If there was any comfort in his current situation then it was that Ash had begun to ease off on him as things progressed.
Since he was being honest and trying his best not to get hurt anymore after breaking during the time that she shoved a needle under his fingernail, he started to think about how he could put everything to an end.
He wanted nothing more to do with Ash and he wanted to rid himself of his affiliation with the gang.
None of what he had been going through had been worth it in any possible way.
None of his past suffering or the present suffering had rewarded him in the way he wanted and it only seemed to get worse for him.
He just wanted to find somewhere quiet to rest and hide so he held onto the hope that he would soon be released.
He had been complaint toward the end so he believed that it would be enough to satisfy Ash and to let her release him.