Bab 84: Chapter 81
Khloe was free to go home the following day. My dad took an actual day off so that he could take care of her. I went to get Kyle, he came down only a couple of minutes after I called to tell him I was there. And unlike the previous morning, he looked refreshed.
" Morning, " he greeted as soon as he saw me, then he came over and stood next to me. I gave him a curt nod, then I tapped the space behind me and asked him to get on. He didn't do so immediately, he rather frowned, then he tilted his head to the side as if he was trying to study my expression. But he couldn't do that since I was wearing a helmet.
" You good?" there was a little worry in his tone, but mostly it was just curiosity. I nodded once again before handing him his own helmet and wrapping my hands around the bike handles. He took the helmet, held it in his hand then started inspecting it as I'd it was some weird foreign thing he'd never laid eyes on before. I watched him as he put it on, then he got on the bike and wrapped his arms around me the same way we had become accustomed to. I rode at top speed. My focus strictly on the road ahead of me, he was complained throughout the way and there were chances of me losing focus if I chose to listen to him. And if I did lose my concentration then neither of us would be in a good condition afterwards. When I got to school, I parked and stayed still, waiting for him to get off. He slowly did so, then he took the helmet off and handed it to me. And there was this period of silence where I suppose he expected me to say or do something, and when I didn't he scoffed and shook his head.
" What's up with you this time?" He asked. Then he reached out and took off my helmet as well, threading his hand through my hair gently and wrapping his hand around my nape afterwards. There was this adoring look in his eyes, coupled with genuine concern.
" Don't play the mute card with me, I'm warning you. "
" We agreed I'd be the one taking you home, so what was last night about?"
I managed to shock him. He looked taken aback. I didn't mean that he couldn't have any friends or anything of the sort, but we had agreed. It was pretty much like a promise I had made and he had accepted it. So it didn't seem okay for him to.jusr accept rides from friends of his who I knew nothing about.
" You're joking, right?"
" Why on earth would I be joking about this?"
" Wait...is that why you're mad?"
" I'm not mad. "
" Then why the attitude?*
I wanted to respond but I realized that only bad things would come out of it. I had tried my level beat to try and calm down. I knew more than anyone how unreasonable I became when I got angry, but this wasn't really about anger. It was about possessiveness. Jealousy that I couldn't really control.
" Next time just wait for me, okay?" He sighed, slowly shook his head and then laughed this short laugh.
" Unreasonable!" he commented, but his tone was light and humorous. He then leaned in and kissed my cheek. I had never imagined that he could be able to display our live so publicly, but lately, he had been pulling out all the stops. He did whatever he wanted and felt like doing without worrying about what could be going through people's heads.
" Okay, I promise to always wait. "
I knew he was talking about the store, but I liked how that statement sounded. I thought about it in a much bigger context, that he would always wait. No matter what he would always be there.
" Good, now take me to the fucking principle's office, the dude asked to see me this morning. "
" What? Why?"
" No clue. Let's go, " I got off, taking out the bike key and tucking it into my pocket before I shifted to stand in front of him. In secret, I had actually been wishing that he asked me what was up, I had known he would. I didn't want him to feel restricted in terms of his social life, but I just wanted to make it clear to him that I was his first priority. That I would always be the one that came first. It was selfish and a little psychopathic but it was also the reality, as long as I was around I was always going to rank first.
" Why are you looking at me like that? It's creepy!" he teased after I stared at him for too long. And instead of replying, I placed a soft kiss on his lips. I would have done that immediately after he came down in his apartment but I had a point to get across back there. Without saying a word, I began walking towards the schools entrance, I felt him beside me, and as we were going up the stairs he brushed his hand against my own. He did it a couple of times before I realized that the action was suggestive. Something it definitely was because when I held two of his fingers in my hand, he went ahead and placed his entire hand in mine. I wasn't holding his, he was holding mine. And I suppose you knew your relationship was officially out when you walked while holding hands right after you kissed. Vee was one of those students who didn't care much about anything. She was also really social and friendly. It was impossible not to like her unless you had some sort of personal vendetta against her. I hoped whatever the principal was calling me for made sense. Otherwise I wouldn't be able to just stay in there and listen to him. It was probably about all the days I had missed. But I wasn't too bothered by it. Nothing that was related to schoolwork would ever bother me, I was going to just let things flow how they were supposed to.When we got there, there were two other students waiting outside to get in, he placed his hand ony shoulder, giving the two other students passive glances before settling his eyes back on me.
" I gotta go I wanna search for something in the library. "
" Bye then, "
" Behave okay? Don't act all reckless when you're with him. "
I assured him I'd act accordingly, which I would, bit only for him. The principal was one of those guys who seemed really chilled out on the outside but was actually quite unreasonable and hard to handle. But that was the view of those who hadn't yet met Victoria. She was skilled, all it would take from her was a fond smile to get him to forget all about being the principal and to live a little. I wasn't sure how she managed to do it but it was something I always envied about her..
I noted how one of the students outside the office was observing us, there was clear dislike in his stare. We didn't know each other, I had literally never even seen him before, but he didn't try to hide his disapproval of us. I knew that such people still existed and it was my one wish that I never really crossed paths with them. For some it was fear, but the majority harboured only hate and dislike. I didn't want Kyle to be around such negativity, so I gave him another quick kiss and told him it was okay to leave, he pressed my shoulder affectionately before walking away, and I went over to the seats outside the office and settled down. That monster inside me was hoping that that student would.dare do or say something that would give me the chance to teach him a lesson. I wished he'd just make an offensive comment or something. But he didn't and I had to suck it up and play it cool as well.
As I had thought, the principal was concerned about how my academic life was doing. It wasn't that pleasing and he wanted us to have a serious conversation with the hoped that by the time it was over, I would magically become a different and more responsible person whenever it came to my studies. And I really meant no disrespect, but that was just stupid.
It didn't matter what anyone did, I was never going to develop some interest in school, it just wasn't going to happen. School was one of those things that were an absolute waste of my time, the quicker I was done with it the better it would be. I managed to brave through the entire conversation, and by the time he was done, the classes had just began..
KYLE'S POV
Reign had indeed talked. The guy sure did have a lot on his mind and it was pretty clear that he had been holding a lot inside. I sucked when it came to offering advice, but I was pretty good when it came to lending an ear. I had listened to everything he had to say and talked once or twice when I felt there was need fore to do so. He made me realize just how difficult his life actually was. He lived in the limelight, every action and choice he made was thoroughly criticized by the media. And he was one of those people who enjoyed their peace, he didn't like it when people messed around with his personal life. He also really hated attention. Out of all the band members, he was the one that liked to keep a low profile. It was almost impossible to spot him anywhere which made him all the more interesting to people's eyes. I suppose they liked the mystery. And apart from those few instances when he had been spotted with a female, no one knew anything about his dating life. He had told me that he liked guys. He always had. But there was no way for him to make such a thing public because it would be all everyone would be talking about. That's how his world worked, being famous was fun but it also carried along its many disadvantages. Even his own family didn't know he was gay. He had made it his other career to hide that part of himself from the public eye because he didn't want anyone poking and probing in matters that concerned them. He also wasn't sure how the entire dynamic of his situation was going to affect his group members so he opted to just keep his secret with him. I had really wished I could help him out somehow but I just couldn't. The only way I could assist him was trying to think of the best advice and encouragement for when I saw him again. He had said he'd pass by the store again if he ever got time. His tone suggested he feared he'd never get normalcy at all. I felt bad after he had dropped me off, I wished him the very best and we parted ways. I assured him whatever he had told me would forever remain between just us. I was never going to disclose his personal information to anyone. I met up with Kira and Max later that day, it was after our calculus class. They had seemed odd around me, like they didn't even know how to act. And I was confused and wondered what that was about. Then I finally connected the dots. I had refused to admit that I was gay yet Austin and I were currently regarded as one of the school's beat couples or something like that. Max had especially asked me a few times and each time I had gotten a little pissed off. I felt sorry for having acted like that. I wanted to eliminate that tension that had firmed between us because truth be told, I was the one responsible for it.
" Guys?" I called out while we were walking to the vending machine to buy some drinks. The sun was no joke, as in, the entire weather was just awful. It would change every hour, and I wasn't a fan of unpredictability. I didn't like that how it would be calm and cloudy one minute and then hot and sunny in the other. They both looked at me, Kira responded, asking me what was up while Max just turned to look at me
I stopped walking and so did they, I wasn't sure why that was so difficult. Perhaps because of how close we were, or maybe I just didn't want to change how they viewed me because of something as silly as sexuality. Which meant that in a lot of ways, Reign and I did have a number of things in common.
" Kyle?" Kira called out when I took too long to say something. I was just standing there looking at them as I thought of how I could best broach the subject. But then I finally gave up and decided to let it out without all the confusion of coming up with the words and the right thing to say. So I just looked at them in turn before I hung my head and blew out a long breath.
" I like Austin... we're dating, " I finally said. That wasn't entirely true, the truth was that I was hopelessly in love with Austin. He was the main object around which my world was based and revolved out. But if I told them that I feared it would be too much for them to handle. I placed my shock aside, then they both smiled and assured me it was cool. Kira even wanted to make the announcement but I warned her against doing so. I also apologized for how I had acted whenever they brought the issue up. They were cool about it, Max assured me there was nothing for me to worry about. That he understood why I had acted the way I did. The pressure when it came to such things was a lot, and it took time for someone to be able to fully understand him or herself. And even the fact that I had come out about me dating and loving Austin didn't make things any easier. Deep down, I was still confused, but I was determined to work through everything until I understood myself entirely. In the meantime, I was fine with having Austin by my side. During lunchtime, I had asked him to sit with the three of us and he had accepted. I had come to realize that he didn't really have the best relationship with my friends and I wanted to fix that because they were important people in my life.
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