Bab 10: chapter nine
days passed by and before i knew it, it was already our last semester. exams were in a few weeks and almost everyone at the university were found reviewing their notes or has their eyes glued on our textbooks.
just like the others, i was only just usually stuck on reading my notes over and over again. it's not like i have a choice anyways, i had to ace our exams, whether i like or not.
ever since my brothers did their stunt in defending me from him, my life had sort of became much more peaceful. though i still get occasional hits and sermons from dad, it wasn't that worse and dad just tries to distance his self from me.
"are you reading your notes again? you've been reading the same thing for days now, can't you take a rest or something?" jimin complained for the tenth time today while leaning on my table next to me.
"as much i do want to take a rest and do something else, you know that i can't. and besides, just a few more days and exams would come." i tried to reason out with him but all he did was grunt in response. "if you're that bored then why don't you go back to your real world? or go out and try scaring taehyung." i suggested yet he kept quiet and mumbled something under his breathe which i didn't manage to catch.
"let's go out somewhere later, i found the perfect spot while i was out." jimin offered and knowing that it would only lead to a banter if a don't agree, i said yes, smiling at the boy who was now lying down on my bed.
"give me another hour then let's go to that place you're talking about." i went back to reading my books and notes, once in a while glancing at jimin who was entertaining his self with things he can find and play with in my room.
time passed and the clock finally strikes at two in the afternoon, signaling that an hours has passed by. jimin looked at me with an excited expression written all over his face. his eyes held such eagerness to wherever he was taking me.
since jimin couldn't exactly communicate with other people, i had to speak in behalf of him. it was quite hard since i'm not exactly fond with speaking to people i don't know.
after this and that, we got down the bus and walked along the sidewalks. i looked around and saw that we were in a higher land, near a cliff maybe. it was somewhere a bit more different from the city since it had more trees and less cars.
"it's the perfect place, no one's usually here and you can talk with me freely like how you do when we're at your bedroom." jimin pulled me down to sit next to him. we were near a cliff, the place was quiet and only the sounds of nature and jimin could be heard from around us. "it feels great here, isn't?" he smiled at me, his eyes forming it's usual moon shape.
"i like your smile," i pointed at his smile, "it really calms me when i see it and it's just contagious you know, i mean your happiness itself is contagious." a laugh escaped my lips which made jimin smiled wider.
we laid our bodies down, our heads slightly bumping with each other which made jimin chuckle. even the smallest things makes this guy happy, he's too precious.
for a moment we stayed quiet, both of us just watching how the clouds seemed to form shapes in the sky, how nature seemed to get along with our calm demeanor.
"promise me something," i turned my head to look at jimin whose eyes were still fixated on the sky, "if i ever leave all of a sudden, don't cry and smile. i know in some other universe we are together, so don't cry because of me." his voice was low, his words almost coming out as a whisper.
of course, he was bound to leave any moment now.
time was our enemy, no, the universe itself is our enemy. he belongs in his world and i belong in mine, at the end of the day we were just two parallels that wasn't supposed to meet in the first place.
i couldn't answer, i couldn't find the courage in me to promise him anything. crying was the first thing in my list that i would do when he leaves, cry then forget.
"hanbyeol, star, my star?" he laughed and i found myself smiling back at his words, "we'll forget each other eventually, we'll both wake up in our worlds and we won't remember all of this. wake up, don't hold yourself back and wake up, okay?" his words didn't seem to make sense for a moment, but knowing jimin then it probably means something else.
"jimin, promise me something as well." it was my turn to speak, "if ever we both meet each other again, promise me no more chasing and no more leaving anymore." i reached out for my pinky and he reached out his as well. we won't even remember making this promise, so why did we even bother doing it?
"can't believe i was given a chance to meet someone like you, it's been an honor." jimin turned his body, watching me from my side and his smile not leaving his lips. "thank you hanbyeol, for making me feel that somehow i belonged in your world, that i was real and not some sort of imagination." i couldn't read his words, it felt like he wasn't telling me something, that there's some unleft message in his what he was saying.
i sat back up, looking at jimin. "wait, you're not leaving today, right?" i asked him. he sat next to me, his hand running through his brown hair just like how he always does.
"no, of course not. i'm just saying what i want to say because we both don't know when i have to leave." his hand went to ruffle my hair, fixing it afterwards. he smiled, his hand slowly making its way to my cheek.
i froze in spot, not knowing how to react to our position. his hand was cupping my cheek, his thumb gently caressing it. jimin's other hand went to tuck in a loose strand of my hair at the back of may ear.
he leaned in, my eyes automatically closing my eyes. but to my surprise, he pinched my cheeks which made me squeal. when i opened my eyes, he was a couple of inches away from me and a smile rested on his lips.
"were you expecting something?" he laughed and suddenly leaned in, his head landing on my shoulder as his laughter echoed in my ears. i didn't know why my heart was suddenly thumping as fast as ever, do i like him?
"jimin, what are you doing?" i poked his cheek, trying to pry him away from me but he stayed still. he shifted his position, placing his head nearer to me, his breathe hitting my neck.
the next thing i know, his arms were wrapped around mine and he was humming a song. a smile made its way to my lips as i leaned my head towards his, the scent of him filling my nose.
"let's stay like this for a while, i don't think i can ever do this again. i can't even bring myself to look at you, i feel embarrased of myself." his voice sent shivers to my spine. i bit my lip in embarrassment and tried to stop myself from blushing too hard.
he broke away from the hug, his cheeks blushing crimson red because of embarrassment. he had his hand on the nape of his neck as he pursed his lips and avoided my gaze.
"let's go home, it's getting late anyways." he stood up, reaching his hand out. with no hesitations, i grabbed it and stood up, my eyes finally meeting his.
we walked along the sidewalks, enjoying the peace while it lasts. when we reached the bus stop, we had let go of each other's hands only for jimin to hold my cold ones again once we were seated inside.
"i want to tell you that you can put your head on my shoulder for a while but i can't since people might find it weird to see you leaning your head on nothing." jimin looked at me with an amused smile. "why don't you lean at the window for a while? i'll wake you up once we reached our stop." i nodded and leaned my head next to the window, closing my eyes and drifting to sleep.
the next thing i knew, i found myself lost in my dreams. i was in a place that seemed familiar to me, a voice was singing somewhere, his voice sounded oddly familiar especially the song he was singing.
i was in the hospital and just like the other patients, i was wearing the hospital gown. following to where the voice is coming from, an endless hall greeted me. i walked yet there seemed to be no end to it, where was i?
"hanbyeol, you're gonna come back right?"
"we'll be waiting here."
"what's making you stay?"
where was those voices coming from? i looked around, only to find myself standing in front of a room. my hand grabbed the knob, twisting it and opening the door.
wake up, hanbyeol.
my eyes shut open and i found myself catching my breathe. jimin looked at me worriedly, his eyebrows furrowing and his hand giving mine a tight squeeze.
"i was just about to wake you up. are you alright?" he asked and i nodded, not wanting him to worry about me anymore. we got out of the bus, jimin letting go of my hand to keep things looking normal with me.
from some unknown reason, the voices in my dream kept on repeating in my mind.
why was i in a hospital? who were the one calling out for me? who was the one singing in my dream?
we got home and went straight to my bedroom. it was a good thing both my parents weren't home and my brothers were working their shifts at the hospital.
"you seem to be distracted, what's the problem?" jimin asked me, sitting on the chair next to my study table while facing me, i was currently seated on my bed.
"nothing, i guess i'm just a bit tired from today." i flashed him a small smile in which he returned with his precious ones.
to get my thoughts about my dream out of my head, i decided to go over my notes once more before dinner comes. jimin accompanied me downstairs since no one was home except for me and the maids.
"you know, you kind of look like a squirrel when you eat. you always take small bites yet you make it look like your mouth is full." jimin was seated in front of me, smiling widely as he watches me finish my food.
"that's supposed to be a compliment or not?" i squinted my eyes and waited for jimin's answer. instead of answering me, he stood up, leaning forward to give my cheeks a squeeze.
why was he being so extra sweet today?
i felt my cheeks reddened at the sight of jimin who was only few inches away from me. scenes from earlier started rushing to my mind, making me more embarrassed of myself.
"your cheeks are warm, did i make you blush?" jimin bit on his lips, flustering me more than ever. where did he get his courage today? he's been surprising me with his stunts since earlier.
i took his hands away from me, fixing my eyes on my food. jimin chuckled, his eyes forming those moon shapes again as he smiled at me. i quickly finished my food, washing it afterwards.
"hanbyeol." i felt jimin's presence behind me, almost making me drop the plate that i was holding. his laughter echoed out through the dining room, making me frozen in spot as he placed a hand on the sink next to me. "why are you so easily flustered today?"
i turned around, meeting his eyes. i was trapped in between him, what is happening? he was wearing his usual smile and just like always the same admiration shined in his eyes.
"jimin, isn't this position a bit awkward?" i asked, looking a way and my eyes landing on both of his which were trapping me.
"i don't find it awkward though." he took his hands away from the sink and wrapped it around me, snuggling his head onto my neck and tightening his grip around me. "i like hugging you, it's my favorite hobby now." a laugh escaped his lips.
we stayed like that for a few minutes before he pulled away, smiling much more wider than before. jimin patted my head and walked away, humming a tune as he headed upstairs.
what did just happened?
i went back in doing the dishes and went to follow him upstairs afterwards. when i got inside my room, he was playing with some papers, creating different origamis of different shapes and colors.
"i heard your dad's coming back tonight, why don't you go and talk to him? tell him everything that you feel towards him." he placed a heart origami he had made on my hand, afterwards playing with my fingers.
"why would i do that? he hates me jimin, it might just get worse if i confront him." i frowned at the thought of me and my dad's relationship, come to think of it, i really don't know why he treats me like that.
"you have questions that needs answers, why don't you do something about it? you have me, you have your brothers, we'll just be here for backup." he held my hands in his, caressing it ever so gently just like how he did a while ago.
i stared at the heart origami in my hand, maybe it is time to finally talk to him. it's been years since the last time i've talked to dad properly, i don't want to regret anything.
"i'll do it then, if you think it's the right thing to do." i flashed him a smile, in which he returned with his warm one. a thought suddenly passed by in my mind, soon i won't be able to see that smile again.
few hours passed and i decided to finally do it. jimin and i walked to my dad's office, my hands trembling as i reached out for the door knob.
jimin guided my hand, placing it on the knob. he grabbed my chin, slightly tilting my head to make me look at him. "whatever happens, i'll be here waiting. don't worry too much hanbyeol, just tell him everything." his hand caressed my cheek.
i have nothing to worry about, whatever happens, i had jimin with me and my brothers as well.
you'll be fine, hanbyeol.
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