Bab 84: Regret

One day you may feel it is okay to mourn

The childhood you lost

To the scorching flames of greed 

Childhood that could have been painted

With colors of joys and love,

but dear heart try not to lose your adulthood 

While mourning the childhood you lost once.

(Mourning thy innocence )

--- Long Jie 

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HE COULDN'T DO IT.

At this point, he didn't even care for anything. He had never cared too much for anything anyway. Sure, he wanted to clear the mess he had made, maybe re-do or undo the morning, but at what cost?

He couldn't tell her the truth and lie? He couldn't lie to her. Ever. He was a liar, manipulator, and heck even a cheat to the world. But he was not to her.