Bab 173: Chapter 170
AUSTIN'S POV
I didn't necessarily feel bad about going to the cops alone, I did that for Kyle's sake. But what I did feel bad about was the fact that I had made him upset again. And these days he didn't even bother trying to argue with me, he just pretended as if he had let it go and forced himself to move on. And him doing so made me really anxious because I feared the day might come when he decided he wouldn't put up with me anymore. After several steps I looked up and saw him, he was just standing by the side of the street, his focus sorely on me.
I sometimes asked myself whether he knew how much I cared. And how much he meant to me. I was willing to sacrifice anything if it meant seeing him happy and satisfied. My means were not acceptable most of the time but I didn't care, as long as my end goal was achieved then I was okay with doing whatever it took. But Kyle being himself just had to jump right in in an attempt to help me. I was flattered when he had showed up at the station, but I would have still preferred it had he not done so. I wanted to protect him, that had always been my responsibility. Even when he was angry at me and pushed me away, that obligation had never changed, it was deep-rooted within me. Had been so since we met and that's not something I could change just because he wanted it to.
I would however try my best to make things right. I knew it was just the proper thing to do. History had taught me a thing or two about what happened when we let issues pile up. I'd just own up to my mistake and ask for his forgiveness. I kept my hands behind my back, starting to have second thoughts about the gift I had gotten. Perhaps it was too cheesy and cliche. And Kyle wasn't really huge on the whole romantic sentiments. But sometimes cheesy was good I suppose, and it was something I had always wanted to do so I guess it was a great opportunity to finally get it over with and see how he'd react.
" Thought you were gonna wait at the candy store, what are you doing here?" I asked when I finally got to where he was. He turned and pointed to the side, then his lips parted as if he were planning on saying something. I waited for him to tell me, but then he just put his hand back down and shook his head.
" I wanted to wait here instead, the store felt too far, " he briefly explained. It could have just been in my head but he felt a little cold towards me still. Which meant he wasn't yet over what I had done, and knowing Kyle, he was going to remain that way for a while until I decided to make amends fir my actions.
" How's your bike?"
" It's okay, I can go and pick it up in two days. "
" That's great. You were supposed to have a rave today, weren't you?"
" Yeah, but it's cool. There'll be more. "
He was about to offer me a subtle smile, but his brain must have stopped him from doing so because he became serious immediately after. Then he inclined his head to the right and said we should get going. I had forced him to close up early, yet another reason why he was upset. And to think I had been planning in talking about him possibly quiting that evening. Guess if have to cancel those plans.
" Wait!" I called out before he could walk away. He just remained put and arched a brow. Then I watched as he let his gaze roam over my entire form before he crossed his arms. Some sort of knowing look taking over his features.
" What're you hiding?" He suddenly asked. His eyes on the arms I had hidden from view. I smiled,not at all shocked because he was that naturally good at noticing small changes. I freed one hand and used it to cup his cheek. He was looking at me as if he was a little scared and that amused me. It's like he thought I was holding a gun back there but was just too polite to ask me directly.
" I should have told you I was going to the station. That was my bad, "
" You know I was only mad because I worry about you, right?"
" I know. "
" I hate how you just abruptly make one-sided decisions and roll with them without consulting me. "
" I know. I'm sorry. "
" You should let me take care of you as well. Or is this about your ego? You feel like you don't need to be protected?"
He was getting both louder and more pissed off with every word he spoke. He had told me he was mostly disappointed in me and that had made me feel worse than if he had just been plain angry. Disappointing him meant I had reached a new peak in troubling him and he was just completely over it.
" I like that you wanna protect me, "
" Then fucking let me! This relationship should be based on joint effort, otherwise what's the point.."
" I get it. "
I made sure he could feel the seriousness in my words. I stepped closer to him, as close as I could possibly get, then I pressed my forehead to his and muttered another apology. It seemed as if apologizing was just going to be one of my major roles. Even without intending to, I somehow always ended up messing up.
" I got you these, " I finally said, retrieving my hand from behind my back and gifting him the bouquet I had just bought a block back. It was just a pretty average mixture of red and white roses. But that was the first time I had officially gifted him flowers and I wanted to see what his reaction would be.
He stared at the bouquet while it was still in my hand, then without taking it, he slowly looked up at me with the most complex and unreadable look.
" F...for me?"
" Of course they're for you, who else would. give them too?"
He very gently reached out and took the bouquet from me, breathing it in and focusing on pretty much every detail that was on each stalk. I watched how his face lit up and he brightly smiled, unable to hide just how happy the gift had managed to make him. He let out a short joyful laugh, then he thanked me, his tone full of sincerity and genuine appreciation. It was just a small gift but it had made him so excited. If I had known I'd have gotten him flowers every day of the week. But it still wasn't too late to start, we still had plenty of time left together and I was going to use it all to ensure our relationship became much better than it currently was. We seemed okay from the outside but there were a lot of underlying issues which had to be solved. He asked me where I'd gotten the flowers from and I just told him there had been a lady selling them right before you got to the repair shop.
I wanted to tell him how glad I was that he liked them, but he hugged me and if forgot what I had been about to say. His actions were always so warm whenever he intended them to be. I liked how firm his hold on me was. It felt as if he was scared of letting go and it really filled up the level of confidence o had in us as a pair. Before he let go, he kissed my neck. His action slow and deliberate, I was caught a bit off guard since I hadn't expensive the action at all, but it was in a a good way. A nice and desirable kind of shock. He finally let go, but I took his hand and held it in mine.
" I love you, " I told him, and he didn't waste time saying it back. Then he went quiet for a second before he spoke again. He said he had some sort of request and I got attentive, curious as to what it might have been.
" Can we stay over at your place tonight?" He asked. I frowned. That was a bit random and peculiar, it didn't really make any sense for him to suggest such a thing out of the blue. I knew for sure that he always preferred it when we stayed at his place. He not only found it more comfortable but he was able to move around and talk more freely over there. Whereas in my house he always seemed as if he was on edge.
" Did Khloe call and ask you? "
" No,that's not it. "
" Then what? And don't say it's nothing because I know that's not true. There has to be a reason behind this. "
" There is..." he admitted, then he held my hand and tried to pull me along with him, " Can I just tell you once we're over there? "
He was making me get concerned. He had been totally fine just a while ago. And he wasn't the type of person to make such spontaneous decisions without there being a reason behind them. Him wanting to stay at my place must have meant he really didn't want to go back to his house at all.
Was it perhaps because if the break in? He didn't seem as affected by it but perhaps he was just great at hiding how he really felt. Maybe it had really messed with him and so he was scared of going back there.
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