Bab 37: 37

I lie down, I feel guilty but because, I can't find the reason why I feel this way, the wind comes through my window like a loud scream to my ears, accompanying me in this loneliness; And now, what's next? Get drunk in a bar? and that in the distance my eyes deceive me into thinking that I am seeing Matthew, I shake my head to reject that possibility, the only thing left for me is to stay awake and think abouthe all the damn night I went for the best wine, my father had a rack, I went to the kitchen andinside From the cupboard on my left hand side there were more than 5 bottles, carefullycheck each one of them examining the percentage of alcohol... <<This is perfect>> I said to myself looking at the bottle, I go to have a drink and return to my room, I carefully climb the stairs so as not to wake my mother, it has the I sleep very lightly and wakes up with anything.

"Julia, what are you doing awake and what are you carrying in those hands?" she asks sleepily, rubbing her eyes.