Bab 149: Between Denial And Acceptance (1)

| Innaya |

Have you ever met the feeling of loneliness? Often, no? We, humans, tend to drown in the ocean of loneliness every now and then. While I would not say, that I had been lonely all my life but certainly, for a significant period... I was. Those were not just the darkest nights of my life, but also the darkest days.

Life is weird. After forcing me to feel that there was nothing good enough about living the way I was leading my life, it brought Eshan to me. I had forgotten what it meant to be lonely in his love.

I always struggled to speak up and open up even if I was suffering the worst. I guess I had been so used to bearing the pain that I stopped looking for the cure and ways to get myself better altogether. At times, I would have horrible period cramps. The kind of the ones that would not let you sleep. Despite the medication available to soothe the pain, I had always kept myself away from them.