Bab 625: The golden clock shows the past (9)

At her home, Guiying was in a similar state as Yating, devastated and hopeless. She had buried herself in her room, hugging her knees to her chest and trembling hard as the sight of Ai's fall refused to leave her mind. The only nightmares that greeted her sleep were that of Ai's death.

"I killed Ai. I killed Ai. D-Did I really kill Ai? I-I really pushed her…?" 

Her body shivered harder and her tears fell fiercer. Whenever she looked at her hands, all she could see was blood on them as if she was a murderer.

"No…No, no! I…I…didn't want to push her…I didn't want Ai to die…"

"Stop it already! You didn't kill her!"

'Guiying' within her lashed out, unable to bear Guiying torturing and blaming herself. "Get it through your thick head! You didn't kill her! You pushed her because you were agitated, not because you wanted to murder her! You didn't know that the railing would fall off. How is it your fault-"