Bab 134: Is Ryan gone...?

In the silence, the paper being turned was audible with few groans and whines. All of a sudden, 

"Ughhhh!!~" 

Ryan yells slamming the book against the bedstand while his hand unconsciously reached his hair and starts pulling it in frustration. His breath gets shaky with his eyes getting blur with tears. 

"W-Why?" He says through his shaky breath as he seemed too distressed to keep himself calm. 

"Why...j-just why... is it s-so hard to live?" He says stuttering while he closes his eyes shut, an overwhelming pain gushes within him. His shaky body looked messy with his lips quivering, fingers trembling, and eyes continuously shedding tears. 

"Mom~!" He yells clutching his head as he lets himself drop down onto the bed.