But give up the absurd idea that we will be a couple!

Kim finally got into her car and Mi Joo did the same, silently the two put on their seat belts and Eunji felt obliged to clarify a few things.

She propped herself up in her car seat, not caring whether or not she was soiling the upholstery.

She knew that Mi Joo would start crying soon, although that didn't move her, she didn't want to face that sad scene.

She preferred to face the starry night instead of her friend's cloudy eyes.

"Mi Joo, remember when we watched baseball games and you explained the rules to me? You told me excitedly about why those people ran desperately, as if they were running away from a ball... But even if you explained it to me a thousand times I still didn't understand and it even made you irritated to the point of not wanting to comment anymore about the games ... I feel like every time I try to explain that we're nothing but friends you pretend not to understand. Yes, the same way I pretended not to understand just to stay close to you and keep listening to you talk excitedly about that stupid game..."

She sighed. Well, those memories were kind of sweet.

Things weren't that complicated back then. Or at least they didn't seem to be.

"...But I'll be clear one last time: you and I have nothing but a good friendship... If it's something you can't handle let me know and I'll walk away from you and anything that binds us. ... But give up the absurd idea that we will be a couple..."

Eunji knew that Mi Joo was the type of woman who would fight to the end for what she wants... But when would she understand that the end had already come?! "... Stop pretending, don't pretend you don't know what happened in the past, stop looking into my eyes as if you declared love to me when you were the first to tell my feelings to others and destroy me..."

Mi Joo had done many things that would make her the village in this story and on the one hand she really was. Many sleepless nights and tears were solely Mi Joo's fault.

But why did she insist on that theater? Eunji had gotten tired.

She was exhausted from staring into the smiling face of the person who had done everything to hurt her.

Eunji even made her parents stop messing with her life, why the hell would she allow a simple friend to do that?! That was the thing, she wouldn't allow it.

"...I thought my forgiveness would be enough to keep our friendship, do you understand that you're the only one I still keep around after everything that happened in London?"

Mi Joo could feel the bitter tone in Eunji's voice and she was getting more and more desperate, she needed to explain herself, she needed to ask for forgiveness... she needed Eunji.

But she couldn't make a single sound. She just cried and cried. Silently, as if she was trying to hide from Kim's eyes.

She even heard a laugh, but why did hearing that hurt so much? Perhaps because it was a laugh filled with bitterness and anger. "Can you imagine how irritated I felt when you even had the nerve to ask me about the tattoo when you know exactly what those marks are?! Do you really want to make me have to talk about all this?"

Mi Joo had a surprised look on her face, she couldn't help but feel the tears roll down her face.

She knew. Yes, she knew. She was to blame.

It had been on her chest for so long, but why did she decide to forget while watching Eunji suffer?!

Her face was completely red, she could barely breathe without feeling the tears welling up.

Eunji let out a loud sigh, she had nothing more to say. What would there be to say, besides all that?!

Young Kim started the car and went to the bar, she could hear Mi Joo's slight sniffle, but she didn't feel sorry for that crying or that pain... She had already felt something much worse.

Feeling the car slow down, Mi Joo closed her eyes and sighed.

Minutes had passed, her once heavy heart was now confused and strangely light.

The guilt was gone, the guilt was still there, but she didn't have to pretend she was sorry… because she would do it all over again and again and again.

She could feel as guilty as she was if there was no regret there would be no pain or burden to bear.

"I won't apologize or forgive, I just wanted you and I thought I could do anything... Knowing that you forgive me makes me relieved, but knowing that you're with that other girl still makes me want to make you suffer … Just for you to remain mine."

Mi Joo laughed. But not because she was happy, she felt desolate… forsaken.

Her heart ached.

How could Eunji treat her like that?!

She loved that girl so much that her chest ached and her body filled with rage.

"Should I ignore my feelings? Or fight for you? Do you know how much it kills me? Seeing you in love with that girl in London made me so angry that I wanted to kill her... But she just agreed to leave without saying goodbye... I didn't even have to make an effort to threaten her!"

Mi Joo for the entire time that Eunji was in London was watched over and looked after by Mi Joo.

There wasn't a single step that Kim took that Mi Joo didn't know about.

When she finally learned that Eunji was in love, her heart felt crushed and kicked. She would do the same to the girl.

"...I was so happy I almost ran to London just to comfort you... But you fell in love again and again... As if your heart could never be hurt enough, so I had to do something. .. You think Donghae destroyed you, but it was actually me."

Eunji smiled coldly, she couldn't hate Mi Joo even listening to all that.

She just felt sorry. "I know."

Mi Joo felt hate, she was filled with hate! She didn't understand Eunji! How could that girl act like that?! "Then why do you still forgive me?"

Finally after so many words filled with emotion and pain they exchanged the first sincere looks in years. "Mi Joo... Because in the end you just love me so much and he's just some idiot that I can crush without effort... Can't you see that to make you suffer I just need to be happy with someone other than you?!"

Eunji smiled, she was genuinely happy, she had someone waiting for her with pizza and a blanket... Mi Joo had what?! In that moment she only had herself and her anger.

The older one didn't want to hear anything else, she opened the car door, she needed to get out of there, she needed to get away from her.

Eunji was like poison.

She couldn't bear it, she wanted to sink in and die with her, with her and her alone.

Eunji turned her face to face the steering wheel and within seconds she heard her car door being finally closed. Young Kim didn't bother to look where her old friend was going, she sped up and would soon be home at last.

Yes, some things should remain in London and only in London. For a while.