Bab 19: Who am I ?

Jula left the Rose Villa and started to walk aimlessly. She could not think properly. She was trying to sort out her thoughts, but was it that easy?

She walked through the road leading to the main city and saw a children's park nearby. She entered the park without thinking anything and sat down on a bench. At it was already night, the park was empty.

She looked around. It was a beautiful park, which was decorated with colorful lights. There was a lake inside the park on which a lot of lotuses were blooming. The reflection of the moon made the lake more beautiful. Although everything was so beautiful, she could not enjoy the beauty of the nature. She lost in deep thought.

'Who am I? Why am I here? I..... I have no one in this world!Why no one is searching for me? Is it possible to not having anyone in my family? But.......but if I would have family members, would not have they search me? Now, what should I do? I ... I have no place to stay. I even have no money. What will I do now? Should I ask the help of Mr.Thomson?...Mo.Definitely not. How can I take the help of a stranger?..... He is a stranger to me....I left him . I can not stay at that house. But why I am feeling so sad? Is...is it...possible that I fell......no.....it is not possible. How can I fall for someone, who is nothing to me? But..... But I liked to stay there......'She thought and smiled.

Jula was thinking about her days in Rose Villa. Suddenly she remembered the incident with James Thomson. She blushed to think about the moment.

"Oh, God! What have I done! I ..... I removed his clothes! And.....and ... I....I even bought sexy lingerie to seduce him! Thank God! I have at least leave him in time. Otherwise, how can I show my face to him! Jula.....Jula, how can you do this? Jula, shame on you! How can you do this? Even if you have lost your memory, you should not do this. Don't have you any dignity?"Jula Mumbled and sprang up from the bench.

'No, I can not wait here more. This place is near his house. What if she comes here by any chance? I can not show my face to him.'She thought and left the park hurriedly and forwarded towards the main city. She walked along the road for a long time and reached a subway. She was so tired.

'Where should I go? I am hungry. But....but I have no money with me. What should I do? I think I have to find out a place to eat first.'Jula thought and looked around. But she could not see any restaurant or any food stalls nearby. She saw a woman was coming from the opposite side.

"Excuse me, is there any place nearby, where I can buy food?"She asked the woman.

"Yes, you just turn right and there is a restaurant . But be careful. That place is not safe for women. But if you can go two kilometers more, you will find a lot of restaurants there."The woman replied.

"Thank you. I will go to the restaurant here. And yes. I will be careful."Jula replied with a smile.

She followed the direction the woman told her and reached in front of the restaurant. Music was playing in high volume in the restaurant. She entered the restaurant hesitatingly. A waiter welcomed her.

"Miss, please have a seat."The waiter said.

"I.......I want to meet your manager."Jula said in a low voice.

"The manager?Why?Do you know him personally?"The waiter asked in a confused voice.

"N....no. I don't know him, but I have to tell him something. Please help me."

The waiter gave her a weird look and signaled her to follow him.

"Yes. Who are you? I don't think I have met you before. What can I do for you?"The manager asked with a smile.

"I......I want to work here today. I......I can do the dishes or serve the customers. I can work as a waitress."Jula said and lowered her head.

"But Miss, we have sufficient staff here. I am sorry. I can not help you."The manager said in a calm voice.

"Please manager, help me. I am very hungry. I have no money. I have to rent a place to stay. Please help."Jula said in a sad tone. The manager looked at her and think something.

"I can hire you as a waitress of our bar, as our customers are demanding a lady waitress. But the work is not easy here. The men can turn themselves to a tiger when drunk. You must be careful."The manager said in a calm voice.

"I can handle it. Just tell me what I have to do?"Jula said happily.