Bab 89: Chapter 84 : How are you, my beloved?
This life.. It's disgusting.
You have to live each day worrying about things that can happen.
Will I be able to go home safe and sound? Will i have anything to eat?
Will I still be strong tomorrow after being strong today?
It is hard, and anyone who doesn't think like that is amazing. People say that intelligent people tend to be sadder than other people because they understand how the world works.
Curse intelligence.
I hate understanding everything.
Will there be a time when all of things that hurt people disappears? All I'm asking for is a place where humans can live happily- where there will be no reason for them to harm themselves and take their own lives away- so why... Why am I drifting like this into this world after saving so many people?
Why do I feel so alone?
Everyday, I watched myself go on in this world. Is there really no reason for the heavens to forgive me? I atoned for my sins already. I haved many people so they won't be like me.
Everyday, I still waited for her on the gate. I don't care whether or not she remembers me. I don't care if she couldn't see me.. I don't care about a thing.
I still walked her to school and I pretended that I still exist even when I'm just an ordinary living spirit wandering in the world. I was with her as she ate, cried, and laughed. I even supported her in her competition.
And I always sat on the chair I used to sit.
I was able to understand her thoughts because I studied human behavior but understanding wasn't enough when the person I love is falling into the abyss of the same path I took. I became a bystander to the world I cherished. I knew she was sad... In pain in fact, but there was nothing I could do because she can't hear me... She doesn't remember me... I thought she'd be happy without me but I was wrong because I just watched but I felt her sad energy coming to me. I didn't want to see her sad so it was such a relief when Bright took over..
But to think that she'd fall so greatly to actually attempt to disappear was scary... I swam with her and I attempted to save her but I can't touch her... Luckily, there was Bright and he saved her. He willingly let me use his body as my vessel to communicate but...
I had to lie to her.
I wasn't happy at all.. I was doomed... I was in pain all this times as I watched her suffer.
But I was happy to be heard and seen again. I was happy, so happy that the heavens opened the gates for me to climb to. I took huge steps and ran towards the same gate sa the Happy Ville and I was welcomed by Twinquel.
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"Good job finding happiness." The minister of the angels spoke with him and pat him on his shoulders. He smiled at him- but his eyes were sad. "However,"
"No! Please!"
His face dimmed and Light was pushed away from them. He felt like he was falling on a bottomless pit- but after a while, he saw something that made him almost lose control- he was about to fall on concrete!
He closed his eyes and prayed his hardest, trying not to be taken over by his fear. However, he just kept falling and falling and he thought his life was going to end there- but there was no impact and he wasn't hurt. He doesn't remember anything that happened to him after that- and when he opened his eyes, he realized that he was on the hospital because of the pure white walls and the numerous apparatuses on the sides of his bed. He tried to feel his necklace but it was gone from his neck. He looked at his hands and saw that there were cords connected to him and the beeping from one of the apparatuses was loud that he tried to stop it from making any noise. He took off the oxygen mask from his mouth but the doctors came rushing to him, holding folders and records.
"He's awake. He's awake." the nurse said and the doctors hurried in to check him out. Some of the nurses tried to secure that he won't be able to move and they held both his arms and legs.
"Why are you all in such a rush?" Light asked them. "Is something wrong?" Dumbfounded, the doctors and nurses looked at each other and let go of him as they calmed down.
"Do you remember your name?" one of the doctors asked as he helped him sit on his bed. "Do you know what this place is?"
"I'm Light Elkin and this is a hospital." he answered and remembered that he must have fell on the concrete after all.
"What is your surname, Light Elkin?" the doctor asked again.
"What? I'm Light Elkin." he replied and glared at the doctor.
"How old are you?" the doctor asked again.
"I'm 17." he answered and womdered about the strange actions of the doctors.
"Where do you live?"
"I have no home."
"Who's your immediate family member?"
"I have no one."
"Ah, he's at it again." the doctor who was questioning Light said. "But he looks so responsive now."
"What is happening? Explain it to me." Light said, but a person who seemed to be the head doctor entered.
"Let me take over from here. Okay?" the doctor said and all the staff went away. He sat on the next bed and smiled at him. "How are you, Light?"
"I'm fine." Light replied and turned to face him. The mam was so familiar.
"Do you remember who I am?" the man asked and arranged his eyeglasses in a fashionable manner.
"Nathan?" Light asked and Nathan hugged his old friend. "How are you? It's so nice to see but why did you seem to age too much?"
"We are both 37 years old now you nitwit." Nathan told him. "You don't remember?"
"What are you talking about?" Light chuckled. "Are you out of your mind?"
"I'm not. I'm very healthy." Nathan laughed at him and held the folders he had on his arms. "You're the one who isn't healthy."
"What are you talking about?" Light asked him but his heart beats went rapid.
"Do you want me to tell you the story, again?" Nathan said and emphasized the again. He sat on the bed where Light laid with sad eyes. "Your name is Light Elkin Nerezza and I was your classmate in high school. We were best buds in fact. Our circle was comprised with 5 people. You, Hope, Mari, me, and Nick."
"How's Mari and Nick by the way?" Light interrupted him s he spoke.
"What do you mean?"
"If you are saying that I leapt to the future, did Mari and Nick end up with each other?" Light asked.
"Oh," Nathan said and checked something on the folder. "Mari and Nick didn't end up with each other. We all know that Mari was heads over heels to Nick but he didn't love her that way. He went abroad after graduating and he already have a family there."
"What? Nick was the one who was heads over heels!" Light protested.
"No. It's the other way around." Nathan calmly replied. He continued. "Do you remember your romance with Hope?"
"Yes, I do. I clearly do"
"You ended up with each other after you both graduated in law school." Nathan said and looked more sad.
"How's Nana Josephine?" Light asked.
"You don't remember? She's been dead ever since Hope was little, and Ray, her brother was nowhere to be found. He was sighted last at the city and we believe that it was because of his alter Ren that he went away. Do you remember his alters? His little is Quiel, then Kyle, Akuji, then Ren- the suicidal one."
Light laughed and Nathan looked at him, wondering how much injury his head acquired. "What is this? Some kind of an alternate universe?"
"No. This is the reality. You've been unconscious for almost a year and I kept telling you this story even when you're not awake." Nathan said and checked the paper in his folder again. "This place is ATX Hospital Mental Unit."
"M-mental... Unit? Are you kidding me right now?!" Lighy said and tried removing all the cables connected on his body. "Why are you doing this to me?! I thought we are friends!" he screamed and laid a strong punch on Nathan's face, resulting to bleed. "I... I'm so sorry."
"It's okay.. It's okay. It's my fault for not being considerate enough. All these things are too much for you. I understand." Nathan said and wiped his broken lip.
"C-can you tell me everything I need to know?" Light said, but the door suddenly opened and he looked there. Nathan noticed that his eyes were filled with tears as he looked. He stood up and touched his shoulders- then left him. "How are you, my beloved?"
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