Bab 36: Chapter 36

LOLA  - LUNA

Wow, I have f*cked this up.

I mean, I've never been in love before, so you can't blame me for making a few mistakes. And no, Todd from Harvard doesn't count. That was infatuation. Stupid infatuation. And really boring sex.

Not like Fabien. I've never loved anyone the way I love him.

And I know in my heart I never will again.

I have to keep this somehow. I just don't know how.

The sky outside is already turning pink from the setting sun. Fabien's ultimatum will run out soon, and then I suppose I'll be killed. Either by him, or by whoever finds out first. Maybe Kyran will do it, to spare Fabien the pain? Or maybe Gabrielle. The thought of her finding out, of her having to kill me, pains me.

I just know she'd look profoundly disappointed in me.

And then there's the fact I don't really want to die. Given the choice, I'd definitely rather live.

But maybe I don't have a choice. Not really.