Bab 1363: To love so fiercely

SUMIRE

'Sumire-chan, you have always loved people so fiercely and beautifully. I have always envied that about you.'

Recalling Runna's words, she sobbed even more.

"I thought it was okay already. To take that step forward, to stop missing him because I noticed how sad I was making those around me. I wanted to try to live a life without him and I did. I did for a long time. For a long time my thoughts went back to Yuhi. However after I spent time in the castle of darkness, after Lucifer showed me the mirrors of truth. I knew that I could no longer keep up this illusion." 

It's painful, living a life without Toh and even the path she chose to move forward. Loving Yuhi is painful. She loves him so much to the point that she's afraid. Afraid that one day he will leave her. It's painful, her chest hurts. It feels like she is being swallowed up in water. 

She can't breathe.