Bab 108: Into The Bowels of Despair

Stepping into the trial built to torment mortals, facing adversity after adversity, experiencing pain and suffering that I had hoped I would never have to in my life, I began to ask myself one question.

"Why?"

For some reason, since coming to Gaia, I've had this obsession with becoming stronger. At first, it was simply my childish wonder with this world, and my own desire to be someone I wasn't that drove me to lust for strength.

Then, when the very first person in this world I met betrayed me, I began to wonder if it was even possible to stray away from what I already was--a weak, unmotivated husk of a human, someone without a work ethic, someone without any true desires of their own--the only thing I ever wanted was to become someone strong enough to take hold of the intangible desires I had.