Bab 118: It's LoL

oceane pov

should i be selfish and keep him by my side always. this will definitely hindered his work but i want him to sacrifice everything...

the weird thoughts are haunting me.. i wish he don't abandon me. i don't want to experience loneliness... i had enough of loneliness in past years. 

i laid there on my bed like corpse... staring at the ceiling. sleep didn't hovered my eyes... 

right now my mind was full of many thoughts.. there were thousands of emotions overwhelming me. but i can't tear up because if i did, who will wipe my tears. i can't even move a finger... my body has became so weak. i tried speaking few words...but all sounded faint making it impossible to hear.

even i don't heard what i said.

suddenly i felt thirsty..

i turned my face at the nearby table...water jug was placed there. should i try to get it myself? my throat was burning in thirst...

it felt like if i don't drink water..my inner throat will burn.