Bab 84: Breathe, Anna
"Do you still love me?"
Ren expected her to throw a fit for asking that question. But her reaction made him speechless. She pushed him away and closed her face with her hands. He stood there frozen for few minutes staring at her with an emotionless face.
When he heard her sobs he was brought back to reality as he rushed to her. He held her shoulders but she brushed it off. He tried to remove her hands from his face but she didn't budge, even a little. To his surprise she was so strong, he had only seen her melt on his touch not being resistant.
He kind of grew impatient as he called out to her, "Anna.... Anna let me look at you..... Anna.... I'm sorry, okay.... Let me look at you". She kept crying without saying anything or removing her hands. Atlast he shouted, "Ria!", she shivered a little and let him remove her hands.
He lifted her face as he pinched her chin but her eyes were averte. Her once painted face was a little bit smithered. Her eyes and lips were moist, while her eye makeup was a little smudged on the corners and under her eyes. But she looked more enchanting now, Ren gulped some saliva and said to her, "Look at me".
Those glittery yet hurt eyes looked straight at him. He felt a sharp cut on his heart, he hugged her while holding the back of her head. Ren's felt the same tightened feeling in his throat as he said a strained voice "I'm really sorry, Anna.
I didn't mean to hurt you or anything. It is just that... uh... when Lucianna called that day I took your phone from your bag.
After that, I kept it back inside your bag. But, I saw contraceptive pills inside your bag". Ria stopped crying as she heard his words. She thought, 'That explains everything'. Her whole being relaxed in his embrace.
Ren continued while hugging her tight as his voice displayed some anger, "I fu**ing counted the number of pills to make sure that you didn't take it. I don't know how to describe, the way I felt at that time. I know we didn't talk about having more kids but still, it kind of hurts". Ria lifted her head to look at him, she caressed his face looking into his eyes.
She then said shaking her head, tears rolled down from her eyes as she blinked, "I am not ready to have another kid Ren, atleast not for now. We just started to get back to how we used to be. Even though I love our kids, my pregnancy time with them was not something that left a good aftertaste.
I mean, I was happy while I had them but that was the most difficult times of my life". She wrapped her arms around Ren's neck as she hugged him and said while resting her face on his shoulder after wiping her tears, "I am truly sorry for hurting you. I should have discussed about this with you before taking it.
I am scared, Ren. I am not the same woman you fell in love with years ago. I don't know what I will do, if you let go of me again. When I'm not even sure about my future with you, I can't bring another life into our lifes.
Ofcourse, I do. More than you will ever know. You were my world, you are my world and you will always be my world". Ren smiled as he made her look at him and took her lower lip, he bit her as he asked, "Still now you won't say it?"
Ria gave him a look with an raised eyebrow saying, 'What do you think?' Ren kissed her sweetly and gently. Then he wiped her tears and hugged her tight. He said in a deep low voice, "I love you, Anna. I may not be as expressive as you, I will make you cry, I will fight with you all the time, I will argue with you all the time.
But, at the same time, I will make you smile as much as I will make you cry, I will make love to you as much as I will fight with you and I will spoil you rotten as much as I will argue with you". He bent down a little and whispered in her left ear, "You are my life, Rianna Raj".
Her face became a tomato as he said each word, she buried herself into his embrace. Ren cleared his throat and asked in a little bit nervous voice, "You will marry me, right?" Ria chuckled as soon as she heard it. Her cheeks were still red as she peeked out of his embrace and looked into his eyes.
She slowly moved her lips and said with a deep thinking face, "I will think about it". Ren squinted his eyes and asked, "Are you sure you are in the position to think about?" Ria said confidently, "Why no..." But Ren was a step ahead as he captured her lips along with her words.
This time it was different as he crushed her into his embrace and crashed into her lips. She couldn't breathe after few minutes, Ren stopped reluctantly and whispered, "Breathe, Anna". She nodded as she pulled him close to her and took deep breaths.
He rested his forehead on hers as she looked into his eyes and panted. Those moist puffy eyes which stirred inside him the feel to protect as well as possess her. He caressed her face and slowly ran his thumb on her red lips as he said, "Did I mention how gorgeous you are today?"
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