Bab 153: Chapter 150
AUSTIN'S POV
I wasn't the superstitious type but I was really starting to believe that Kyle and I could have been cursed. Because why else would we be going through so many damn problems? It's like we were happy for a day then we argued for the next three days. And it was becoming a tiring routine and I was honestly fed up. I just felt like Kyle never even made an effort to hear me out. Like he was never really on my side unless I provided him with irrefutable proof that I was. And it sucked that I was constantly forced to prove myself and explain my actions even when I only wanted the best for him. I only ever did what I did because I cared. I watched as he went through my phone, standing and walking over to the bed since I felt yet another stupid argument coming and I was in absolutely no mood for it.
" What do you talk about?" He asked again, placing the phone on the table and shifting to face me. Not looking at all happy.
" She just asks about you, and I also follow up on how she's doing. "
" Since when are you two so close?"
" We're not. I was just being a decent human being, okay? You don't have to make a huge deal out of this. "
" I never told you to do anything of the sort. "
" I can't do this right now Kyle, "
Normally, I would have been more chilled about everything, and I'd have even found a way to solve things, but it was getting pretty clear that he didn't trust me. I was like the bad guy in his mind and he only ever forgave me because he loved me.
And had it not been for all my previous advances while we had been young he probably wouldn't have even loved me in the first place. I was the reason we had ever been friends, and I couldn't help but wonder whether it was a friendship he had been forced into. Which then led to a love that he had been forced into as well. Because I considered him to be my entire fucking life, but the second I did something he wasn't okay with he immediately turned on me.
" I think you should give her a call, you might not consider her as worthy but you're better than this. Put your pride aside for a second. "
" Put my pride aside?! You're the last--"
" I get it okay! I don't have the best relationship with my dad so I'm in no place to advise you blah blah blah....I guarantee you that I get it. "
He made sure I remembered that every chance he got. And he was using the fact to his advantage, like some weapon against me. But the only reason why I didn't get along well with my father was because he was hardheaded and never really wanted to listen to me. I had my own views and thoughts on issues as well but he just never wanted to hear me out. It was either his way, or no way at all. That was oppression in its own way. And I wasn't designed to easily bow down to anyone, not even if they were the reason I existed. And if one day my dad changed and became interested in listening to my opinions, then I would have definitely changed how I was as well, or at least tried to.
Kyle was abandoning his mum right when she needed him the most. After the first phonecall, I had never intended to talk to her again, but she had called me later on. Asking all these questions about Kyle, then she had started crying and I hadn't known what to do. The fact that he was refusing to communicate with her was really hurting her. And he was trying to make it seem like his actions were okay. Why? Because he was too damn perfect to be in the wrong? He was always talking about principles and morals, but where were they currently at?
Something just told me his mum wasn't okay, and it wasn't until our most recent call that she had decided to become a bit more open. And she had confessed that she was trying her best to stay sober but it was so hard, that she was mainly doing it for Kyle's sake but he didn't seem to really care much. I had been waiting for the perfect opportunity to bring up the matter but now that it was out there, I could as well get it over with.
" I'm not asking you to forgive her, I know that's not gonna be easy and it will take time. But just give her a call or send a fucking text telling her you're okay. "
" I don't want to!"
" Then you have no right to ever lecture me on anything. "
He shook his head, acting all mad. Because he knew I loved him, that was the problem, Kyle was well aware of the lengths I'd go to just to keep him by my side. And the longer we stayed together the more he believed that there would never be anything strong enough to make me leave me. That I'd always go back to him eventually. Which was true in its own way, but how fair was it? He had to realize that I also held the ability to be right. I wasn't bloody stupid! And even if I always acted irrational, I knew the difference between right and wrong and what he was doing was definitely wrong. If he heard his mum's voice as she spike then he'd get what I meant.
" I'm okay with the lessons. You can pick the time, and I'm sorry about calling your mum, but I'll definitely be doing it again. "
I stood up and went to take my phone. He was leaning against the chair with his arms crossed. It was getting pretty late and I knew I had to her him back home soon. But first I needed some fresh air, being in there wasn't helping the situation.
" I'll be downstairs if you need me, " I quickly explained before walking out. That day had been just plain awful. I hadn't gotten completely over the scene with his singer from earlier, and that had actually upset me more than he knew. What businesses did he have hanging around someone that was not only interested in him, but one that made up lies about me?
I was never going to get over that. I hated it when anyone tried to sabotage my image for their own needs. Painting me as a liar had also made my emotions escalate in a very bad manner. And I had to just let it go because he was Kyle's freaking friend. I had really changed, there was a time when I wouldn't have cared about his relationship with Kyle and would have just gone ahead and taught him a damn lesson! Then there was Kyle. I just needed him to be on my side one time. To just not care about what anyone told him and to put all his faith in me. He watched me as I left, and I didn't stop until I was downstairs. Where I was unfortunate enough to find my dad.
While we had been studying, Khloe had come by just to check on us, and she had been really shocked to realize what we were doing. And she had gone ahead and told my dad. It was the first time he had smiled at me in so long, and even though the timing was wrong, I just forced a smile and headed to the kitchen. They were in the living room, seated on th couch. My dad was massaging Khloe's feet but he had stopped when I appeared.
" Will Kyle be joining us for dinner? " Khloe asked and my dad suggested that he do so.
" Tell him I insist, and I'll drop him off at home afterwards so he shouldn't worry. "
He'd definitely never been that excited when talking about me. And I wasn't jealous, but I had to force myself to speak wisely. Not to let my anger overcome me because it definitely wanted to do so.
This was the anger I had had back in Phoenix, the kind that was unmatched and that drove me completely crazy. I just couldn't reason well.
" I'm heading over to Miles' real quick but I'll ask him once I return. "
My dad didn't like Miles and so the information didn't please him, but he didn't say anything because his mind was still on the fact that I had studied, though in his mind, it was more like Kyle had managed to make me study. Because that's the kind of child he wanted. One who got the perfect grades and never spoke back to authority. I didn't want to come back home and find Kyle already gone, so I was only gonna be out for a few minutes.
" You left him up there by himself?"my dad asked and I dismissively said he was okay. It's not like he was a toddler. And he had also seemed like he wanted space to think things through. It was technically impossible for him to walk all the way to his place at such an hour but at the moment I didn't want to leave anything to fate.
" Just call him down here and tell him I stepped out, " I suggested as I walked out of there.
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