Bab 89: Ready or not

"Tu dum, tu dum." Scarlet could hear the loud beating of her own heart. She suddenly did not feel ready, granted that his kiss had aroused her she did not feel ready to act upon her deepest impulses. If she did this, there was no turning back. She was panicking and if she kept it up she would soon be hyperventilating. What she needed to do was relax and think rationally about what was stopping her from going forward.

Maybe, she thought it was the lack of any kind of prior relationship to this, as Su Yang she used to be a strong believer in love and giving herself to the one she loved. But the one she loved had betrayed her and her ideas on romance were now jaded. But if she gave herself to Esong without loving him, what did it mean for her?

"Why are you hesitant?" Esong asked, his mouth was so close to ear that when he spoke his warm breath tickled her. "Why are you afraid to deny us both something that we both want." he asked persistently.