Bab 367: Nothing is easy. [2/2]

But life was far from perfect. For one thing, the Reapers had few cards to use against the undead. It was damn stupid to deliberately choose to be destroyed for moral reasons.

It was at times like this that I remembered a certain quote.

"Accept what you cannot change. Change what you can't accept," I muttered.

I had reasons not to submit to a Specter. My own abilities restricted my {Fates}. While logistical and time constraints prevent me from purchasing larger weapons. 

In contrast, the only thing preventing me from buying Soulgear was what exactly?

I had no problem using {Honey Trap} even though I knew her name as Evelyn Flowers. Even though Aki was being considerate, I told her to keep using Janice Brown's {Umbra}. Frankly, I was afraid. I felt that if I accepted this concept, something in me would change.