Bab 126: Chapter 123
" What grave mistake do I have to apologize for this time?"
" Austin I swear if you don't come back to school in the next hour I'm never speaking to you again! "
I assumed that the news had somehow already gotten to him. I turned to Chris, then I quickly retracted the phone from my ear and covered it with my hand before telling him I was leaving. He slowly nodded, his eyes falling to the phone for a bit before he went back to his food.
" You're not talking to me as it is, " I told Kyle once I walked out of the room.
" You think this is a joke? What makes you think you can just drop out of school? That has to be the dumbest thing you've ever done!"
" Are you done? "
" What-" he groaned in agonizing frustration. Then he asked me where I was, I could feel his anger through his words and was glad he was far because things would have definitely gotten heated had we been close. I couldn't tell him where I was so I just told him not to stress himself over that.
" And all this for what reason? Because I allegedly broke up with you? So you just dropped out?"
" My decision had nothing to do with you Kyle, believe it or not I actually have a life outside of my obsession with you. "
He went quiet, and I felt weak because arguing with him was draining me both emotionally and mentally. I just wanted us to go back to how things had been, but somehow an entire freaking wall had been built between us and I had no clue what tools I was supposed to use to break it down. It wasn't a lack of love, it was the fact that there were so many differences between Kyle and me. I used to think that was a good thing but I was starting to doubt it. Yes, there were similarities as well,but the differences were just way too many. He liked school, I loathed it with my entire being! He was mostly calm and collected...I was the opposite. Same to our likes and dislikes, our interest also differed tremendously. We were just really different. I didn't want to believe that it had always been nothing but physical attraction, that couldn't have been true.
Kyle was one of my main reasons to live. I was confident enough in my feelings for him to actually admit that. I saw us together in every future fantasy I had. For fuckssake! I had even told him I'd marry him!! That hadn't been some stupid joke, it was the sincere truth because it had dawned on me from a very young age that Kyle was actually the only love of my life. Our age didn't matter, that was just the simple fact.
" So you're never coming back? "
Squeezing my eyes shut, I shook my head.There was that love I was referring to, it was pleading with me to just suck it up and go back to that godforsaken institution for him. If it would serve to make him feel better. Anything to let him know that safeguarding his feelings was my major priority....but once again, our main enemy took over.
Ego. That little thing that prevented either of us from taking the first step to solve things.
" No, I'm not. "
" Stop messing around like this, it's not funny any more. This is your life were talking about, your future. "
" I know that, and that's why I dropped out. Good grades aren't necessary in the type of career I want. "
" Oh,you mean a professional racer?"
" Yes! That's exactly what I mean. You don't have to say it like that. "
I didn't appreciate the hint of sarcasm I heard in his tone. Then he went ahead and just straight up told me I was being naive and blind. That I had no idea how harsh the actual world was and he was certain I'd regret my decision one day. Even if it wasn't soon. That fact that he wasn't supporting me in the slightest hurt me even more. It added new heights to that already tall and thick wall between us.
" Is that all or do you have more to say?"
" I'm trying to help you out here! Quit being so hardheaded for once and listen to me. "
" I've listened. And I've heard everything you have to say-"
" See? That right there is your problem. You think you know it all, that you're always right! That bubble you're living in will pop one day and it will be too late -"
" Did you just call to shatter my hopes or was there something else you wanted?"
" Seriously? Is this where we are now? "
" Who got us here I wonder?"
" You did! You arrogant and selfish bastard!"
" Bye Kyle. "
I hung up. That had not gone well, not in the slightest. First of all, there was no bubble. I wasn't a six year old living in an imaginary world where everything magically turned out how I wanted it to. That was something I was well aware of, of course I knew it would be tough. I expected there to be challenges, but I was more than ready to face them head on. He ought to have been on my side, I understood his dissatisfaction with my actions but it was evident he hadn't even tried to view my side of things. Each time we spoke he had his mind set on an argument and I was tired. My mind was seriously fed up and I wasn't going to take it anymore. I left the motel,my last text to him being,
" Don't call or text unless you have something positive to say. "
That was one way to confirm whether he did actually have anything positive. I doubted it though. And I was sure we were going to be silent with each other for white a while.
I rode back home to get Chris some clothes. And I also had to figure out a way to find out whether Phil was alive or if he had actually not made it. But either way, Chris would still be in big trouble. He had literally stalked the guy and assaulted him, and judging from how he had described it, he hadn't been gentle with that brick either. So even if Phil was alive,he was definitely not in good shape. I decided to ask Miles for help when we met up later on, he'd know what to do. He had connections in the most weird and random of places. And unlike me, he could think clearly without being distracted by a million stupid thoughts.
When I got home, it was to find Khloe trying to open up this box that had been placed on the kitchen counter. I had gone there to get some water. On seeing me,she didn't hide her confusion. And as expected, she asked me what I was doing back home so early. And I decided that I might as well let them get used to the idea since it was going to be the new reality.
" I dropped out. "
She thought I was joking at first,but then I turned to look at her after getting a bottled water from the fridge and she was able to see how serious I was.
" Wait,I'm confused,"
She put down this tiny pair of baby shoes she had gotten from inside the box. Trying to absorb the information I had given her. Her hand quickly going up to her forehead before she put it down and casually placed it on her belly.
" What do you mean you dropped out?"
I could see the questions coming from miles away, and I just didn't have the strength to reply to any of them.
" Exactly that. I won't be going there anymore and I'd really appreciate it if you keep the 'concerned and motherly advice to yourself ' " he lips parted in what I assumed was sadness.
" No offense, " I added before walking out, and before I completely left, I gestured to the baby shoes and told her they were cute. Just because she was slowly rubbing off on me and I didn't want that relationship to sail as well. I mean, I had even told her to forget about what had happened during lunch on Sunday since I hadn't really acted properly.
I went upstairs, packed a few clothes, then I went back to the kitchen and decided to get him some more food from the pantry. There were way too many things in there anyways,most of them would just end up expiring and getting thrown away. On seeing the bag I was holding, Khloe immediately asked me where I was going. I was sure she thought I was running from home in addition to dropping out. I didn't want to have to explain that they were for a friend who was I trouble, and any other responses that came to mind were just rude. In the end I settled for,
" They're Kyle's. I'm gonna return them to him. "
" And isn't HE at school? Don't tell me you both decided to drop out. "
As if that was even possible. Kyle was basically married to his books. If only he cared as much about our relationship as he did about maths.
" I'll leave them with his mum. "
" And the snacks?"
" They're mine. I'm craving sweet and salty. "
I didn't out much effort into the lies and she clearly caught on, but thankfully, she didn't push me into being honest. But as I was leaving, she called me and walked closer, it was awkward, but not as mush as when she placed her hand on my arm in a gentle manner.
" I know we're really not close, but if there's something bothering you then you can tell me. I promise I'll try my best to help you sort it out. "
" Something like what?"
" I don't know? Like this?" she gestured to everything I was carrying, her eyes staring at the items in deep puzzlement.
" And you dropping out? What's wrong? Did something happen at school?"
" I'm fine, I just didn't like it there. I'm leaving. "
I left. When I got back to the motel, Chris was lying in bed, but he sat up the second I walked in. I advised him against leaving the door unlocked, not because he was technically a fugitive, but because the motel wasn't situated in the nicest of places.
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