Bab 11: 11. Mind Games
After awkwardly waking up next to Katsuo my phone started ringing, wonder who it could be, I approach my phone with anger, This stupid thing ruined my chance of getting closer to Katsuo, I pick it up and hold it to my ear.
"Hello?" I say with a somewhat vicious voice.
"Nǐ hǎo, nǐ xiǎng mǎi ma..." says the voice on the phone, what language is that? I fall to my knees in despair.
"Ummm are you ok?" asks Katsuo.
"It was a spam call from some random country," I tell him with my head down.
"Oh, do you hate spam calls that much?" asks Katsuo, after finally getting over the call Katsuo walks up to the door and pulls a key out his pocket.
"What's that?" I ask.
"The key to the door," he tells me.
"Didn't you slide that under the door yesterday?" I ask.
"No it was my house key" he responds while unlocking the door, "I wanted to find a way to spend time with you while also making sure you don't get out... That made me sound like a kidnapper"
"Haha thanks, I appreciate you doing that for me, for some reason when I'm near you I dont notice all the addictions and I forget about the memories from the dreams, without you I would've gone insane, so thank you for being here," I tell him... Holy shit that was cringey, I think to myself as I blush from embarrassment and start to hide my face in my hands, I glance over at Katsuo to see how he reacted to my speech, he was also blushing.
"Wow, I didn't know that I was that much help to you... I'll grab us something to eat, then let's talk more" he says with a smile as he walks out the door and locks it behind him, now that I think of it he said he hid the heroin so why do I have to be confined to my room? No, wait nevermind if they deliver another package I might find it and get even more addicted to it.
I go to lay on my bed and flip through my flip phone, there's not much here, just some contacts that are probably just drug dealers, when will Katsuo get back it's only been about a minute now and I'm beginning to start shaking.
I get a headache and I get uncomfortable, I feel anger and anger by the minute, I remember the memories that I dreamed of, most of them were of this person taking drugs, I wanted that but I knew it wasn't me it was this person.
Just thinking of the words drugs and heroin was driving me crazy, I try to calm down I think of my "happy place", I heard about it on tv, when you are angry thing about your happy place, but I was a little more than just angry.
I start to scratch at my arms viciously and after a minute it starts to bleed, what am I doing, why, and why did this happen so quickly? I think to myself for a while... Then a go into deep thought about the good times I had with Katsuo, It calms me down for a while.
"I got the food, sorry it took so lon..." says Katsuo as he walks in the door to see me on the bed stretching my arms so much they started to bleed, I turn my head towards him, I think I looked a little crazy at the time because he jumped when I looked in his direction.
"Are you ok?" he puts the plates on the dining table just outside my bedroom door and approaches me slowly, when he gets close enough I hug him, him and start to cry.
"Please, I'm sorry please let me out," I cry into his arms, I know I was suffering but I wasn't the one locking a friend in a room to help them only to hear them scream and beg for help, I felt awful...
"How did this happen so fast?" he asks as he wraps his arms around me and hugs me tight despite the fact I was getting blood all over his clothes, "I'm really sorry, I can't let you out and you know why"
I start to feel tears hit my back, I look up at Katsuo's face to see that he was also crying, he wipes his eyes and smiles.
"Sorry got a little emotional there," He says, we stayed there hugging for a couple of minutes then he gets up walks out the room to grab the meals he heated up before,
"Sorry, it might be a little cold," he tells me but the fact he got this for me made me enjoy it more, I don't understand this emotion, it can make the darkest time disappear and make something really crappy taste really good.
"I love it," I tell him with a smile, we eat the food and talk, we talk about how crazy our situation is and how we could stop it, after eating our meals he takes the dishes out the room, after washing them he comes back in and locks himself in with me.
"How do you plan to get out this time?" I ask him.
"I dont know, i worry about it when the time comes" he tells me, we look through Katsuos laptop looking at things we could do.
I was still a bit sad and I thought I was going to go crazy at any second, but I try to hold it in, I dont want him seeing me like that again, I keep thinking about how I dont want to scare him off, how I dont want to be alone, the idea haunts me and it scares me more than death.
When I was that alcoholic Yui, I was even more depressed because I thought I was alone forever, but I wasn't, I'm glad she did but that Akari person was crazy for turning Katsuo down, there I go again preaching cringey shit.
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