Bab 21: Fear, Enemy Of Intimacy

Upon hearing his voice filled with inexplicable charm, skittishness, and desire, Xu Mey ran for her life. She wasn't scared of intimacy. She wasn't even scared of amity either.

She was scared of being vulnerable. She was scared of showing her bare wounds which were not even healed yet. She was scared of sharing her life. Most of all she was scared of him-Ye Jie- The man who just barged into her life. She was scared of herself; Her heart that always went into delirium around him.

The girl who never let the idea of love cross her mind was losing her mind over a man. She wasn't a weak girl. At the least, not anymore.

She was a victim once. She fell hard as well like any other person in this world. But she was one of those victims who refused to stay as victims. She wanted to be different. She made herself stand tall.

She hid her own victim soul all these years. It is easier to live when people stop giving you pitiful looks. She didn't want Ye Jie to look at her like she was a particularly piteous person.

Li Qiao felt his phone vibrating in his pocket and pulled it out to have a look. He kept staring at the caller id flashing on the screen intently. After a moment of hesitation, he picked up the call and walked towards the hallway.

"Hello! President, Li?" The feminine voice on the other side was low but really alluring. He stayed quiet. "I heard you want me to sign the movie with Director Yang," Realizing he was listening, she continued in her beautiful voice.

"If you already heard about my decision, why are you bothering me?" He was brusque in his speech.

"I just wanted to hear it from you," Her voice held a tint of pain and sadness.

Li Qiao didn't want to talk anymore. He was feeling tired as he rubbed his forehead when he saw Xu Mey coming towards him briskly.

"I'll call you back later, " He disconnected the call and placed his hands on Xu Mey's shoulders to support her.

Her breathing was harsh as if she ran for miles. Her beautiful black eyes were glistening.

"What's wrong Little Mey? Did something happen? Are you feeling okay?" Li Qiao's voice was low but filled concern and indulgence.

"Qiao Qiao, you need to help me, " She looked up at his deep eyes trying to catch her breath.

"Mey, why did you come out like this?" This voice belonged to Wu Wang who followed her out to the hallway seeing her worried look.

Xu Mey tilted her head to see all her friends coming closer to her anxiously. She looked back at Li Qiao and said, "I forgot something very important."

"Tell me what it is and I will help you."

"In my escapade of revenge, I forgot that I'll have to share my life with another person." Her voice was low but audible to everyone as she buried her face in her hands.

All of them shared a stupified look at her words except for Li Qiao, he had a small smile on his face. His gaze was indulgent as he caressed her smooth silky hair.

"Are you scared of sex?" Jun Li Na asked with an arched brow.

Xu Mey took a moment before replying, "Yes. That's exactly what I'm scared of." She nodded her head repeatedly to emphasize her words.

"Little Mey, look at me?" Li Qiao held Xu Mey's delicate face in his callused palms. "First of all, stop lying to yourself." Xu Mey stared back at his deep eyes. "You're not scared of sharing your life or your body with him. You're only scared of showing him your scars. Also, what those scars made you into."

Xu Mey bit her lower lip. "You just don't want to show your vulnerable side to him along with your dark side. You're scared that he won't be able to accept that part of you."

"No. That's not true." She shook her head stubbornly declining the truth. "If I would have been scared of that. I wouldn't have agreed for this marriage."

"When you agreed for the marriage, he was just another man in your life. Now, that man somehow became a part in your messed up life." Lin Shen commented.

"'Your naked body only belongs to those who fall in love with your naked soul.' If he can't accept that dark part of your soul, he really doesn't deserve you." He Jian's words made her fall into deep thought again.

Did she want him to fall in love with her? Did she want him to see her dark side?

She wasn't sure about the former question but the answer to the second question was quite clear in her mind. No, she didn't want him to see her dark soul.

"Fear is the greatest enemy of intimacy. Stop being scared of useless stuff. Remember, we face things as they come." With those words, Li Qiao buried her slender figure in his embrace.