Bab 30: Sacrificing her
"That's not an issue for me. I can get it at the snap of my fingers" I said with a smile.
I couldn't wait to be as powerful as the that demon. It's a confidence that I'm sure going to conquer him.
"It's not just any life. It's the life that would be chosen by the earth" she said.
I then nodded. I watched her as she walked to a large pot and begin some chant. After the chants, she then beckoned on me to come. I could feel the heaviness in that room so I was very reluctant to go but at the end I went.
"Look" she said.
Looking inside the pot, I saw three faces there. The other two I don't know but Jessy's face was there looking at me.
"My sister?" I said shocked.
"Yes".
"But I can't sacrifice my sister" I lamented.
" Well it's up to you. You can quit" she said not helping matters with her nonchalant voice.
"No I can't. My life has no meaning if I don't get this revenge" I snapped.
Zippora left the post and went back to her sit. She was looking at me as I was battling with my thoughts.
"Can't I replace her with another?" I asked sadly.
Zippora shook her head.
I was so sad. Jessy is the only family I have left and I can't sacrifice her for my own selfishness. Be that it may, my hatred for the demon Alpha is really growing. If I don't do this I'll loose to him. Now I'm in the point of a dilemma. I don't know what to do.
"What is your decision Alpha? I don't have all day" Zippora's voice broke into my thoughts.
"I'm still confused" I said.
"It's not as if your sister is going to return to you anyways, so using her is better than him killing her" she said blankly.
I wonder how a very young girl could be this calus. She seem not to care about a life. Well she said the truth though but my conscience is still judging me.
"I know but I can't seem to kill my sister like that" I said with a sad shameful look.
" Just think of it that it was the demon Alpha that killed her" she said.
I then nodded reluctantly. I didn't seem to have a choice if I'm to win this war and make myself at peace again.
"Ok then I'll start the preparation. You can come back in three days time to finalize everything" she said.
" Ok" I nodded.
I couldn't help but feel guilty at what I was about to do but another side of me was telling me I do t have a choice.
"What do you want?" I asked Zippora.
I know they don't do this for free. They will surely want something in return.
"I don't want anything. You conquering that alpha is more than enough" she replied.
This made me to rause my brow. " It seems I'm not the only one against that demon Alpha" I thought. " Have a grudge with him?"
I was curious of what he would have done to this little one to make her want his life.
"It's none of your business Alpha" she said. " Time to go".
She then took me back to where she brought me from. It seems she's hiding from someone or something. Well it truely not my business been that all I want is power to conquer. If this is really possible, I wouldn't need the help of Callus, that arrogant man again.
As I went home, guilt wouldn't stop to piercing my heart.
"Jessy should know I'm doing this for us. Her death would surely be remember" I said to myself.
I need to assure myself so that I won't get myself expised but I was satisfied that I have something to conquer that ravenous beast.
Jessy
I couldn't stop playing what happened yesterday on my head. My body still aches like I was doing to die. The demon's aim was to kill me. He didn't even care to ask of me after he threw me out like a trash. I now hate the man.
I know this is all my fault but it was all because I trusted the man to be a kind one. I didn't know he is as he is. My mother didn't tell me this is how love making hurts. What I always hear is that it's the most beautiful thing ever and that why I had kept it for Alec. Now that I stupidly gave it to that demon Alpha, I regret my actions.
I wouldn't even go out because I couldn't walk. Even with my healing prowess, I couldn't heal till now. I had been struggling all the while to walk.
"Ma'am, you are told to come to the dinning hall" l heard the guard at my door say.
" Tell whom ever asked you to say that that I'm not interested" I said back.
I didn't want to see both the Alpha and Bella. Those two annoy me.
"I was told to drag you there even if I could and I wouldn't want to do that" he said calmly.
I know this time I don't have a choice. I then struggled in my pain to dress up and went out. As I got there I saw that the table was full even Moi who wasn't around was seated there.
"What's going on?" I asked myself.
I would have asked Bella this question if we are on talking terms. I looked at them all and walked slowly to them. I bowed in greeting and didn't utter a word. Bella quickly gave me a seat beside her which I couldn't reject.
"Are you hurt?" She asked me with concern.
" It's nothing" I said looking at Bounce who was concentrated on his food as if I do not exist.
That was the man I let to worship my body yesterday. Tears gathered on my eyes. I couldn't help it so I looked down to my hands. I know everyone's eyes was on me and I knew I have to comport myself.
"Jessy talk to me" Bella pleaded.
"I'm fine" I sniffed.
Bella held my hand and squeezed it slightly.
"I might not know what you are going through but I'm sure all will be fine" she said softly.
I looked at her with my tearful eyes. In her eyes I saw compassion. Then I knew I was been irrational judging her. Well even though she was doing so something bad, the person I was fighting her for isn't worth it. I then smiled at her. She's still the only one that looks out for me in this unknown place. I nodded at her and gave her a stiff smile.
"Let's eat" she said.
I nodded and then I noticed that Mitchell too wasn't eating. He was looking at us. He must have loved his wife so much. How I wish that wicked man there could look at me with such eyes, even if it's not to that extent.
As we eat, I noticed Bounce's eyes on me. I didn't have my appetite but I didn't want him to feel like he got into me. I was pushing food inside my mouth. Then our eyes met and my heart almost jumped out.
"You shouldn't be having feeling for this wicked man" I said to myself.
" You shouldn't be stuffing food inside your mouth. I don't want anyone choking while I have my meals. It disgusts me" he said blankly.
I paused and slowed the food in my mouth before I glared at him. I was also ashamed of myself but I won't let him ride on me. He must I've succeeded in making me feel so dirty but I won't let him make me feel suicidal.
I didn't even know Bella still held my hand until I felt my hand been squeezed. I looked at her and she gave me a comforting smile. Then I sensed another looking at me. It was Moi. I didn't know what I did to deserve that look. I quickly looked away because I don't even have strength to fight anyone.
After the meal, I decided to stand up. Bounce was already gone and the rest. He didn't even wait for desert. Bella made me to stay. Bella then pulled me to a secluded place.
"Take" she handed me a wine.
"Thank you" I said receiving it.
Since I came here I haven't taken anything alcoholic. All they give me is fresh juice. When I tasted the strong drink, I was glad at the way it burn down my throat. At least it will help me get distracted.
"Why don't you want to visit the clinic?" Bella asked as she sat beside me.
" I don't want to" I said blankly.
Bella looked ate for few seconds and then sighed.
"I've noticed you've been avoiding me all these while. Have I done anything to wrong you?" She asked.
I could see sincerity in her eyes and this made me to wonder if I've judged her wrongly. She's such a sweet person.
"I'm not" I denied.
"C'mon Jessy. We both know that that's a lie. It's not a crime to get wronged by me but if you don't tell me how then will I know how to apologize" she said.
I didn't know if I tell her what she did, she would try to hurt me but ten wasn't I already hurt by that wicked man.
"I'm sorry " I said not knowing where to start from.
She will definitely think me to be a fool for siding with my enemy.
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