Bab 421: My favorite child

Rex

My hands are shaking as I lie down on the cold ground. I want to go back to the community; I don't want to be here anymore. This is the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. 

I knew it was going to be a challenge but I could have surged through this if I had Blue and Gyles with me. Being alone is the only thing that is making this hard. I want to hold them; I want to know that they are with me. I am resting on my back; the moon is the only view I have. 

I have lost track of the days. I don't know how long it has been. 

It feels like forever. I am tired of this; I want it to be over. The only thing I can do is hope and pray for better. 

I hear a screech. I don't know if it is the wind or a bird. I don't know if anything is real.