Bab 8: A pure view
I sat still for 5 whole minutes, tapping the back of the pen on the table restlessly and continuously. It was growing faster with every second, along with the expressions of the person in the mirror before me, solidifying with passing time. The shadow from under the door disappeared. I could sense the presence fading away hesitating. My head was really vibrating due to the warmth accumulating in it. I broke my neck bones to ease up the outbreak.
Shits like this really gets on the nerves!
My vision was gazing at my feet. The tapping of the pen slowly came to pause as I kept it down as my eyeballs shifted. I looked up front, a person with a smirk on the corner of the lips looking at me keenly.
"What was that?", she asked.
- Interruption ... sorry.
- This age is too young for you to be this wild already.
- Am I?
- Aren't these instincts growing harder to suppress?
- I guess so…...
- Clueless before, now so rebellious at this mode....
- Is that what it is?
- Yes!
- What about you?
- I told you. The more the better for me. After all, these are what gave raise to me.
- Aren't you me?
- I'm…...your deepest mind. What you don't get straight, I expand them in your head. Things you actually desire!
- Do you what I should want now?
- I do dear!
- What is it?
- For that...you'll have to let me take control of you, totally!
- Why?
- So that you don't defy me when you overcome the phase.
Her words seemed promising, but somehow even though it was unbearable, I wanted to enjoy the moment till I've grown tired of it or I've known all about it. Her deal seemed like something from which I cannot back off. I know well, after I give myself in, there's no way I can turn back. I'll be shackled. But if she knows my deepest will, it'll be worth it. I wanted to give it a try…...only after I've spent my time like this for a while longer!
She was true, she could read my wishes, "Let me, only I can manipulate your instincts", she asked of me. God she's is desperate!
- Not this soon.
- Then?
- After my teens maybe.
- Too long, but I guess that's the perfect time. That's when you'll have it all figured out and more in need of me.
- Figured out? In need of you?
- Ah I see, it's still yet to come....
- Come what?
I looked away and stood up. No one is replying.
No! I just lost interest in talking to myself any more to be precise.
I crash on the bed and stare at the ceiling. Is this really what I've become at my age? Is this what is called cold and cruel, which I have never tried being? It's tiring, since I gave up after a while. All those words coming from everywhere, not my cup to handle.
But I never thought I had changed somehow, have I? I see no difference. I'm still being alive to my best efforts. I have been living my life...like a normal person, I guess.
But all those loud whispers and obvious stares...doesn't make me feel so normal after all!
Is this really so strange? Maybe I should give myself to her. Then I might be able to control her?
It's not like I even try to socialize, so why am I always a center? I am just a normal student…...am I?
Only if she knew, that till the time she's able to converse with the one she sees in the mirror she has it all in her control. And the other one still captive in the very mirror.
Once she surrenders in greed of control, that's when she'll actually lose it!
That's when it'll come all upon her...and she won't be able to suppress it anymore!!!
Status Power Mingguan
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