Bab 178: The man I love

Ford.

I don't know If I want to go for this.

I am scared.

Nervous that I will lose my mind over this and slip up. Things are great right now. we are great right now—our relationship is perfect. I already know and have accepted that her death was mostly my fault. We had a session with Dr. Mathew about it. I talked about everything and even though he assured me that I wasn't at fault. I still hold a pang of guilt inside me. I still wish that things had ended differently but I can't dwell on the past.

I have to move on for a brighter future.

"Only if you want to," he coughs nervously. I watch him as he continues "I just thought it would be nice to say a few things to her. talk to her about your progress. Only if you want to.''