Bab 24: Chapter 20
Jungkook POV
When we got home I placed Y/n in our bed and made dinner and then slept on the couch. I've been keeping my distance these past few weeks in case being around a guy could trigger her. I scheduled a therapist for her even though she insist she's okay. Call me overprotective but I want to make sure she'll be okay and nothing will happen to her. I plan on hiring a body guard to protect her when I'm not there. I really miss being able to cuddle her but I know it's better if I let her be.
Y/n POV
Jungkook has been avoiding me lately and I really miss him. He's even been sleeping on the couch instead of our bedroom. Even though I told him I'm fine he still insisted I see a therapist to help me cope, but I meant what I said when I told him I was fine. Noah is dead and I never really cared that much about sex it was just a thing people did with their bodies. I may not have wanted Noah to do what he did but that doesn't change that it happened. Besides he can't do anything to me anymore. He was punished with death. I don't know if Jungkook is avoiding me to protect me or because he no longer wants me because of what happened. *A tear rolls down her cheek* I really miss him! Dose he think I'm disgusting because I wasn't mentally affected by what happened?
After crying for what felt like forever I get dressed to go see the stupid therapist he hired. I don't feel like going so I put on a gray sweatshirt with dark jeans and converse. I tie my hair in a messy bun and don't bother with a messy bun. Jungkook is supposed to pick me up so I wait outside our apartment playing Candy Crush. After waiting for about 20 minutes a woman shofer comes up to me saying she will be taking me to my therapist. Apparently Jungkook is busy at the studio. *rolls eyes* If he is tired of me why doesn't he just say so? They can roll out BangPD's plan early saying he found out I cheated on him and break up with me. Then I could just move back to America and raise our baby by myself.
I get to the therapists office and walk in when she calls me back. She introduces herself and we begin to talk. I learn that her name is Shelby.
Shelby: So you know why you are here right?
Y/n: Because my boyfriend thinks there is something wrong with me because I was raped and I don't feel anything about it?
Shelby: Y/n Jungkook really cares about you or else you wouldn't be here,
Y/n: *scoffs* Cares about me? If he cared he wouldn't distance himself and he would be by my side
Shelby: Did you take the time to think that maybe he is doing that because he thinks it will affet you negatively by triggering back what happened?
Y/n: Of course I did! But there is nothing wrong with me!
Shelby: And why do you feel like there's nothing wrong and that you don't have to cope with anything?
Y/n: Because he's dead! He can't do anything because he's dead. The only reason he was able to do what he did was because my arms were tied and my legs were sore from the accident and my pregnancy! If it weren't for that I would have been able to stop him!
Shelby: And you don't feel scared that it will happen to you again with a different man?
Y/n: Sure there's the fear but I can protect myself and I can't just hold myself back by fear because one tragedy happened to me! I am stronger now because I've experienced something that was supposed to break me! I now know how to prepare myself if it happens again to me or someone else, and I can help others cope.
Shelby: Honestly y/n I think you are okay. Some people accept what happens to them and don't need to cope and for other's it takes time or even their whole life to help them come to terms with what happened. The only thing I would recommend is that you talk to Jungkook because you two seem to be lacking a conversation that will help you both understand each other's reasons behind how your reacting to the incident. Tell him what you told me and explain to him how different people cope in different ways and then give him the chance to explain the reason why he's so distant.
Y/n: Okay thank you, and I'm sorry for my attitude earlier I didn't mean to let my anger out on you,
Shelby: It's okay y/n you were battling with emotions you wanted to say but couldn't because the person you wanted to talk to wasn't there to listen.
Y/n: Thank you Shelby, you really helped me today
Shelby: No problem!
I exit the office and the shofer drives me home. On the way home I text Jungkook a message.
Jungkook POV
I didn't want to bail on y/n but I had to! I'm so scared of upsetting her and I really do have to practice for the albumn. As I'm packing up I get a text message so I open my phone and see it's from y/n.
My world Y/n (heart emoji)
My world y/n (heart emoji): We need to talk, no more avoiding me! We need to sit down and litsen to each other.
I swallow a huge lump in my throat after reading her message. When women want to talk it's NEVER a good sign. I really hope she doesn't break up with me! I really love her and I don't want to lose her because I made a mistake in giving her to much space.
*Time skip*
I arrive to the house and unlock the door. Y/n is cooking dinner.
Y/n: Let's have dinner first, sit down it will be ready in about 5 minutes
Jungkook: Okay
why do I feel like she's mad at me? I feel like I'm about to be yelled at and I'm in serious trouble.
Y/n finish's dinner it smells really good but I have no idea what it is so I'm guessing it's an American dish.
Y/n: It's potato casserole, it has chopped seasoned fried potatoes with nacho cheese and bacon with chopped green onions on top its then baked in the oven for a few minutes. I also made a salad and corn o go with it.
Jungkook: It smells and looks really good!
Y/n: Thanks I hope you like it
I take a bite of the unusual dish and my taste buds explode with happiness from the amazng dish! The dish is so rich in flavor and the bacon and cheese really pair amazingly with the seasoned potatoes!
Jungkook: SO YUMMY!!
Y/n: *giggles* I heard potato casserole is a american dish that other countries find weird or have never had so I thought you'd find it different and interesting
Jungkook: It's honestly one of the best dishes I've ever had! You should make American dishes more often when you cook!
We get done eating and I help Y/n do the dishes. When we finish I'm filled with anxiety a it is now time to "talk".
Y/n: Ok let's sit on the couch and say what needs to be said
I do as she say's feeling scared of the outcome
Y/n: When I told you I was okay I really meant it. Noah is dead and he can't harm me anymore. I'm prepared now in case someone else tries to do the same thing so I'm not scared or worried. I've already came to terms and accepted what happened so I don't need to cope. However , I do need you by my side. You left me when all I wanted was to be by your side and hug you. It really hurt me when you left and I thought that you thought I was disgusting because of what happened and you no longer wanted to be around me! *tears roll down her face*
So this is what she wanted to talk about? I had no idea she was feeling this way. I thought me being around her would have a negative affect but no, me not being around her had a negative affect.When I see her tears it breaks my heart! I grab her in my arms and hug her and tell her everything is okay.
Jk:I could never find you disgusting! You couldn't help what happened to you! I thought that if I was around you I'd trigger you and make you upset so I thought it would be better to stay away. You have no idea how much I wanted to hold you and be around you! *I start crying*
Y/n POV
Hearing Jungkook's words made me feel a lot better. We hug for a while and i feel a wetness on my shoulder indicating that he is crying
Y/n: It's okay Jungkook I'm just glad that your here now, I love you so much and I just want you to stay by my side
Jk: I love you too! I'm never leaving your side again! *kisses y/n and she kisses him back*
Y/n: It's getting late and you have dance practice tomorrow so let's get some sleep okay?
Jk:Ok
*Jungkook and Y/n cuddle and then fall asleep*
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