Bab 77: MYS 77 Sometimes swearing is necessary 

MYS 77

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  I don't know how many days I didn't touch my phone. The last time was when I replied to a short message from Annalia which I immediately regretted. I even turned off my cell phone. 

I don't want to burden Annalia's mind more than it should. And I also don't want Annalia to tell Mister J about my situation, which I'm avoiding. 

It's not something I want. Not if Annalia suddenly turned into a Stefi. 

"Khansa, can I say that bastard on the wall who can't possibly hear?" Today my mood is getting worse, I purposely asked because I wanted to know what Khansa's answer would be. 

  Usually, at a time like this, Khansa would immediately lecture about many things. Advised me to repent by multiplying the sentences of istighfar. But I can't get it today.