Bab 199: Not to Become a Demon (1)

"None of us expected her to go so soon. Chuntao, why do you hurt yourself like this?" Shen Zichen questioned her. He'd never thought that Li Chuntao was having thoughts like this. 

Li Chuntao lowered her head refusing to meet his gaze. How could she explain this to him? It was only because of Ying that she had him back in her life. If anything, she wished that she and Shen Zichen had reconciled under different circumstances; one which didn't involve her twin sister's death. 

She didn't think she deserved the happiness she had right now, not when those people who caused Ying's death were still around. 

"Do I even deserve all of this?" She covered her face with both hands and sobbed. 

Shen Zichen then realized that because Li Chuntao was the surviving twin, her guilt stemmed from the fact that she continued to live while her twin had passed on. Li Chuntao felt guilty for being alive.