Bab 5: Sorting Emotions and Finally Training, partly...
Yokoji stared at the bathroom door wondering whether or not he should knock, he was an adult man in his past life. Yes, he was still a teenager, at 19, and yes he still lived with his mum. But he still knew what he should and should not be doing.
Yokoji felt disgusted with himself. 'She is only 8 years old, what was I thinking?' He kept on repeating this sentence in his mind again and again. Still standing outside the bathroom door. In a daze he didn't realise the door open, bumping him onto the floor.
Yokoji looked up, out of his thoughts. He saw Konan standing there with a worried-looking expression over her face. He didn't realise why she was looking worried, but he assumed it had to do with him being such an idiot just now.
"I'm sorry!" Yokoji shouted towards her, standing up and doing a precise 90degree bow. He was truly scared that she would leave him after what just happened. Yet, he couldn't blame her if she intended to, it was his fault after all.
After Yokoji was done cursing himself in his head, he looked up to see Konan with a shocked look on her face. 'Damn, now I've made myself look like a creep who abuses her and just expects her to forgive me'.
Once again in self-doubt, Yokoji didn't realise the true reason Konan had that expression on her face was not because she thought he did something wrong to her. But that it was she who did something bad to him.
He brought her in on the streets, gave her food and a place to sleep with a roof over her head. And as Yokoji had said, a home.
She was the one who was bad, she ran away from him once he wanted something. This is why she left the bathroom with a worried feature on her face. And this is why she had a shocked look after he apologized.
"I-its not your fault, it's mine. I'm sorry for running away. I wasn't thinking then but I am now. I really enjoyed the feeling you gave me. C-can you do it again?" Konan hurried to correct Yokoji, practically confessing her feelings to him, the feelings which she herself didn't understand yet.
"No, what I did was wrong, I'm sorry and I won't let it happen again!" Yokoji spoke with a convicted expression on his face. Whereas Konan had one of utter terror, 'If he doesn't do I again I won't get that feeling crawl over my body, will I? I need to convince him!' she says to herself with determination.
"I-i enjoyed what you did to me, p-please can you continue. Don't stop. I won't run away like last time!" With her feelings out in the open, the 8-year-old Konan turned beet red once again that day.
Yokoji sighed in relief and worry as he realised what was happening, 'she enjoyed it, however, I can't do this again with her in good conscience at this age.' he says, as he has a pondering look come over him.
"Konan, I now realise you enjoyed it, however, I'm not sure I feel comfortable doing that sort of thing with you from now on. How about this, when you grow up, if you still feel the same way, we'll do it. How about when you turn 18?" He asked with a caring expression covering him. He was truly worried she would do something she came to regret later.
Konan was worried, she didn't want to wait 10 years to have that feeling again. She wouldn't be able to cope. "H-how about when I turn 12 instead?" She says nervous that Yokoji will be mad at her for speaking back.
Yokoji on the other hand noticed how worried she looked and said, "Sorry, I'll lower it to 15 but I won't do any lower than that, ok?" he says to her, hoping that Konan will agree this time, he wasn't comfortable to think of doing it to her younger than that.
"Fine, however, I'm still sleeping with you, and you'll kiss me too!" She says with a new look of resolution on her. 'God, she really wants to do that again.' Yokoji thought.
"Alright, however, we won't be doing more than that, I don't want to hurt you Konan." He says to her. Checking how she took that.
Konan's face turned to a small pout but she was still looking forward to cuddling up with Yokoji, 'a-and k-kissing him' she thought in her mind. Her face suddenly going ripe even more. Especially at the thought that he doesn't want to hurt her. 'So he doesn't want me just for my body, does he really want to just be with me?' Konan's reflection made her feel giddy inside. And a feeling washed over her. Making her blush even more, especially being so close to Yokoji.
'Is this what Mum was talking about? Is this what it feels to love someone?' Konan brooded over these thoughts.
This time it was Yokoji's time to turn a shade of red, 'She looks so cute while thinking so hard!' he shouted inwardly. His inner-weeb coming out again, as he realised what it was like to see a person you have loved for so long right in front of you.
"I love you!"
"I love you!"
Konan and Yokoji said at the same time. Making them both blush in embarrassment. They both felt happy inside. Yokoji gave Konan a small peck on her lips, as he mentions breakfast to her.
*Time skip to after an awkward breakfast*
"Konan, I believe it's time we start training!" Yokoji mentioned to her, realising that he should start to get stronger, so that he could better protect himself, but more importantly her. It seems that meeting Konan has made him even more loving than before, he noticed just how much he would give to see a smile on her face, and just how much he would do to never allow her to shed another tear. 'It's time to put my wishes into full use.'
"What do you mean? Train for what?" She says confused, she didn't want to do anything other than be with Yokoji at this moment.
"Train so that no one ever does anything bad to us, I don't want to see you hurt!" He says to her, making her feel happy inside, yet also worried. 'If he keeps on protecting me then he will get hurt. I need to get strong too to never need him to protect me. Then I can protect him instead!' resolve filled her.
"How do we start training?" Yokoji nods at the determined look on Konan's face.
'Good, I know she's talented, I should just help her know that too.'
"Come here, I'll unlock your chakra for you," Yokoji called to her.
Konan crawled over the sofa towards him. Yokoji noticed how cute she looked doing it.
"Ok, now take off your shirt and face away from me, showing me you're back." Even though he said this in a mature voice, embarrassment could still be heard as he remembers what happened earlier this morning.
Embarrassment also showed on Konan's face, as she also remembered. However, for her she didn't mind, she loved Yokoji and he loves her. That was her thought process.
Konan took off her shirt. She was still facing towards Yokoji, so he immediately stared as her chest was out in the open. Her two little cherries were still puckered up and sore looking from earlier where he squeezed and pulled them, making her moan.
His hand unconsciously went up to touch them again, making Konan's breath get caught, a slight moan gently escaping.
As the moan reached Yokoji's ear he quickly realised what he was doing. He immediately put his hand back down.
"Turn around," Yokoji told her, as Konan pouted since the nice feeling was gone again.
Once Konan turned around, Yokoji hesitantly put his hand on her back.
Konan shivered at his touch, the feeling of his cold hand against her back.
'Focus, you have to do this carefully or it could damage her' Yokoji muttered as he gritted his teeth and went into a semi-meditation state that he used earlier to find his chakra.
"Ok, try and feel the substance I'm pushing into you. Feel it move around you, concentrate." He tells her. Already straining at the pressure it put on his terribly low chakra reserves.
Yokoji, helped her find her chakra inside her, he helped her control it, showing the paths around her body.
She had around the same chakra amount as him, but he had perfect control over it due to his wish. This is what allowed him to use his chakra to help Konan find hers.
A look of joy came over Konan's face when she felt the weird feeling inside of her. It felt somewhat like the feeling she got from being near Yokoji yet different at the same time.
Little did Yokoji know, that helping Konan control her chakra in such a way, forms an unbreakable bond between them for her. This is something that would normally not happen as each child has to find and control their chakra themselves.
Outsiders couldn't help them with this as a single mistake will lead to them becoming a vegetable for life. Yokoji didn't know this, he was just trying to help her.
Fortunately for him, he had perfect chakra control, allowing her chakra to absorb some of his while on their way around Konan's chakra paths. This would make her feel even better in his presence, yet also cause her to feel utter disdain towards other males unless she has been with them for a while. At that point, she would just feel uncomfortable.
Yokoji still didn't realise how he changed Konan, however even if he did he wouldn't be able to stop it. She now had a bond to him, one she would never break, and one she would never want to break.
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After a while of messing around with their chakras together, they decided to start training the amount of chakra they could hold.
They both had the same amount, the only difference was the amount of control Yokoji had over his. Fortunately, due to the still unknown bond, Konan's chakra control was boosted by a great degree. Yokoji simply thought it was because she is a future S-Rank ninja.
Yet, what he absolutely couldn't explain, was when he showed Konan the leaf training exercise to boost her chakra control and her chakra capacity (AN: couldn't find the method to train chakra capacity so I'm improvising), however, the surprising thing was, when he felt his chakra subtly increase, she also felt hers increase as well.
It worked the other way around as well, once Konan improved her chakra, it improved his at the same time. He was utterly stumped. The only thing that could have done something like this would be if he gave her his blood yet he didn't. The only other thing would be when he helped open her chakra...
"Konan, did you feel anything strange when you opened your chakra?" Yokoji asked as he saw her doing some more origami. That also sparked some memories for him, but he'll talk about that with her later.
"Yes, I felt a deeper connection to you Yokijo, it feels so nice to be near you now!" She looks at him with a slight shade of pink covering her cheeks. Showing she didn't really want to talk about it.
This of course made Yokoji both worried and confused at the same time, 'could it be because I helped her guide her chakra?' he assumed.
"Can you come here Konan?" She gently put down the paper bird she was making, and moved over next to him, until their shoulders were touching.
"Do you mind if I look into your chakra veins again?" he told Konan, hoping she wouldn't find the request too weird. However, as soon as the words left his mouth, she took off her shirt and turned with her back against him again.
This was also due to the chakra changes, she desperately wanted to feel his touch the entire time since she opened up her chakra. But, she didn't want to stop the training he was helping her with.
As Yokoji touched her naked back, this time she let out a moan that was clearly heard. Her face blushed red at it, but she couldn't stop the liquid falling from her legs at the enjoyment of his cold hands against her back.
Yokoji was also confused, as she didn't have that much of a reaction last time. 'She definitely got more sensitive to me' he thought, getting more worried at the same time.
As he went into Konan's chakra, he felt something different immediately. It was like their chakra rushed into each other, like long-lost lovers. Yet, her chakra seemed to be more enjoyable about his chakra's presence.
After doing a few experiments with it, he soon understood what had happened. He also grew worried as he started to guess just how much Konan's emotions might be affected.
He didn't want to force Konan to only be with him, he wanted her to have a choice with her actions. The only thing that stopped him from beating himself up to much, was her obvious feelings towards him even before she opened her chakra.
The more he thought about it, the less he realised it didn't affect her much except making her more connected to him. (AN: still doesn't know about the thing where she disdains other guys) Although, he still didn't like the fact she couldn't break the bond. He couldn't deny the feeling of knowing he was connected to Konan was exhilarating.
Konan didn't show any discomfort when he told her about it, instead, she seemed to be even more overjoyed they were connected as well.
After a while, they had settled down and it had started to get dark. Yokoji decided to give her some of his blood to make up for what had happened to her. Plus he was planning on doing it anyway if things worked out between them.
As he suddenly cut his hand with a knife, dripping the blood into a cup while gritting his teeth for the pain. Konan came back into the room from the toilet.
"What are you doing!" she yelled, seeing me injured, it made her feel like a part of her soul was getting ripped off. Even though she could see he wasn't seriously injured, she was still extremely worried about Yokoji.
"Ah" Yokoji was shocked to see Konan acting so strongly to seeing him injured. He also realised this could become an issue when they went on future missions. That out of his mind he decided to tell her about part of his power...
(AN: Just wanted to say sorry for the late upload, had an assignment to do, also comment if you think the love scenes are a bit awkward. I'm trying to make it better please bere with. Also comment if the chapter was too long or short, or if I should keep it as it is. I can't tell when writing it. :)
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