Bab 47: Chapter 46: I can...
Each group had already made their decision on the issue, the adults were clear on their objective and although Smith clearly has another way of thinking that M has to stay, the others don't really see beyond the fact that he is a child who needs a place to call home, although they have taken their own thinking out of everything that has happened lately for them, they can't let go of M who is seen to have started this journey and the next step, but...you can still feel that weight that maybe this was too much for him. ...but you can still feel the weight that maybe this was too much for him... Without realizing his good kindness and affection without expecting anything in return from M, this ended up swaying M back to the thought that maybe he can stay in a quiet place. Everything indicated that, the boy himself knew it, that if faced with a welcoming place where he knows he will be treated well and even a great opportunity to know true love... M is willing again between his progress on his way, to simply stay in the place and form your life there... Now you can understand much more the weight of the final fight he had before he left, because he needed them to be hard on him and teach him that what he thinks is really wrong for his well-being, it is not what you think is right, it is what you really must do to be completely well and not feel any regret...If he gets to stay in this world that he considers normal, for a guy who does not belong here, he may even cause big trouble if they get hold of M....
『Yes, please continue』
The boy, too, had already made up his mind at the end of it all, but first he wanted to sort out his thoughts and see if he could somehow change his mind. I'm not going to lie, I feel a bit scared about what is about to happen, I'm the kind of person who is afraid of what the final result will be like, either for good or for bad. I was sighing to calm down, I tried to look in front of Smith, unlike me, she was too calm, surely she wants to show me that nothing bad will happen with her...
『Have you cooled down yet kid? Have you cleared your mind? A good bath helps one to calm down *smiles*』
I see you want to see how I'm doing, I'd rather be well for sure because of the topic we're going to talk about. At this I really was still serene and cool-headed after everything that happened, I'm only here to finish this matter where I'm clearly the centre of attention, if I say so then it will all be over....
『Yes, it was a new experience for me and...talking to Papi and Mia really helped me to understand that, maybe the best thing for me right now is just to be with you, I don't know you at all but I feel that as time goes by, I will grow to love you guys a lot. I don't know what place I would have in this home or in the future, but I know that you would help me to find it, I think that staying here would be the best...』
I said it clearly in that moment my thinking, where I was really being sincere, if I end up staying here it wouldn't be bad at all, there is a part that tells me that I can take that luxury of being a coward even, that it's okay to be a conformist, which is not weird at all, after all it's the part where I identify myself the most for a big part of my life that I have...
Hearing me say that, everyone present seemed to like my words, they are good people and want to help me, even if there is no space, they will make one for me, even if I don't have a room, they will make one for me, even if there is no place at the table for me, they will give me one.... even if they might want someone else already, they would make a space for me to be part of that little circle too...At this Smith was happier at the thought of M, Kurusu was also more cheerful and smiling, he wouldn't mind having to take care of one more, especially a child who might come to see him as a Younger and Older Brother to him.
『I'm glad you think that way about us M-chan, this makes things easier, as we see that your situation is somewhat serious and you need a home, then I propose this, Kimihito Kurusu, the boy you see here could become your guardian or caregiver, even something more depending on how things progress, right? Aniki? *smiles*』
『*laughs* That would be something new for me too...』
『But of course it wouldn't just stop there, being an undocumented kid, you don't technically belong here, you're going to have a lot of problems wherever you go and whatever you do, so we also offer you to have an identity in this world, that means you'll become someone again M-chan, that you'll be able to rebuild your life legitimately and legally without any problem *smiles*』-『Although it's also not necessary whether you accept or not, anyway it's my job to give you a chance to rejoin the society』.
To this I was really impressed by the first benefits that Smith was giving me, that having all my papers in order in a world where I shouldn't exist...he was giving me an identification and reason in this world, practically giving me the existence, life and permission to be able to stay here...The truth is something I hadn't thought of before, it was just like, I'm alive and I do what I want, but this is a world more attached to society than anything else, where if I want to stay I must first be identified and accepted...
『Because you are a special case, I can't lie to you that you won't be under our eyes, right now you are a mystery to everyone and the truth is that the intrigue of knowing who you really are makes me very uneasy, you are someone with a lot to discover M-chan, our organisation and especially my group and I, we will be aware of you, it will be a bit annoying as you must when we will do check-ups, a few studies that I promise nothing bad will happen to you *smiles* and even tests whether or not you are a danger to everyone』-『I'll be honest with you M-chan, I have so much intrigue, mystery, joy, desire to know who you are and what you are capable of doing, that all this together causes me fear and danger from you *would be*』-『We want to keep you under control so that you can have a calm and serene life, that everything you went through and lived through doesn't affect you in wanting to live like someone normal, just be yourself who you are and move forward with it, what you were given before, it's not your obligation to fulfil it 』
!!!!!....In that moment when Smith spoke...I am really glad that she is direct and tells me things as they are, so I end up losing the fear of how the final result would be, I knew it...they want to know everything about me and that scares me, if they really discover what I can do with all the power I have, as an organisation that makes sure that everything goes as it should, in the face of a possible future problem like me...it is better that they have everything under control for that very reason. One of the natures of man has always been fear, the fear that what you have, protect and take care of, will one day be destroyed...
『It is not my duty?....』
『That's right M-chan, you don't have to be obligated to do what you were told or entrusted to do, if you were dragged against your will, then you have every right to refuse and go on with your quiet life you had before, don't see that after what happened to you, it's your only option』.
...Why she talks as if she knows my real situation...I'm not going to lie, her words at this moment really hit me too hard, I can tell she's been at this for a while and her way with words makes it clear, for her they are just assumptions she doesn't understand, but for me they are clear and I know what she means, and that makes Smith right...That I'm not obligated to do it...that it's not my only option...this really left me many more paths to take, so can I stay here? I'm not obliged to move forward...so I can ignore everything that happened before? Right...everything that happened to me is against my will, that day I should have gone to the shopping district as normal...Menhera should have caught up with me...we could have walked around and bought the ingredients for the cake...we would have gone back home and started preparing the cake, I am sure that in between we would have had fun and I would have felt safe and confident to be with Menhera and be able to sort things out with her. ...Then the days would have gone on with her company, I would have gone back to school, I would have seen my friends again, I would have seen that version of my loving and attentive mother a lot longer...even though it was a new stage that came out of nowhere...that was my real life to continue ....
『If I stay...can I have friends? If I stay...will I be able to have a mum again...dad and big sister? If I stay...will I be able to find that feeling that is true love...』
I said it in a delirious way but...it was really very much in line with my thoughts, I said this with fear, as the answer I felt would be so obvious. It wasn't Smith who answered me, but it was Kurusu who told me....
『Sure, you're going to have a home to stay in, we can be your friends, the mum and dad thing...uhm...』
『I can be Mom and you can be Dad Kurusu-chan, after all, we'll be the ones watching over and taking care of the child *smiles*』
『But you're so funny Smith-san』
『No!!!! That's never!!!!! 』
From what Smith wanted to make a joke to his friend Kurusu, quickly between what they were joking about, at that someone happened to take it seriously and to refuse the whole thing. It was Mia who raised her voice where everyone noticed her, I too was surprised by her actions, who the Lamia was nervous and red at the moment, but she also wanted to make things clear by saying...
『I'll be!!! Little M's mother!!!! *red*』
Lamia Mia said very loudly in the whole room, where we were all shocked by her reaction, although it wasn't expected either, although some reacted for sure because of the issue of Smith and Kurusu being the parents, that means they would be together and.....
『No!!!! Yeah though!!! No way in hell Smith has to stay with my Honey!!!!! I prefer him to be with one of you but never with this chick who only causes trouble to my Honey!!!!』-『Also I'm not just saying this because I want to be happy together with Kurusu...but I really want to be the one who takes care and watches over Little M!!!!! If he doesn't know something or if something is difficult for him, I want to be there! Help him with his homework, play with him, help him lose his fear if something scares him...teach him to socialize and not be afraid of people...help him greet others...maybe teach him something he doesn't know, ride the bike, he can accompany me when we go to the shopping district and help me carry the bags...help him make an effort at something and reward him as he deserves...I want!!! to be the one who gives him the love and affection that was taken away from him!!!! 』
To this Mia started to say all those things, where really I who could hear everything and special was the cause, really this ended up hitting me more than I thought...the one who sees more than anything wanting to spend time with me and trying to help me in whatever way she can...I knew...she is the kind of mother I didn't have.... unlike my mother Nyoka who didn't have time and didn't do many things with her, even leaving me aside in many situations, unlike Zeta who was somewhat attentive we could say, but I don't remember us doing simple things like what Mia said, more focused on forming me into a good person.
Mia was embarrassed and I know that I would be a beginner and novice mother, but seeing her make an effort for me in little things that I lack...It really made me somewhat happy and imagining what it would be like to experience all those things for the first time...Ahh...now I understand how the simple fact that she stroked my head and congratulated me made me so happy....
『I'd like to see what you'd be like as a mother too Mia-san *smiles*』
At this I couldn't help but be happy and tell Mia that, and when she heard me, she was happy and smiled back at me. I really believe that I can't see Mia in any other way, but as a person that in the smallest simple things that happen to me, she will somehow be there to help me.
『That's not fair, surely the time you spent in the bathroom with M, you earned her trust, I see you went ahead with that post Mia, this time you were faster than me 』.
Rachnera commented on seeing that she didn't think about it, already making the connection between a son, a mother and the Father who would be Kurusu, actually the arachnid was giving Mia points for being smarter. Centorea was also somewhat aware of the situation, leaving aside the fact that Mia and Kurusu end up together, the important issue is that if M ends up staying, there must be a bond, a relationship with all of them. M already sees Mia as a reliable person, so....
『Don't hesitate to ask me for help and spending time with me M-dono, I don't think I can do a good job if I try to act like a mother, I feel like I would do it wrong, if I try to imitate the way I was raised...*thinking* 』
At that point Centorea was stuck on how he would live with M if he tried to teach him everything she knew, which thanks to being a strong, proud and brave species, might not be what a quiet boy like M expects. Whatever was on Centorea's mind, maybe it wasn't the right thing for the boy, he kept thinking for a long time, and when he couldn't make up his mind, I just said....
『You don't have to worry Centorea-san, I'm good at adapting to circumstances, that's how I've lived until now, before I didn't even know how to dodge a simple punch, I even fought by waving my arms *smiles* If you want me to be a brave and strong boy, then I'll try my best, everything I learned, you can add your thinking and that will make me very happy, besides we could do more things, like going for walks and even do quiet things like ah! playing video games or something like that? 』
『Gaming?...Do you like games? How do you like RPGs???? 』
『RPGs...I'm more into reflexes but...as a kid I always liked intense farming!!!』
『!!!!!!( I've already found a playmate!!!!) I already want to spend our game together M-dono *happy*』
The truth surprises me that Centorea likes games, I don't know why it came to my mind that she doesn't even know what a videogame console is... But she looks very happy, so let her get ready, I can really spend hours playing all kinds of games. While Mero doesn't seem to want to be left behind either, seeing that everyone is starting to bond, it's best that he does the same, where he approaches me with his wheelchair, really seeing a Mermaid walking on the surface with a wheelchair is curious, but isn't it dangerous? There hasn't been an accident before? something tells me that something like this has happened before?
『I wouldn't seek to be your stepmother, although it wouldn't be bad thinking about the stories where there are such characters, but if I were, I wouldn't be someone who would push you aside or treat you less young M, I would give you the right growth and care so that you will also find happiness when you grow up *smiles*』-『You can also come with me if you have doubts or questions about anything, I can teach you many things I know, you said you are in search of true love? I can teach you that *smiles*』
『Seriously!!! Then you'd be very helpful to me, it's a topic that I've been interested in lately and ....』
『And I want to play all the time with my Little Brother M!!! to make him forget everything bad! Eat together! Walk together! Fly together! Sleep together! Walk together! Laugh together! The best thing is for you to do many things to make you forget the bad things!!!!! *happy*』
To this Papi appeared out of nowhere at that moment to also clarify the things he wants to do with M, where he quickly ended up getting very attached to him and even trying to drag him with his wings. This really took me by surprise and because of how close we were together, I couldn't help but get a little nervous and avoid turning red for the moment. At this I was happy that Papi wants to do a lot of things with me, but I think I'd rather for the sake of surprise to have him move away a little bit...I really think it's too much of a female attachment....
『I see, what tastes you have young M *smiles*』
It seems that the first one to realise how I feel is Mero, who was happy to be able to help me as soon as possible with my love...Although I am really happy that everyone wants to support me, I was really a bit disappointed, Papi told me clearly that I am like a Little Brother...which I really don't like at all...At this I could feel something touching my back, where I realised it was Slime Suu who.... how to say it, she was smiling all the time, which made me think she had a calm personality, but the things she does are out of pure innocence and ignorance, or at least she had that thought...She was raising her hands where...eh?...what are those things sticking out of her head? are those tails? eh...I don't know what that is, but she also seems to react to what the Slime feels, she doesn't seem to talk much, and what she communicates with the most is saying....
『Suu!!!!』
『...(Don't tell me that because he says suu, that's his name? It's not like he's a poke----) Yes, we'll spend time together too Suu, but I'd rather you didn't wrap your body around me again, or does the Slime have a mania for getting too attached to others?』
To what I said and under my suspicions, most of them who were all there, kind of didn't want to answer truthfully, like they were nervous and...this just made me realise that Suu has already done a lot of things with others and it seems that so far few have been able to avoid that habit of hers.
『If you see that she sticks to you a lot M-san, it's because she loves you a lot....』
『She loves you, but profa-----』
『So you just!!!!...you're going to have to make do *smile*...(Smith-san don't say it so plainly please....)』
『Eh?...』
『Ah! Suu-san is more like a little kid, so he mostly imitates others, but if you let him know what he's doing is wrong, he should stop what he's doing, just convey what you want him to understand in a strong way...』
Kurusu tried to explain to me what Suu's attitude is like, which I could already see coming, although one thing surprises me, normally the Slimes I have in mind are not so developed or intelligent, they are mostly just a gelatinous mass and that's it. But I see that the ones from this world possess intelligence and try to understand quite well how the world works. That just made me think that there must have been a long way in the history of this world...Suu was smiling and as Papi kept wanting to pull me to be together with her, Suu also did the same thing, which....
『Ahh!!! No mames se siente raro!!!! It feels like !!!! *embarrassed* (Ahhh...now I understand why everyone was embarrassed recently)』
How to say, it feels like sticky liquid all over your body, like sometimes it ends up seeping out little by little through your clothes that if you're not careful...I was really getting red so I decided to push Suu aside, I pulled her away by grabbing her 2 shoulders and.... how to say, it's kind of strange her touch with her, there are times where her body becomes intangible and you can go through her or she can go through you, but there are times where it becomes tangible and you can perceive her...Plus the simple fact that she's wearing a mackintosh that's not buttoned...the fact that I can somehow see her whole body and...
『It will be a pleasure to spend time with you Suu.... *red*』
『*smile* Suu!』
Actually this thing where they don't cover themselves at all and leave the rest to my imagination I think is what I'm in the most danger of, there's nothing kinky about it, it doesn't have nipples or even sex organs like you'd expect, but the simple fact that it takes on the appearance of a girl...And that it's somewhat the size of Suu at least that I see it now...Ahh...I preferred to go back to my place so I could relax from everything and avoid that....
『Don't be tempted Ya-kun 』
I heard Rino's voice in the room where I knew perfectly well that the likes I have are really taking over me. Rachnera to all this doesn't seem to care, wanting to act like a mother doesn't appeal to her unless she gets to have her own children, playing like little kids doesn't either. Rather if M ends up staying with them after all, it just means she'll have to be less daring and be considerate of the child. Or on the other hand seeing as he'll stop being a child at some point....
『Maybe it's better sooner rather than later』.
『You really aren't afraid of anything Rachnera...』
Centorea heard this where she couldn't help but give her friend a dirty look at such a comment. Everyone seems to be already imagining what the days with M would be like if she ends up staying, but aren't they skipping a few steps?
『Don't you think it's better that it's all over? I'm fine with the boy staying too, but isn't it better to listen to his decision?』
Lala ended up saying this by bringing everyone back to reality, where from what everyone falsely believed that M would stay, this seems to have been misinterpreted. The way M was talking and behaving, it literally seemed that he had already made up his mind to stay here with everyone. The boy, who was sitting back on the couch, stared at Smith, who was looking at him.
『Can you keep talking, Mr. Smith? 』
It seems that they got their hopes up so high from the beginning that M was the one who started the one that continued. Smith at this was waiting for the time to continue talking, where the offer for M to stay in this home was not over.
『Besides giving you security and protection, doing our best to make sure nothing bad happens to you or them, it's not only our obligation, but you must also cooperate M-chan, if you draw attention to yourself again like last night, things might not go so well. The good thing is that the agency was able to cover up that pillar of Light, but to make it clear, you were the one who caused that power expulsion?』
『.... Yes...I was the one who caused that...』
『If you want to have a peaceful life, you should avoid using that power you have to avoid problems in the future, we should make the most of this opportunity to rebuild your life M-chan, not only will you leave and hide who you are, but you will be a new person, with a new name and a new origin if accepted, we will need to take care of you and keep you hidden so that you don't fall into the wrong hands again, I know it seems very demanding what I am telling you, but all that can be avoided by simply leaving everything behind and starting from scratch, M-chan』
Now Smith has finished giving me the last indications of what it really means to accept help from everyone. I could see her much more serious about this and...the truth is that I think it is possible, I don't know how much power she has or how much she is capable of doing, but if she proposes something like starting from scratch, it is because she has a great influence within her field and connections...I was somewhat thoughtful about this, although that is a lie, I had already decided long before and after listening to each of them even though everything they proposed to me would be really good, I can't leave aside that...
『I can't let go of who I am Mr.Smith...it's tempting what you proposed to me and if I would accept I know I would be very happy and have a good time with all of you...』 -『But the problem I think is just that, I don't want to rebuild my life or anything, I don't want to replace anyone...what I want is to get back to the life I left behind』-『So I'm sorry Mr.Smith, I'm sorry to all of you, but I have to leave and get back to where I belong』.
Where I made my thoughts clear at the time, where this seems to have taken everyone by surprise, but there was nothing more to say to all this, it would have been nice and I was almost tempted, but I must continue to get to what made me happy and who I am in the first place ....
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Right now I was walking a long way since I left Kurusu's house and the urban area, I was surprised that there was a forest nearby and little by little I was getting closer, if I had realized before I would have gone here last night instead of to the park. I saw my surroundings and I didn't perceive or see anyone, I was really alone at this moment. I could only hear my footsteps while just looking down, it's a really beautiful forest, the trees and the grass where I walk, it reminded me of the island where I lived for 2 years...
『Are you sure about this? Ya-kun』
Rino appeared walking next to me keeping up with me, where I replied that this was the best decision, but he replied with a...
『Well, I don't see that you were pleased with your answer』-『Really with everything you were talking and agreeing with everyone there, you got them really excited Ya-kun, you got excited too my friend...』
Rino was telling me what I didn't want to hear at that moment, he's giving me to understand my mistakes of the moment and...from what we were walking and we were inside the forest, I really stopped at this, where Rino kept walking to be in front of me, I won't have to refuse let alone get upset, I would be foolish to get mad at my own decision I made....
『Yes, that was wrong, but I couldn't help but imagine what it would be like to spend the days together with all of them, it would have been beautiful...it would have been amazing...But that's what I knew would stop me from my ultimate goal, I must not do the first world thing again, I must go on until I find my home』
『*sigh* Now the one who wants to sound interesting is you Ya-kun, are you even thinking about what you're saying? You say it like being here would be a mistake, befriending here would be a mistake, receiving kindness from here would be a mistake 』-『Following your logic, then everything you experienced in the first world was a mistake』.
...Rino...you're too nosy, did they tell you that? I must have thought about it but I never told you...At this Rino's words, I really couldn't help but get annoyed and raise my voice to my friend, who was attentive to everything I was going to say.
『Of course not! Everything I did, was given and lived with all together in that world, was not a mistake!!!! Rather I am grateful that they gave me a place in their home, to have met them and become friends with them, they earned a space in my being where I...』
『You were replacing them, don't forget that detail, everything you knew, you were replacing it with everything new and it seemed right to you, you were willing to make it so 』
『.....』
『Now you're not looking for anyone to replace anything, you want everything to have its own space and that's fine, but don't you think you're overdoing it Ya-kun? If you saw it as a replacement and the opportunity to rebuild your life affected you a lot, then you still have a lot of growing to do Ya-kun 』-『It all depends on how you look at it, to me, they just wanted to form new bonds with someone who is lost』.
The conversation with Rino was really like that? Were you saying things straight to my face? I was a bit annoyed at the time, I really didn't want to listen to him talk, he's too honest and direct with his friends, don't you keep up appearances with me? But I had no choice, I had already made a decision, I know very well what would happen if I stay here, I know that again I would come to appreciate all these people I know and will know, I will come to think differently, I will start to imagine a future here... which would be a mistake... I moved on to my Form God where...huh?...I can notice something different about me...like something was preventing me from finishing and even starting my transformation, but I didn't care, I was going to leave anyway, to this I raised my hand and went to conjure the spell, I really must get out of here as fast as I can and continue...and continue...continue...continue....
『I see you didn't understand what Ya-kun』-『You didn't understand your friends before you started this journey』-『If you think you have to go on and on until you reach your destination, then you didn't understand』-『Not everything is a free path, there will always be obstacles and gaps to overcome, it's okay to want to continue, but if it's impossible don't force it either, don't get a complex and stay in one place thinking that you can't do it anymore, or in this case that staying would be the best』-『It's your journey Ya-kun, don't forget that, so you can do whatever you want, if you want to stay for a while, then there's nothing wrong, if you're tired, what's wrong with resting? If you see a chance to be someone better, a reason why you should stay, I'm pretty sure you just need an excuse to live great experiences again my friend *smiles*』-『Take the decision at the beginning Ya-kun, what do you really want?』
Rino didn't stop talking during the whole time he was invoking the portal, where really, even though he was ignoring it, his words entered me in the same way, because... that was what I was really thinking at that moment. But after a few minutes, I was surprised by something, I inevitably stopped struggling with my transformation when I didn't get it for no apparent reason, I couldn't understand it, with a rest I was supposed to feel better...but trying to make the portal to travel between worlds...I just couldn't. ....
『I couldn't...I...I couldn't make the portal....』
『*smile*』
『So...I...I...I...can I stay here?.....』
『Take all your time Ya-kun, until you see that it's time to resume your journey 』
At this I was really trembling, but it wasn't out of fear or fear at all...it was really because I was happy to have encountered an obstacle that inevitably forces me to stay here for a while. I was really happy at that moment that I happened to show it by raising my voice and even jumping up and down, I really...can stay and live here...*happy* At this I really happened to look towards the other direction I came from, and happened to run as far as I could to the city, where Rino would catch up to run beside me, where I....
『Thanks a lot Rino, you really helped me out again *smiles*』
『*smile*You're welcome, we all have the chance to be selfish and take the opportunity to have a good time』.
At this I was really happy running along with my friend, where that last one if I feel it was too selfish, the problems that will come in the future I will have to take responsibility for them, but that just left me thinking something, if Rino ever made a decision only thinking about his well being...But thanks to him giving me to understand that, now yes...I will take that excuse and opportunity, to see what's going on here!!!!!
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