Bab 8: Let Me Be Your First

...Kati POV...

I feel like I am floating out of my body and looking down on Sebastian; he is crying his heart out and holding onto me for dear life. It looks like there is fear in his eyes. He is worried. I am trying to talk to him. I need to tell him that I only fell. I am okay. It's nothing serious. I was tired. I slipped. I fell. Why am I not waking up? I can't give in to this comfort and peace and serenity. I'm not dead. I need to wake up.

And as a rush of fresh air comes rising into my lungs, I finally find the strength to wake up. "Sebastian."

"Kati!. Kati, you are awake."

He pulls me even deeper into his arms, and if I thought he could not anymore, he cries again.

"Oh Kati, sweety."

"Sebastian my love I am awake. Please don't cry."

He cups my cheek in his hand and looks deep into my bright blue eyes. I have never seen so much love that is written all over his face. "What can I do for you? What can I get you? Are you okay?"

"Nothing. I'm fine. Please don't worry. Can we talk?"

"No, you should not move."

"I am fine. I just fell."

"But the doctor said."

"Forget what the doctor said."

"Please, let's go take a walk. I know the perfect place."

"Only for a little while."

Much to Sebastian's protest, I lead him outside of the cabin. The morning air is crisp but refreshing on my skin. My fragile body feels renewed. As Sebastian pulls me into his side, I feel his warmth creep into my body. His heat makes me move forward deeper into the woods to where I want to take him. He is holding sot tight onto me; it feels as if I am melting into his skin. I hope he will like this place; I found it one morning while I was out exploring.

And as we finally reach it, I look at Sebastian to see the expression on his face.

"Oh, Kati, should I even ask how you found this."

… Sebastian's POV…

I am looking at this beautiful place, and it cannot compare to her beauty at all. But yet it is magnificent. Who knew that there is a big pool of water here in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by lush trees and deep red flowers? But the best is the tiny waterfall that flows over the edge of the rocks into the water. The perfect place to have a swim if it was not so cold this morning.

"Sebastian, I don't know how to begin to say sorry."

"Kati let's not talk about it now. Get your strength back first."

"Sebastian."

I lay the tip of my finger against her lips and take her into my embrace. I know that the hurt still lies deep within my eyes, but I brush it away. This is not about me; it is about her.

Then she asks me a quite unusual question."

"Sebastian, we found each other after all these years. What will you still regret?"

"Nothing. Every minute with you is a blessing."

"I have never experienced the one thing that I want to experience with you."

"What do you mean?"

"I want to make love to you. I have never have had it before. You the only one I have and will ever love. I want to experience this with you."

Now, did I just hear her, right? She is a virgin and she wants me to be her first? And she wants me to take her here next to this big pond?

"Here?"

"Yes, here."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes."

She looks up at me. The swirls of emotion I see in her eyes make me gasp. However, before I can ponder about it further, she yanks me to her and covers my mouth with a hungry kiss. As our lips crush together, it feels like I am walking on air. It is magic, the way her lips connect with mine.

"Sebastian."

I don't say a word. My hands find the seems of her dress. I scrunch it between my finger and lift it over her head. I move my hands down her arms and then further over the contours of her waist and her thighs. She is an absolute sight to behold. Her body is so pure and untouched. A part of me feels guilty for taking her this way, but the part that loves her wants to make love to her here more than anything.

She slips her hands underneath my shirt and runs her fingers over the edges of my muscled chest. As she drags them down over the curves of my abs, she tangles her fingers around my buckle, and in a flick, she has my pants to the ground.

I take her and lay her down on the soft green grass, birds are chirping in the background, and the scents of the red flowers fill our senses. The water running over the rock makes it sound so peaceful. If I hesitated before, then I know now that this is the perfect place for us, me being her first and I making love to the woman I love more than life itself.

With her pinned between my two hands, I drop my lips to meet hers. Our lips fit perfectly as if they are meant for each other. To move and feel each other in passionate moments like these. I grab the back of her neck to deepen the kiss even further; I growl in the kiss as she whimpers in pleasure. Every kiss has a raw intensity, we are breathing fast, and our heart rates are beating even faster.

Her body glows under the early morning sunlight that is coming through the trees. She is bare with only her black lace lingerie on in front of me. There is a part that wants to rip them off and show her raw lust and love, but she is delicate, and I am going to take my time with her.

As I crawl up her body, I twist her panties around my fingers. Before she can protest, I have them over her knees and lying next to us on the floor. She sits up straight up and pushes back my body. In no time at all, she has me naked in front of her. She straddles me on my hips and pins my hands against my body.

Then before I know, our naked skin is touching and moving softly together, just like the finest of silk. Our bodies fit together as if we were made just for this, to fall into one another, to feel this natural rhythm. Both of us move in an intoxicated dance of limbs, never making the exact same moves twice.

At this moment, our souls mingling in the quiet moments between action and stillness. It's hard to hold back and to make the moment last. We are caught between the intoxication of the climax and extending this moment forever. Her face glows as she is about to give in, her back arched in anticipation. She has never experienced this; I want to make every moment last.

Then I see her start to unravel in front of me, and I smile, satisfied. She throws her head back and trembles as she experiences her very first moment of pure ecstasy.

I fall down next to her on a green patch of grass; I turn to look her into the eyes.

"I love you, Kati."

I see as the tears start to trickle down her face…and my heart breaks…