Bab 93: Numb

I remember I had woken up earlier and requested for water, I also got fed by Jandi which should seem strange to me but I didn't pay much attention to any of it. She also tried to engage me in a conversation but I pushed her off and forced myself back to sleep.

I feel it so stupid of me to wish I never wake up but this is how I feel and I can't help it, I want to be numb forever and maybe this is why I have refused to open my eyes given the fact that I was already awake.

"I should stay this way forever" I kept telling myself but Jandi worried words are quite disturbing and why is she still crying?

Every part of my body feels okay except my heart and my left hand, so why does she sound so scared each day she comes to see me?

"Lady Nana." Jandi called immediately I grab her hand to stop her from crying. I looked over at Jandi and her eyes are red from too much crying.