Bab 412: Useless and weak

Rex

I know that this is all a trick, I know that this is all in my head but I can't help but feel jealous. I can't help but feel the way I feel. I can't help but feel like I am not good enough.

I can't help but feel like I am not what Blue and Gyles want. I can't help but feel like I am not good enough for them. I have always had all these feelings inside me. From the day they met each other. There was this voice at the back of my mind, one that told me that I wasn't the only one for them. I wanted to be the one they shared. I liked when I was in the middle of things and I know it is selfish and it is not something I have ever said out loud but it has been there and I hate that this is the fear the goddess decided to use. 

I start to cry because I know that this is all in my head. I can't help but think that this is the punishment. I can't help but think that this is what it feels like to be completely alone.