Bab 85: Tomorrow will be a better day

How does she know that she can't love him? Thanks to the bond, she can't tell whether she can love him or not.  

If he keeps looking at her like that, she will waver. She will hug him. She will kiss him. She will love him.

The thought scares her. Why did she think that she loves him? 

She can't trust whether it's her or the bond. Why does it matter to her so much? She shouldn't care whether it's the bond or her free will. But, it's important to her. If she loves someone, she wants to do it under no outsider's influence. She wants to experience it genuinely. 

That's why she doesn't promise him that she won't try breaking the bond.

"Fu Sheng, I want..." 'You'.

"What do you want?" He probes her. "Don't hesitate. You can tell me, Huang Qiuyan."