"You left me."
Not realizing until I've said my
final good-bye and closed the
door behind me, that he's not
referring to the past.
He's prophesying our future.
-----------Alyson Noel.
**********
E.H.
Fifteen years ago.
The evil had laughed at me when I finally ditched the hellhole.
That day he mocked at me,swearing, "Never will you be able to voice out your thoughts nor will you be able to succeed and find peace. You will return back,mark my words-begging me for mercy..."
But never did I looked back again.I simply left the past unruffled and untouched.
Years flew by as I grew to be what I am today.A successful individual, that's it.
Yet somehow the devil's words came true today.What an imprecation!
So back to the current reality.
Blue had adjusted quite well here(I will say only to the routines and classes)and I would visit her on the campus once a week. We would chat a bit and then she would leave for the library or to her dorm.To remain friends was fine but the urge to call her mine was intoxicating.Only to say that I love her........
I knew she was homesick becoming more taciturn and distant.Bad news was she didn't make any friends so she was lonely.
Simultaneously in my part,I still kept Blue in dark regarding my true identity. I wasn't sure about how she would react.I know she was sensible but.....
After so long I had felt the urge to express my feelings out loud.The only hitch was I don't want to burden Blue with more.Things back home weren't so favorable. Moreover after her confession, Blue had been clear of one thing-no attachments or relationships.So I kept shut.
She had been troubled because she couldn't help out her parents and was constantly looking out for part-time jobs or internships here.
And watching her suffer was nauseating me instead.I could have easily offered her a work but that would mean she would know about me. I can't let that happen just yet.....seeing her walk away would kill me.With time she became the fragments of my soul.
Hence waiting had been the only alternative. Though the animal inside me never quieted,always wanting her for himself but the boy who suffered so long many times whispered back,"Don't imprison her like you had been."
Yes,I had been caged once and so I was never going to push my feelings on her.Even when she cried alone,I kept my distance. I just extended her my assistance whenever she asked for it,that's it.She could independent that way.
But amidst all her apprehensions, she perceived my strain.That's why one fine morning she called me to join her for a stroll round the campus.
It was foggy with the dew still fresh on the grass.After sauntering for a while,we settled ourselves on the bench and as we did, Blue faced me.Looking at her frail frame with tired eyes tormented me.She seemed lost....
Along the mist her weary tone reached me as she inquired,"What's the deal?You seem to contemplating a lot these days.
Anything you want to share."
I squirmed under her gaze.Should I say or not?
Yet in the end,my eyes met hers as I smirked, "Me thinking,nope."
"Just worried about the future."
Hearing this she just sighed and patted my hands reassuringly.That small gesture,let me tell you pierced my stony heart like an arrow. For no one had ever been this considerate to me.
And sarcastically enough I cursed myself for my inability to speak and in a way proved the Evil's words to be correct.
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