Bab 57: Hope

Maria avoided all contact.

She shut herself in a room, and didn’t come out.

Barely ate anything and just-

‘Why?’

Her thoughts were rampant.

Her breath- never stable.

Always staring out her window-

Watching the city.

Always-

‘Why?’

Why was her head so filled with such intentions?

Why-

Why did she want to kill that man?

Why did she want to kill him despite knowing –

These feelings weren’t of her own?

Why-

Why couldn’t she control her own thoughts?

‘Damn it!’

Heart racing-

She sat there-

Just before the window-

Staring out.

Curtains flowing.

People going about their days down below.

Maria never wanted to be a soldier.

She never wanted to go out of her way to save people either.

It was just a farce she put on to sound credible.

All she ever wanted…

Was just to live peacefully, with her family.

To live a boring life.

Nothing special.

Just boring.

And yet-

‘But sitting here doing nothing will get me nowhere.’