A/N: You might want to get some tissues and a pillow to punch. :D
10:14pm
My head is aching, I don't know why. Could it be the stress, the pain, the anger? All I want to do is sleep, but I've got mother fricking hw. I fucking hate hw. Heads up: when I reread this I will realize how sleep deprived I was while writing this. I can't stand covid, I can't stand being far away from the person I love, I can't stand being the youngest, I can't stand being alone, an only child.
*starts singing lonely by justin bieber [i emotional don't judge, and sometimes i need to cry to feel happy]
*starts crying, no no, frantically sobbing
*teeth start chattering, and starts to feel alone, without a thought
I feel alone, no one my age to talk to, no older sibling to share struggles with, no one to share my feelings with, except this lousy journal.
*starts choking on words while writing and reading this out loud
10:26pm
I hate it when my parents compare me to my older cousins. They are way older than me, one of them is getting married!!! So, STOP comparing me!!
Parents: do your homework quickly, your cousins did it way faster that you
My mind: i don't give a fucking care, and fucking stop comparing them to me!!
What I actually say: ok, I will do it faster
My mind: oh, shut the fuck up and tell them how you feel!
Me: no, I will just write how I feel -
My mind: in the lousy journal
Me: yes, so now you shut up