Bab 9: The past

The room was fascinating back home we didn't have a gaming room we had a pool instead and an indoor movie theater. I instantly went to the speaker and connected my phone than it started to play too good at goodbyes by Sam Smith. I turned the speaker up to full blast and went to the built in Minni fridge in the corner, I looked inside for 2 vodka cruisers and they suddenly appeared than I looked for a spirit and that appeared too. I took them and gave Jax the spirit and psycho a vodka cruiser I opened mine and started to drink it. "let's play a game" I say "why not" Tyler said as he sat on the couch and I sat on the table, "the game is spin the bottle " jax said as he smiled. "I'm in" I say "me too" psycho says "I'm done" Tyler said "what bout mr I'm emotionless" I laugh "I'll play unless your afraid you have to kiss me" Blade smirked. "oooohhhhhh" psycho called "I'm not afraid" I laugh "prove it" blade said I looked at him and rolled my eyes "chicen" Tyler called "don't push it" jax said. I looked up at had and saw blade still leaning against the wall with a smile on his fave so I get off the table and walk up to him and kiss him. His lips are still as warm as heaven and soft like clouds, as I pull away I look at him and laugh "chicken my ass" I say as I turn to go back to my seat. when I fell arms wrap around my waist that pull me close to the body as I look up I see blade. "is that what you call a kiss" he says "why would I give you a proper kiss when you don't deserve it" I say as I go to leave again when his arms tighten around my waist which forces me to be closer to him. I remember when we were kids and we would hook up in the woods behind the house and he would pull me in close like this and our lips would lock and out tongues would explore each others mouths. But the last time our lips touched like that was the day I was put on these pills, that was the day I lost who I loved and I tried to take my life away. I remember it like it was yesterday I was 12 maybe even 13 and blade was 13 maybe 14 but it was a normal day for me I woke up an hour before dawn and got ready for school. I put the school uniform on the blueshort skirt and nice white blouse and my converses, my hair was down and I had a back pack with my school books and lunch. I went down to the forest behind the mansion where I would meet blade like every other day. But blade had been drifting from me for the past few weeks, he stopped complementimg how I looked and texting me late at night. I waited at our tree and he walked towards me his face was emotionless his eyes looked red and he seemed different, as he came closer I pushed my lips onto his and my tongue took in every inch of his taste in but when we were finished. He looked at me and said "this isn't working, I'm not into you anymore, actually I never was into you I only made out with you cause I knew you were desperate, you were just a quick lay" he said. "what are you saying" I said with watery eyes "you are the ugliest girl I have ever meet why would a guy like me date a girl like you, look at you, I'm sick of having a girl like you around your so clingy and annoying" he said to me. "why are you saying this" I said as tears ran down my cheeks "I'm saying its done and it's all you not me" he said as he left me in the forest.