Bab 450: Pure Joy mixed with pain

Alanis

Everything happens so fast.

Ogma is by my side and she is making me focus on her. I can't focus on anything else, all I can think about is my babies, my babies that are about to come into this world.

I don't know how to feel. I am trying to be strong but this is the scariest thing I have ever had to go through. Not knowing is the worst thing about it. Two other healers come into the room and Ogma starts to talk to them. I can't pay attention. I don't even know what they are saying but I stretch my hand out for Beau. He is in a corner in the room and I want him closer.

He runs towards me immediately and I grab his hand. I squeeze it as hard as I can. The pain is too much. I am trying not to panic but I am failing.

"You are going to be okay, I am right here. I am not going anywhere. I am not leaving you,'' he tells me and the pain is making me cry. I am trying to hold it in but I can't, I am just too weak.