Bab 138: Chapter 135
When we got back home, I went straight to bed. It was really late and I was tired. And we still had to wake up early the following day. I connected my phone to the charger, and I realized I had two missed calls from my mum and some texts as well. From her, Reign and the group chat Kira had created a long time ago for her, Max and I. I actually wanted to just ignore them till the following morning when I had the strength to reply, but I figured I'd be just as tired as I currently was, so there was no point to postpone it. My mum was asking me how I was doing, then she sent me this long paragraph, and the size of it alone made me give up, I read the first two sentences..it was just about her new job and all, so I decided I'd text her back first thing in the morning. It didn't feel right to reply with a single remark when she had literally gone through the trouble of typing all that out. And she was most likely already asleep, it wasn't like she'd think I was ignoring her. Be the tile she checked I'd have already replied.
Next I opened up the group chat, they were complaining. Saying I was abandoning them, that since Austin appeared I wasn't even spending time with them like I used to. It was mostly Kira of course, but Max was backing her up and agreeing to everything that she said.
It was the truth, even I had realized that. Before Austin, the three of us were together almost all the time. They'd even come by the store and hang out with me for a while, but since Austin had taken over that task, they had stopped. The second they texted and suggested passing by, and I mentioned that Austin was with me, they always changed their minds. The Blueprint concert was the last time we had hang out outside of school. Lately, if I wasn't studying or at the store or at school...I was with Austin. I apologized to them because I knew they weren't joking around. For them to finally address the issue meant it was something that had been bothering them for some time. After apologizing, I tried to think of my plans for that weekend, then I suggested that we hang out at Frosty's that Saturday after I finished my shift, perhaps we could even go watch a movie afterwards. Kira was online, she asked me whether Austin would be tugging along as well, and I could feel her sarcasm through the text. I assured her it would just be us three and she sent me those cute emojis she liked to used instead of typing an actual reply.
Reign and I texted a lot. He checked up on me almost everyday, he had even asked me if I'd want to go out for lunch with him sometime but I had turned down the offer.
He was just trying to be nice. He respected my boundaries and I liked that about him, but I just felt like it wouldn't be right to say yes. And he had understood. I tapped on his texts to read them.
" Hey, I hope you're okay. And I also hope you found that book you were searching for. "
We had been texting while I was in school, and I happened to mention that I was headed to the library to try and locate a textbook I had seen once. It had really been useful but it seemed to have disappeared. Each time I went to the Library I always made sure to check, I and even consulted with the librarian but she was just as clueless. It was a wonder Reign even recalled such a detail. Then I read the next text and I felt a little sad, I couldn't help it.
" We're going on tour soon, I'm leaving next week. I'd have liked to hang out before then but I her that three busy. "
And the last one said.
" But we mostly just text anyways, I don't think there's a reason to say goodbye. "
I didn't reply to him either, instead I slipped further inside the blankets and let out a long breath. I was sure that the second did closed my eyes I was going to fall asleep. But I didn't want to do so before Austin got into bed as well. He had said he'd take a shower first, but he was taking way too long. I even considered calling out his name but I gave up and just closed my eyes. I wasn't entirely thrilled with him anyways. I'm not saying I was mad, I wasn't, but there was just this natural dislike when it came to Chris. In the last seconds before I completely drifted off, Austin finally finished up with his shower. I was too lazy to open my eyes and confirm it for myself, but I felt him as he walked over to my side of the bed and leaned down next to me.
" You're worrying over nothing, but I get you, " he said before he walked away. Technically he just walked round the bed and got in as well. And his arms wrapped around my waist were definitely welcomed. I liked that he smelt like he had just showered.....he smelt just like me. And he must also have been feeling cold because he moved as close as he could manage, until he was spooning, then he tightened his hold a fraction and after kissing my ear, he fell asleep as well.
We hadn't talked after leaving the motel. But it's not that we were mad at each other, I had just been scared of my stupid envy to shine right through. And knowing Austin, he was going to just make fun of the situation. I definitely didn't want that.
The following morning, I had tried to wake him up so he could get ready for school, but he had told me to go ahead and shower since he had already done so the previous night. I didn't even bother arguing. He just wanted to keep staying in bed and it was obvious, but if I started bothering him then I was going to get exhausted myself. There was no urgent need for him so I concluded I'd just wait till we bumped into each other. I was really looking forward to those two weeks that we'd be free from school. I would finally get more time to relax and take things a bit slower. I finished up, then I dragged Austin out of bed before I went to make us some coffee. I loved him but he was one lazy human being. And I also had to keep cleaning up after him because he was so used to having people do so for him. He'd just leave his clothes scattered anywhere and everywhere he wished.
" Can't I skip school today?It would be the last time?" he asked me after I handed him a mug of coffee. I wasn't even going to comment because he knew how strongly I felt about that particular subject. He had even given me his word and everything, which proved to shoe how unreliable he was when it came to such small promises. He asked me again, and I asked him what hay he wanted to do all day since he was definitely not sick, just fucking lazy.
" Sleep, " he casually replied. I grabbed a kitchen towel and threw it at him, targeting his head. But he caught it and said that he had just been joking.
" Hey, can I ask why you were so tough on Chris? Was there really a need to say all those things?"
" Are you defending him?"
That's what I meant by the stupid envy. It wasn't even a characteristic of myself that I was familiar with. I just hated it, but each time Austin said something concerning the guy, my mind automatically began questioning everything. The previous day at the motel, I had been so hard on him. I was extremely straightforward when asking him questions and often times Austin had had to intervene and change the subject.
" Defending him? Kyle you literally asked him ho often he did shit like that! Ask if he walked around with a brick in search for the next target. "
I won't lie, that had been a bit much. And there were more even worse questions aimed at Chris. It had gotten to the point where Austin had had to grab me by the arm and lead me outside for a moment so he could talk some sense into me. That reversal of roles still didn't sit well with me. And so when we had gone back in I had been more understanding and had even apologized.
It however didn't mean I liked him. There was something off with him. I wasn't sure what it was but there was definitely something. I could just feel it whenever I looked at him.
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