot of information. So you can have time to see what she has become and what has changed, as you well know, you had an alert on your phone every time results came but Adam and Charles did not, so they did not know that Miss had investigated herself quite a bit."
Damon nodded and went to see the results so he could have an idea if anything had changed in her profoundly. He focused now on medicine. On being a protector, being a doctor, and letting his feelings be. No matter how broken his heart felt when he thought of Mimi.
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