Bab 37: Face To Face With My Past

Miracle's POV

During the entire afternoon I spend my time riding Calm, grandma helped me to saddle her. I am glad that the mare is comfortable with me because I can see her ears are at loose, and she seems so relaxed, I wanted to ride Spinx, he is a beautiful stallion, but grandma was afraid because he is temperamental and should be under close supervision with a professional rider. I used to ride, but it had been so long that is why grandma chose Calm for me. Her name alone is the evidence that she is a friendly horse.

I borrowed my mother's old riding clothes. She had died a long time ago, but my grandmother can't let her go yet. She nevertheless has her chamber at the manor where she keeps most of her things, from photographs, books and garments. I am touched by my grandmother's love for my mother. When I was here, I always spend my day in that area, I enjoyed scanning her photo album and reading her books. I need to feel the presence of my mom through her personal things. I wish to feel connected to my mother, maybe if she is still alive, I won't run away from my father.

I return to the stable after my long ride and put Calm in her stall at once. The stall boy tried to help me, but I informed him I can do it myself. I told him that tomorrow morning I will be the one to feed and brush her mane and fur.

I slogged back to the manor, I felt sore all over my body, I should have controlled myself. I don't know my stamina is good and I can't deny I want to forget everything, that is why I keep myself fully occupied. The night is coming and the reality will set in. I will think of Jace once again.

"Hello Dad!" I answered my phone excitedly.

"Miracle, how are you, sweetheart? Please tell me you are not furious with me anymore?" Dad said.

"Dad, I am not angry with you, I just feel hurt, okay? I miss you Dad, and I am sorry if I run away from you, but I am having a great day of my life. I just want to enjoy for the time being, Dad." I said.

"I understand Miracle, but I will not be at ease if you don't have anyone to watch over you." He spoke, and he paused for a while, I know my old man is waiting for my reaction, I can't blame my dad if he is so worried about me.

"How many bodyguards you are planning to send?" I inquired, I want him to have a peace of mind.

"Just two who will be in close contact with you, then the three of them will be close by, you will not feel them Miracle, I ordered them to cooperate very well, I instructed them to stay away from you as possible. Don't worry, they won't bother you." My father said.

"How did you know where I am, Dad? I asked." I asked.

"Miracle, don't ask, you know your father's connection, that is why wherever you go I will find you. I don't want you to feel that I am so strict with you Miracle, I am just so worried about you. I hope you understand how much you mean to me." He sighed.

"I know dad, I understand, and for that I am so thankful to have you as my father, I can't ask for more dad. Thank you for loving mom and me unconditionally." I said.

"Oh! My dear, you are not angry with me if I send bodyguards?" He replied.

"I won't, besides I am sure the bodyguards are hot and I can choose who I am going to make out with." I joked.

"I know you won't do that because you only want Jace Mira, but I asked him to steer clear of you, to avoid complications." He answered, and I became so sad, I suddenly wish Jace is among the two escorts who will be closed contact with me.

"Okay, dad." I said I felt so down.

"Goodbye Mira, talk to you soon." He replied, and he ended the call. I am wondering where is my father right now. When I arrived at the manor, I go directly to my room to have a shower and change my clothes.

"Did you enjoy your day, Miracle?" My granny said, she is grinning at me and I can't help myself but return her warm smile.

"I did grandma, Calm is a wonderful mare, I love her already." I said.

"I was thinking of you when I bought her, I hoped that someday you will come and visit. I am so glad my wish came true." She spoke happily.

"Wow! Thank you, grandma." I answered.

"John will join us for dinner." she declared.

"Who is John?" I asked, confused.

"The site engineer." My grandmother declared.

"Ah, I see." I added and I go to the refrigerator to take some cold water for I feel so thirsty, I pick up a highball glass from the cabinet, I heard footsteps coming to the dining area.

"Grandma, do you have some.." I wasn't able to finish my sentence because when I turn around to ask my grandma, I saw him, I lost grip of the glass and it shattered on the tile floor. He is standing near the dining table, looking at me with bewilderment in his face. He became more handsome, he has toned body of a model. He turned into a fine young man indeed, very attractive. He smirked and winked at me.

"Mira, you should be careful, don't move I will take the broom and dustpan." My grandma said, but her visitor named John walked towards me, and he picked up the broken pieces of the glass on the ground.

"How I wished I could pick up the shattered pieces of our past." He said.

"Excused me? Do I know you?" I asked.

"I guess so, judging by the bulge of your eyes the moment you lay your eyes on me, it was telling me you remember me clearly." He stated, at last, I can walk away from him, as he continued picking up the broken fragments of the glass. I sit on the dining chair and I don't know what I feel it was a long time ago, but the memories flashed before my eyes. I felt my knees go weak. I am just glad my grandma returned with the broom.

"Careful John and let me clean it." My granny said, then after cleaning up my mess they settled on their chair and the housemaids served dinner.

"John, I want you to meet my granddaughter, Miracle, this is John, Mira." Grandma introduced him to me, I fake a smile and shook his hand. He has a firm grip and his hand lingers on my palm, and I take it away from him.

"My pleasure to finally meet you, Miracle, I heard so much about you." He said without breaking eye contact.

"I hope it was all good things." I said, trying to act normal.

"Of course, I heard you are beautiful and very intelligent." He said, it made me blushed.

"Thanks." I mumbled, then I looked down at my plate and pretended to be engrossed with my food. I devour my meal quickly, I wanted to get away and hide in my place. Why it has to be complicated, why I have to see him now in my grandma's manor.

"If you will excuse me, grandma, I had a tiring day, so I want to rest now." I said, my grandma nodded and continue talking with John, it seems she really like the engineer.

I am pacing in my room, I just got here in the mansion. Everything was in place until I met him. I can't breathe, I get outside and go to the balcony, the fresh air makes me feel at peace and relax, the stars are shining brightly above me. I am mesmerized looking at them, when I sensed he is standing behind me. I have to face him, I am a grown woman now. If, I want to live my life I have to reconcile with my past.

"Hey!" He said.

"Can you tell me honestly what is your real name and age? I know you were full of bullshit back then, but at least I want to know who you really are?" I said.

"I am not lying about my name, maybe I failed to mention my second name, I am Jaxson John Mortiz, and I am sorry I lied about my age that time, it was Amanda's idea. I am actually three and a half years older than you." He said.

"I am impressed that you are now an engineer." I said, I am glad that he has a good life now.

"Thank you, Mira, for helping my mother, I know it was you who pleaded your dad to help us. Your father ordered me to stay away from you. I was overjoyed when my mom got the courage to leave my drunkard stepfather. She is now cancer free Mira. I will be forever grateful to you. We moved her after the incident, I didn't know my mother came from a well-off family. She left home when she became pregnant with me and never moved back. My grandparents' farm is not so far from here, I opted to stick around here because I want to accompany your grandma." He explained.