"Fan Luo!" Jin Chonglin grabbed the hysterical woman's upper arms and gently shook her. "Calm down!"
"You can't break up with me! I'll really kill myself!" Fan Luo cried.
He gritted his teeth, trying to rein in his frustration. He could no longer count how many times she threatened him with suicide and reminded him of the miscarriage.
He wasn't stupid. He knew that Fan Luo was using the miscarriage to tie him down. And she succeeded. How else could she get him, Jin Chonglin, to propose to her?
He had no idea that she was so emotional and possessive. In all honesty, she was starting to scare him. Dealing with her on a constant basis drained him. These days, he preferred to work nonstop rather than to spend time with her.
If it were any other woman, he would already wash his hands clean and never look back. However, he couldn't treat Fan Luo like that.
She was a childhood friend. In addition, their mothers were best friends and treated each other like sisters. They wanted to marry their children together to officially solidify their relationship as family.
He had to admit that he never had any deep feelings for Fan Luo other than as a childhood friend.
As they were growing up, perhaps due to both of their mothers' constant attempts to pair them together, Fan Luo also began to fall for him. He knew about her feelings for him, but he never reciprocated.
He rejected her numerous times, telling her that he only saw her as a younger sister, but she would brush his rejections aside and continue to shower him with affection. She didn't cross the line then to seduce him, so he continued to treat her the same way like a sister.
But everything changed one night. He was at a friend's birthday party and drunk a lot. He was the type of person who worked hard and played hard, so getting drunk wasn't something rare for him. However, he didn't know which stupid person called Fan Luo over to come pick him up, but she showed up and drove him back home.
He didn't remember what happened afterwards but when he woke up the next day, Fan Luo was sleeping beside him. Both of them were naked. He was confused and shocked, but looking at all the evidence, he could only conclude that he f*cked his childhood friend while drunk out of his mind. There were dried sem*n all over the sheets and their bodies.
After this incident, it was as if she transformed from an innocent childhood friend into a seductive temptress. He was only a man so against his better judgment, he would lose control every time she seduced him and they would end up f*cking like there was no tomorrow.
He couldn't deny his desire for her body. After some time, he accepted the fact that they had become lovers. However, he never committed to an exclusive relationship with her and she seemed to accept it. He thought that everything was going well.
Until she told him that she was pregnant. His first thought was, "Impossible!"
Except for that night when they had sex for the first time while he was drunk, he always made sure to use protection. And that night was so long ago. She didn't get pregnant then. He also knew that she was on birth control pills. She assured him that she was taking the pills everyday.
But suddenly, she was telling him that due to her doctor's advice for some health reasons, she had to stop taking the pills for a few months. She also told him that condoms weren't 100% foolproof, and perhaps a condom broke without them noticing.
He wasn't ready to be a father. He didn't promise her anything, but swore that he would acknowledge the child as his own once it was proven that it was his.
Of course, his decision infuriated the Fan family. The Fans pressured him to marry her, but he didn't budge.
His mother didn't say anything, but he imagined that she was displeased with him as well because she was very close to Fan Luo's mother. She also treated Fan Luo like a daughter that she never had. Although his mother didn't agree with his reckless decision of pursuing a showbiz career at first, she never stopped him and even quietly supported him.
He didn't care about what others say about him, but his mother's opinion mattered. It didn't mean that he would do anything she asked of him, but she had the power to make him stop and consider his actions. She would gently suggest, but never forcefully order. She always had the policy of letting him and his older brother make the final decisions in their own lives. Perhaps this was why he felt guilty of displeasing her.
However, Jin Chonglin could be very headstrong when he wanted to. If he wanted to do something, he would do it. Similarly, if he didn't want to do something, nobody was capable of forcing him. Not even his mother or his bossy older brother. Otherwise, why would the Second Master of the Jin family disregard his status and pursue a career in showbiz?
He ignored all the pressure from the Fan family, what he imagined to be the displeasure of his own mother, and the barely veiled ridicule of the Jin family elders. That was until he heard the news that Fan Luo was in the hospital in critical condition due to miscarriage.
He wasn't so heartless to ignore Fan Luo at this point. Although he didn't love her, he still cared about her. When he saw her weak and crying nonstop, he was filled with guilt.
They told him she was suffering from depression. He felt so sorry and so guilty, even thinking that it was his fault that she miscarried, that without thinking he proposed marriage to her. Of course, she accepted immediately.
Back to the present.
Jin Chonglin was overwhelmed by all the negative emotions he felt at the moment. Ever since he and Fan Luo became engaged, he always felt like walking on eggshells around her, afraid of triggering her fragile emotional state.
His guilt could only last so long. He was already regretting his decision of proposing to her. He was starting to feel that their relationship was becoming toxic with each passing day. He didn't want to live like this.
However, he already ignited everyone's expectations. His mother didn't force him to do anything, but he could sense that she was pleased with his engagement to her best friend's daughter.
"Calm down," he told her again. "You can't use this against me forever. I already agreed to marry you. Don't go beyond my limits. Don't make me lose my respect for you."
Fan Luo crumpled to the floor, bawling. Her make-up remained impressive as ever though, not ruined by her torrent of tears. She spent a lot to get the latest edition of her favourite brand's waterproof make-up.
"So you don't feel anything at all when I lost our baby? I'm the only one heartbroken? How can you be so heartless, big brother? It was our baby! Your baby!"
Jin Chonglin wavered.
Lin Dong quietly snuck out of the dressing room. Firstly, to allow the engaged couple their privacy; and secondly, to guard the door outside and ensure that nobody was spying on them. This was a sensitive matter after all, perfect material for a scandal.
"I didn't mean that." Jin Chonglin sighed. "Of course I'm sad that you lost our baby. I'm just tired today, Xiao Luo." He helped her stand up and hugged her, rubbing her back to soothe her.
Fan Luo hugged him around the waist tightly. Her tears soaked the front of his shirt. "Oh, big brother! Please don't break up with me. I can't live without you. I love you so much!"
"Okay, okay." He murmured to her, continuing to console her.
He just wanted her to stop crying already. How long was she going to continue crying? His headache hurt so badly.
"I love you, big brother Lin."
"Okay," he mumbled.
He needed some painkillers.
Originally, I planned to announce this after the New Year mass release but many of you already started asking me.
I signed a contract, so yes, this novel will eventually become premium. But not immediately. As of now, I still don't know when that will happen. I personally don't want it to happen too early. It will be a joint decision between me and Webnovel.
When it happens, I'll make sure to inform all of you in advance.
Thanks for the support!
Inside the radio broadcasting studio, Iris wore headphones and sat in front of a microphone while conversing with one of the most popular radio hosts in the country, DJ Song.
DJ Song and JJ were friends. As a result, JJ's artists frequently guested in DJ Song's radio show. And now, Iris was experiencing this benefit.
The previous Iris Long guested in countless radio shows, but was never invited to DJ Song's radio show before. Aside from being a DJ, he was also known as a harsh music critic. He shared the same high standards as his friend, JJ.
With the previous Iris Long's shallow songs, how could she expect to be invited by DJ Song? She would just be asking him to shred her to pieces with his criticisms.
Now, however, was different. Although she could sense DJ Song's reservations about her, he was polite because she was now one of JJ's artists.
The show was being broadcast live on air on radio. In addition, there were also video cameras mounted in different locations within the studio and a cameraman moving around inside to livestream online.
Iris was very calm and eloquent, surprising DJ Song and the staff working on the other side of the studio's glass partition.
At the start of the interview, they talked about general things and her abrupt retirement. She briefly shared about the accident and her coma, basically repeating what she said at her "MusicFest Tonight" interview the night before.
DJ Song made some sympathetic noises but quickly moved on from the topic. He and JJ had an agreement that more focus should be placed on her upcoming album.
DJ Song: "How did you come to work with Old J? I know what he's like. He won't accept just anyone."
Iris laughed lightly and everyone thought that her laughter sounded lovely.
Iris: "Indeed. Mr. JJ has extremely high standards, but that's also why I was determined to work with him. Who doesn't want to work with the best, right? I sent him a couple of demo tapes. And then I got a call from him and that's how everything started."
DJ Song: "That's it? He accepted you just like that?"
Iris: "Of course not. How could it be that easy? Let's just say that he liked the songs I sent him but was doubtful about me because my previous musical style was very different. In the end, we ended up meeting for lunch and he dared me to perform live at the restaurant. I accepted the challenge and as they say, the rest is history."
DJ Song: "In other words, he made you audition."
Iris: "Now that I think about it, yes, maybe that was my audition. It's one of my most memorable experiences, the first time that I performed with this new musical style in front of a live audience."
DJ Song: "Were you nervous?"
Iris: "Of course. I think that anyone who is dared by Mr. JJ to perform on the spot will feel nervous."
DJ Song: "Ahahaha! That's true. But not me. I'm not afraid of that old man."
Everyone laughed.
DJ Song: "What's it like working personally with Old J? I hope he didn't make you cry. He has a reputation of reducing his artists to tears with his extremely high standards and demands. Difficult guy to work with, right?"
Iris: "No, he didn't make me cry."
DJ Song: "Really? Congratulations! How rare."
She chuckled.
Iris: "As for being difficult…I don't see him that way. We all know that he has extremely high standards. And that's why I wanted to work with him in the first place. Instead of saying he's difficult, I think it's more appropriate to say that he's adept in giving out constructive criticisms."
DJ Song: "That's a nice way to put it, but you're right. He has difficult demands from his artists because he wants to draw out their full potentials. Hearing you say all these about him, it seems that your experience working with him was harmonious?"
Iris: "Absolutely not. We actually fought a lot while recording."
DJ Song: "What? You fought with Old J and you're still alive and sane?"
Everyone laughed.
DJ Song: "What did you fight about?"
Iris: "Differences in our ideas. He had all sorts of ideas on how to perfect my songs for their final versions, but I didn't always agree with him. I composed all the songs in the album myself, so I feel…hmm, protective of them, I guess. As the composer, I have a vision in my head on how I want each of my songs to sound like. Mr. JJ and I fought a lot because our visions differed from one another."
DJ Song: "Oh, I see. So what happened? How did you resolve these differences in your visions?"
Iris: "A lot of fighting…I mean, debating. But in the end, we were able to reach a compromise that made both of us satisfied with the final results."
DJ Song: "Wow. Let me just say that I'm impressed with you for being able to stand up against Old J. I know what he's like. He's very stubborn and likes to get what he wants, especially when it comes to music."
Iris: "Yes, but I'm also very stubborn and like to get what I want when it comes to music. Especially now. Back then, I always let others decide the music I sang. I followed others' lead. I don't want to be like that anymore. I want the freedom to choose my own music. I want to feel comfortable whenever I sing and perform. I want to be myself."
DJ Song: "I see. Makes sense. Very inspiring."
Iris: "Thank you."
DJ Song: "And now do you feel that you're being yourself? Will this be your musical style from now on?"
Iris: "Yes, I feel very much like myself now so I'm very happy and grateful to Mr. JJ for giving me this opportunity. As for this musical style, I'm not going to say anything definite. Like I said, I want freedom when it comes to music. That means that I'm going to do my best to sing songs from the heart. My emotions change, so I think that it's only natural that my music will also change based on my life experiences. Also, I want to develop my composing skills so exploring different kinds of styles might prove useful to me."
DJ Song: "That sounds exciting. It looks like this is only the start of us seeing the new Iris Long, folks! It seems that she has more in store for all of us!"
I don't condone R-A-P-E.
Jin Liwei is a yandere but not a rapist. Iris is innocent but not entirely clueless. She's still exploring her sexuality. If she doesn't like his actions, she has the ability & guts to cut off his pen*s & shove it down his throat. Their currently fast & imbalanced relationship is deliberate for later character development. Also remember that this is a "fiction" novel.
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Mass release tomorrow, my beloved readers. Thank you for the love!
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